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Post by francoise on Nov 29, 2006 15:32:42 GMT
gosh how things can change in a few days eh , i feel as bad as i ever did , been back to the docs , shes referred me to a gynacologist to see if they can try and shut my ovaries dwon this time so i dont have another two years of the same as after leon , well i might end up having them out , see i was alright till my period , then i totally felt nuts again so its early days but god its exactly a month since i felt ill just after having her then i had a wonderful few weeks , but yeah so far adrenolin might have helped and so much hope , but i think im back to square one but the good thing is shes fine and getting better all the time , so still blessed
fran xxxxxxxxxxx
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Post by chica on Nov 29, 2006 18:24:18 GMT
Hi Francoise, I PMd you earlier on, hope you got it okay. I am so sorry you are going through the mill again, mind you I found exhaustion played a huge part in my falling apart, at least this time round you knew all the signs and have got help early, (a small comfort I know), just to let you know I am here for you, and thinking of you. Lots of Love ang Hugs Chica
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Post by cheshire on Nov 29, 2006 21:16:56 GMT
Fran
So sorry to hear you've hit this again.. As Chica says, we're here for you
xxxx
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Post by francoise on Dec 4, 2006 16:07:02 GMT
thanks girls
its so up n down , was at casualty for hours as sam has broke his foot again , leon has p[ooed everywhere , just sending off a sample today of it to see if theres anything funny in it , , well thats what they said its for , god knows if they really test it or not, daz has gone to cornwall and hes just rang n said its for five weeks and not three now altho he has xmas week off , trying to fight off these feelings , the dizziness has been the biggest pain in the arse , i was up all night and had to bath leon at five o clock coz hes messing water and its going thru everything , shame eh , bless him altho hes quite happy really . melody has missed her skin appointment today , couldnt make it but they will surely send me another one soon enough , her first jab is on the twentieth of dec , what fun eh not
anyway thanks girlies , eight weeks old can u believe already , gorgeous tho
fran xxxxxxxxx
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Post by francoise on Dec 6, 2006 9:31:38 GMT
things are changing , sam isnt to bad so hes off to school tomorrow on his crutches, hes got course work to do n he wants to go in although half grudgingly
leon slept thru without screamining or pooing the bed and leody has a streaming nose but seems happy enough and is drinking well , didnt speak to daz as i was to busy last night , anyway i lost his tax disc and i had to ring them up n get another sent , its easy to do online tho or by phone , saved having to get to a post office this time ,
anyway piling weight on for some reason so must make a concerted effort to get rid of all this blubber , my shrink phoned me to , got an appointment in jan as cant go without daz being here as i cant take the kids with me , n noone will have both of them at the same time , health visitor tomorrow , shes gonna see me about stiopping mel getting up two hourly but hey its my fourth so i must be doing soemthing the same way with each of them as they all did that pretty much , i dont mind really at least im checking her to at the same time as feeding her in the night ,
fran xxxx
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Post by francoise on Dec 10, 2006 9:02:16 GMT
just had daz home for the weekeend , had an awful few days , thought i finally lost the plot and maybe i did for abit , anyway hes going back today , cant see my gp as she is in the antartic for a month but i decided to risk having all my bits taken out , prob is i had sex yesterday morning and he only had the snip two weeks ago or less actually thinking bout it , anywya was emotional and at 40 you would think i would know better but just wanted a cuddle really and it ended up sex again so now i thinking morning after pill but i dont it to make me unable to look after the kids but if i risk not taking it could i be preggers again , period is due in five days so unlikely eh but still im sure possible , the other side of it is i feel so good when pregnant but i really dont want another baby and ill just feel shit again possibley afterwards anyway like now or maybe worse or maybe miles better but i would run ragged so wouldnt feel good there anyway , ah the webs i weave eh
fran
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Post by francoise on Dec 10, 2006 13:11:46 GMT
well phoned up nhs and they said between 25 n 30 quid for the morning after pill so to try out of hours docs which i did n they very nicely faxed me a prescription thru to sainsburys and anyway took it now , ust the one pill it is now they said , dont feel any different yet and its been a couple of hours , dont know if i should anyway , maybe i wont , but yeah thought it best but on so many levels was tempted not to , decided to if i egt the option im gonna have the lot whipped out i think , yeah for sure , if i grow a beard and wrinkle up even more i dont care as long as i feel abit more normal im gonna be well pleased , will try tho not to stay im hossy for long , just one night im hoping if it comes to it , maybe ill get the jab n wont need the op yet , be easier eh
fran xxxxxxxx
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Post by Veritee on Dec 10, 2006 20:54:47 GMT
:)How did the morning after pill go Fran? I know what you mean by just wanting a cuddle and ending up with something else - i think we never learn this however old we are and I have to say that quite often, even at over 50, it is me that makes it lead on to something else - I think I want a cuddle but you know 'one thing leads to another' but I really do hope you are not pregnant or the morning after pill works I just could not imagine looking after three Babs under 5!!!! Do you still feel OK or has it made you feel ill? I just asked Caja - who is the only person I know personally who has taken it since it has been chanced to the new formula and to one pill and not two....... and she says it did not make her feel ill at all The old system often did but apparently not so much with the 'one only morning after pill' But even if it does it will not make you feel any worse than when you were pregnant apparently?? but of course that is bad enough let us know how it went? Veritee
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Post by francoise on Dec 11, 2006 9:56:04 GMT
yeah its fine , well i got so horny after abit , dont usually but feeling randy as hell ever since too , dying for it again but im gonna have to think of something to use , he wont wear condoms for some strange reason , still i might make him i think ,
feeling abit more normal , started taking my prozac again just to cushion any mad outbursts , sometimes i do get hysterical and run away from everything , good job i dont drive or god knows where i would end up at times , got to try and put a lid on things , dont get angry ever really just upset , anyway i spose evrryone has their moments eh
babes jab next week , dreading it , i have to do it altho the h.v said she would but i think it has to be me or daz and he aint here so its gonna be me , bless her , got to be done though eh
francoise xxxx
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Post by francoise on Dec 13, 2006 14:29:09 GMT
did i actually type that last post , god has that feeling gone , i cant believe i felt that , its amazing what a few days can do eh , feel completely frigid and not interested one bit , cant hardly function as it is without sex , oh well back to the grindstone eh
fran xxx
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Post by francoise on Dec 14, 2006 14:29:02 GMT
feeling like crap , i just realised this is in pregnancy isnt it , oh dear , , oh well what to do with it then ,
just thought i had a revelation this morning but its gone again , thought the prob was congestion in the mornings but chest pains and feeling doom doesnt really match that diagnosis , anyway ill keep on looking for an answer i think , i can always tell when im quite bad as i dont even comb my hair or wear a bra , saggy tits and a scarecrow look is me right now ,
francoisexxx
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Post by cheshire on Dec 19, 2006 23:09:48 GMT
Hi Fran
How you feeling? Hx
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Post by francoise on Mar 18, 2007 13:54:22 GMT
five and a half months post birth and its the worse time of my life , its horrendous , loads worse than after leons and yet so different , if melody had of been my first than i would absolutely not have another , shes so lovely and no trouble but its hell living everyday and just seemingly waiting for some miracle to happen , it feels like one long continuous blip
francoise xxx
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Post by monica on Mar 18, 2007 18:23:41 GMT
Hi Fran
Poor you! What's up? Is it PNI like before or different? Have been wondering how you'v ebeen getting on, hoping things would be easier. Are the antids working? Could it just be a blip?
I've had a few mega bad wobbly days follwing counselling but don't feel too bad the past few. This illness completely sucks. Just when you thingk you're coming out the other end.....
Anyway, sending you a huge hug and I'm here to listen
Love
Monica
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Post by cheshire on Mar 19, 2007 18:58:02 GMT
Fran
Here for you. Not sure what to say, but we are all here for you
Thinking of you
Love Hopefulx
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