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Post by susanneb1984 on Oct 24, 2005 10:30:40 GMT
I think Alan and I are going to go to the cinema and out for a meal on saturday. He's got work early on sunday morning so I think that's what we are going to do. We will have to decide where to go and eat, I think he's thinking chinese.
I think we are going to see my Grandma today. I've got to take my AS kit up because I don't want to tell my Grandma what I'm doing and she's going to wonder why I've got TWO suitcases for ONE night! lol so if I take it today, I can leave it with my mum and then pick it up when I drop Thea off on the day of my party. Hmmmm yes! lol My Grandma is quite religious an thinks all AS shops should be shut down! lol so I can imagine her face if she knew I worked for them!
I hope you all have a good, positive, productive day.
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Post by susanneb1984 on Oct 24, 2005 20:13:55 GMT
Well, we went to see my Grandma who still isn't well, she has just had an op on her piles! Lovely I know, so she's going back to the doctors tomorrow. I spent a good hour or so with my mum on our own tasting the chocolate I bought from the choc shop! The 100% cocoa stuff is revolting! lol It was lovely to spend time together though. Alan's gone to his friends now.
Thea's wanting to paint my face tomorrow, like a witch, which should be fun if nothing else! Will be a change from the normal eye shadow and mascara I suppose! lol
Anyway, am starving so off for food!
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Post by susanneb1984 on Oct 25, 2005 10:19:26 GMT
Well, it's tuesday and Thea's just got up, and she's watching CBeebies! She wants to paint my face today. We bought some face paints the other day, she's mad about dressing up! Apparently I've got to be a big green witch! lol so who knows what I'll look like once Thea has finished with me! She loves all the arty type stuff!
It's raining her and it's so cold today, urggggg I think winter is well and truly on it's way! So I was thinking something like stew and dumplings for tea!? Will have to send Alan to the shop coz there's no way I'm taking the girls out today! We'd freeze! I've just turned the heating up, I'm hoping for our 'quiet time' we can sit and watch a DVD or read some books today, all snuggled up on the sofa together.
Alan's on an early shift which means he finishes at 4:30 today which is brill coz we get to spend some time together, Thea doesn't much like it though because it means he starts at 8am so she can't go wake him up in the morning. She loves going in and waking him up, then he reads to her for an hour or so before coming down to me. It's so nice.
I'm hoping the weathers not like this all week, we've got out 6 week check this week, even though GJ is nearly 8 weeks old! And then she's got her 1st jabs on monday 31st! Not looking forward to that at all!
Well, I'd better get going, Thea's wanting me to colour in with her! Ooooo it's never ending fun for us today, I love it when she's in this cuddly, happy mood. And GJ's gurgling in her moses basket, so am hoping they are both in a good mood today!
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Post by cheshire on Oct 25, 2005 18:16:10 GMT
Hiya Susanne,
Sound like your day got off to a good start - did you have any fun? I've got to dress up as a witch on Saturday night along with my sister for our 'spooky walk' . My little girl and my niece are the ''witches' cats' LOL. I'v even got tooth blackener - God what will I look like -probably no different to usual lol.
Oh well, let us know how you go.
Hugs, Hopefulx
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Post by susanneb1984 on Oct 26, 2005 0:11:17 GMT
Phew! Well it's now 1am. I've been up since 8am tuesday morning, and now am a bit knackered to be honest! GJ has been very unsettled today, and has only just gone to sleep. She's not slept all day and cried everytime I put her down! She can be normally clingy, but Thea's been quite demanding as well today, she's been wanting my attention as well. Then when Alan got home, he wanted me too, so I felt like locking myself away and going to sleep to be honest! I'm hoping GJ will sleep ok, she should do, she's been awake nearly 24 hours! lol
I think I'm going to have to change her milk now, she's taking 6oz every hour or so, I think I'll get some of the milk for hungrier babies on friday, I think I can cope until then! lol I thought I had managed to get the proplus back into the cupboard, but once again I've has the box stuck to my hand! lol Let's hope they are both a bit calmer tomorrow, or I think Alan will be getting left with them while I sleep! Of course I've got used to not sleeping all night, as I'm doing all the night feeds, but this been up nearly 24 hours is not fun! Especially when then I'm expected to be awake long enough to paint Thea's face and read her a story! lol
We had a giggle painting our faces though! She thought it was 'so much fun' in her words! lol I looked like a right mess by the time she had finished with me, but it all washed off easily enough! lol
Anyway, off to sleep! Night girlys xxx
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Post by susanneb1984 on Oct 26, 2005 10:09:28 GMT
Well, GJ slept like she usually does! Midnight - 6am, then has a feed, then until 9am, then another feed, then until 11ish and she's grunting and groaning in her basket as we speak! lol
I'm still really tired though, and am almost dreading saturday night without either girls, because I can sleep and I'm a bit worried I'll end up more tired than I am now! lol You can't win can you?
Well, nothing planned for today, although we should go out or do something really, might see how Alan feels first!
Got my 1st AS party a week on friday! WooHoo! I can't wait, I think we might go out after it, ooooo it's been over a year since I had a night out, and about 2 years since I had a night out with my cousin. I always seem to spend too much and drink too much when I go out with her! lol she's a bad influence!
I hope you all have fantastic days today! I've made sure the face paints are well out of the way today! lol I don't have the energy!
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Post by susanneb1984 on Oct 26, 2005 20:32:47 GMT
I've put GJ on the milk for hungrier babies in the hope she will be a bit calmer and sleep a bit better!
It's weird, I've had sleepless nights for 8 weeks, yet today I feel particularly run down and tired. Yet, I've probably done more today than I have for weeks! lol
Anyway, am off to sleep now, even though it's early! I need it I think. I hurt my back earlier so feeling a bit off.
Night xxx
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Post by susanneb1984 on Oct 27, 2005 9:06:53 GMT
Urgggg, that milk! She has taken 28oz of hungrier baby milk in just over 12 hours, surely that's not right? She was awake more last night than on the first baby milk! Hahaha
Oooooo had an embarrassing moment this morning! My AS order comes on a Thursday, usually between 11 and 11:30, my driver is called Mark and he's lovely. So I usually get up about 10:30 and get some clothes on ready for him coming, because I sleep naked! Anyway, this morning he came at 9:30! OMG I had to answer the door with a sheet wrapped around me! He said 'baby had you up?' I said 'Yeah she was awful' He said 'Awww I hoped you had come to the door naked just for me'
I wanted the earth to swallow me up! How embarrassing! I really must start wearing PJ's on a wednesday night! lol
Hope your all ok It's been a bit quiet here lately
xxxx
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Post by yoyo on Oct 27, 2005 9:21:27 GMT
LOL - poor you!! At least you could both laugh about it eh?!
Milk - yeah all good fun - we had similar with Jake and we had to resort ot it after 6 weeks as he was such a guzzler. We gave in and started him on solids by 2 months (I know it breaks every rule in the book but it was best for us all) and now he sleeps 5pm - 7 am but we still have to get up to him for a milk feed at least once in the night (usually around 3 am) and he's 9 months old now. But it's only 5 mins and he's straight back to sleep. In the first 2 months it was every 2 hours most nights!
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Post by susanneb1984 on Oct 27, 2005 10:43:53 GMT
She usually sleeps from midnight until about 6am and then til about 9 and then til 11....but I'd quite like her to be going to sleep a bit earlier than midnight! It works that when Thea goes to bed at 7, GJ wakes up and as selfish as it sounds, I need some me time! lol and trying to sort out AS orders etc with a baby on your knee is an artform! lol
I must admit, she had a tiny piece of chocolate the other day when I was at my mums, and a tiny spoonful of baby rice an seemed a lot better. Hmmmmmmmm maybe she's getting ready?
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Post by cheshire on Oct 28, 2005 22:33:03 GMT
Hi Susanne,
How are you doing...been thinking about you xxxxxxxxx
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Post by susanneb1984 on Oct 28, 2005 23:14:22 GMT
Thanks hopeful hun, I'm not wonderful. In fact I don't know whether to get angry or upset anymore. How can you carry on fighting for something that is been left to rot? How can I fight for a relationship that obviously means so little to him?
i don't know what else I can do, he PROMISED me he wouldn't be late tonight, yet it's gone midnight and where is he? Yet, tomorrow, my first night out in over a YEAR and he wants to be back by 10pm coz he's got work! Yeah he's got work early tomorrow as well, so why can he go to his friends until the early hours, but not spend time with me?
I'm NOT his mum, I shouldn't have to be like this. Am I supposed to tell him when he can and can't go out? I try to talk to him, and he either blanks me or pretends he's not doing anything wrong. I bought a new outfit today, I thought I'd make an effort to look nice. I wanted to blow his socks off, make him want me like he used too, he looked at it like it was a piece of rubbish off the street. Oooooo it's so hard not to swear writing this!
He doesn't want to be here, but he wasn't like this before we had GJ, which makes me think he's rejecting her. But then I'm torn between the love I have for him, and the love and instinct I have for my daughter. Then I just get angry all over again.
Sorry for the rant girls.
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Post by cheshire on Oct 29, 2005 0:19:46 GMT
Hi Susanne, Firstly rant ALL YOU LIKE! And keep posting here, we'll support you. Secondly, we all know on here how wonderful you are as a mum and we love reading your posts because it gives us something positive to think about - okay okay, I did facepainting today too - but it is fun isn't it? And you inspired me to do that .. What is it about fellas and being on time grrrrr...... But he ought to take you out for a good night tomorrow if he's so busy socialising on other nights. You need a break too girl (I would argue more than him (guys sorry) - you had the baby not him) . But it did take time for my husband to adjust too. I think he finally understands the need for a break for mummys, but it did take a b****y long time and research and me printing stuff off for him to read...and PNI for him to get to realise. Now he is a gem but this is 5 years on. Anyway, it's only you I'm bothered about and so I am sending you one big cyberhug and hope to hear from you tomorrow if you feel up to it. Lotsa love, Hxxx
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Post by susanneb1984 on Oct 29, 2005 9:27:45 GMT
Awwww hopeful, I'm almost crying here! Your such a HUGE star hun. It feels wonderful to know I've got support from you girls on here, as I do try to pretend everything is ok, which is probably why it was quite late when I posted in my diary yesterday, kinda admitting that sometimes I don't cope. That's not an easy thing to do.
Well he got back about 12:15am, and I told him I'd been talking to his mum and what she had said. I also said that I wasn't going to take it anymore, and he was either a family man (which doesn't mean he can't go out, just means he shouldn't go out all the time) or he was a single man with no responsibilties. I told him it was his choice, because it was harder knowing I was in a relationship but feeling like a single parent than it would be on my own. It might seem harsh, but heck I've given him enough time to realise it on his own! I think it got to the point where he needed telling rather than subtle hints!
He's now scared of going to his mums house! lol he thinks shes going to tell him off! which I think is sooooo funny, he was saying 'ok we'll drop the baby off but don't leave me with her on my own' lol awwww bless!
So I'm feeling a bit better today, am going to clean until my house sparkles, which not only is something I do when I'm feeling a bit stressed but I've not done much because I thought why should I make a huge effort when he's not bothered! Selfish I know, but hey it's about time I started taking a bit of time for me. Yes I am a mum, yes I am a girlfriend, NO that's not all that I am. I am Susanne as well, and she's got lost under a pile of nappies and ironing! Well it's about time she came out again I think.
I've got my first AS party on friday next week, for my cousin and I'm planning to go out with her afterwards. I even bought a new outfit to go out with yesterday! I look amazing! lol I can't wait!
Anyway, thanks for listening girls. Your all stars Love you all xxx
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Post by cheshire on Oct 29, 2005 12:07:13 GMT
Hi
Glad you're feeling a bit better - hope you have a good day I have a had a busy morning - always the way on Saturdays!!
Catch you later Hx
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