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Post by brach24 on Aug 17, 2014 7:19:05 GMT
I didn't wake at 4 yay!! Little one was up at 6.30 and has just gone down for a nap!! The rest of the house is still asleep. I could sleep again too I think. Thanks for your support q. I like how you view not caring what others think as opposite to courage of convictions. That's so true. And yes I think it is pni for me. I used to be so strong and Unphased by others if I knew it wasn't true. Now it knocks me sideways even just to think they might be negative to me. Hoping and praying that all goes well with my mums arrival today. I just found out that a friend on a forum I use for my physical stuff has passed away. Prob from our mutual condition. She was a lot worse than me. Reminds me how fragile life is though and how real these online forum are. Would never have thought I'd be so affected as I am just now. Hope all you girls are ok and coping ok. Love u all lots and so glad to have found this place. Xx Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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Post by monica on Aug 17, 2014 8:31:15 GMT
Hi
I'm so sorry about ur friend. Online or not she was still a friend and I've found with this site that online as opposed face to face you reveal more of urself this establishing extremely close bonds . It's tough especially if u have the same condition - makes u think.
PNI also made me hypersensitive to comments and what people thought however post pni I care much much less - you'll b the same. It's wonderful your mum is moving closer . I'm sure it's great for her too so don't beat urself up about it and look forward to the extra help ! Maybe just make sure you both have ur space.
Hope u feel better for sleeping thru. Insomnia is a bitch - I'm prone to it. Hope the day goes wellxxx
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Post by Weeble on Aug 17, 2014 18:14:23 GMT
I agree online friends are real friends I count some of the girls.on here as my best friends in the whole world. it's very sad and must make you feel vunerable. On your mum, I think many of us understand that. Remember these are left over belief systems from your childhood and you don't need to please your mum. On your mum's friends they are just that and of absolutely no relevance to you remember your mum is getting to spend time with her grandchild that is gold dust
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Post by brach24 on Aug 18, 2014 4:29:49 GMT
Wide awake and the sun is rising. My eldest woke me to take her to the toilet. I never get back over again for ages. I've tried to explain to her but she's only 7 and I love that she wants me and needs me still. But it is exhausting. My mum arrived and it all went well. She bought us takeaway for tea so that really helped. She's great with the girls too and doing dishes etc. thinking I might get lazy but it's so good!! I get anxious about cooking especially for visitors so I'm hoping she quickly drops out of visitor category in my head or it's going to be a long few months of her living here. Still not sure how best to respond to my friends passing. She lived in USA - might send a card to her sister. Thinking I'd love to get up and go for a walk but know I'd waken everyone getting ready and out. Thanks for your understanding and encourgement k & m
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Post by Weeble on Aug 18, 2014 10:02:26 GMT
My eldest is eight and I love that he still needs me so much too. Create a mantra in your head mum is not a guest she is a member of the family. Repeat over and over again then wow its true
K
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Post by brach24 on Aug 19, 2014 22:26:34 GMT
I feel in a bubble. I don't feel in control at all. Tired and worried about lots of things. Hope I can sleep through.
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Post by brach24 on Aug 20, 2014 3:27:20 GMT
Woke up to my girl saying "I went to the toilet on my own for you mummy" she then went to bed and called for me to tuck her in!! So sweet!! .... But totally not getting it !! So now I'm wide awake in that exhausted way. School starts back in a few hours. Dreading the playground parent chat. Hope I'm well enough in my head to chat without stuttering or walking off. Hope I don't get too anxious with the wee one and shout at her too much in the rush to get ready.
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Post by monica on Aug 20, 2014 8:44:39 GMT
Hope the school run went ok.
Oh bless ur daughter! Can u get her to get in to bed with u after going to toilet ? At least disruption would be minimised.
What's bothering u? Perhaps list ur worries on here. When in black and white it often can help u focus otherwise u get this jumble of worries rolling around in ur mindx
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Post by Weeble on Aug 20, 2014 11:52:54 GMT
Hope today gone well :-)
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Post by brach24 on Aug 20, 2014 20:01:16 GMT
Thanks. She was really nervous going in but coped ok and said it was good when I picked her up. It was ok being around the other parents but slightly awkward as had planned to see some of them over the summer but hadn't felt up to it. My mum has been very stressed so it's been pretty intense helping her and trying to work through her stuff with her. It's good being able to help her as I've always been too far away. She's been a great practical help to me too - she even did the tesco run and I hate the tesco run!! I start in to a 7.30 start at work tomorrow so thinking an early night is in order. Would gladly have my girl in with me but she likes her own space I should prob try and write it all down what's whizzing round my head but I'm too tired just now x Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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Post by Weeble on Aug 20, 2014 21:35:53 GMT
Sleep well.
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Post by brach24 on Aug 21, 2014 4:34:56 GMT
Been awake since 3 (now 5.30) only an hour till alarm goes off. Am feeling anxious and can't pinpoint why - lots of possibles - don't want to leave baby for work tomorrow, worried about my mum who's not coping well, worried about my girl not enjoying school, my friend who is ill and how to help her, sore head and if it might turn into a migraine. Ugh, going to rest my body even if I'm not sleeping this hour. I hope I'm not over emotional all day from the tiredness.
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Post by quantumrose on Aug 21, 2014 16:17:27 GMT
Hello lovely, how did work go? Xxx
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Post by Weeble on Aug 21, 2014 19:16:36 GMT
:-)
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Post by brach24 on Aug 21, 2014 22:14:48 GMT
I survived the day!! I was late for work as I overused the snooze button but it wasn't a problem. Managed the full 8hrs and even had some client contact. It felt good. I feel well. My physical health is all over the place so my dodgy tummy caused a bit of stress but I coped well with it. Hoping for better sleep tonight zzzzzz
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