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Post by yoyo on Nov 15, 2005 17:39:20 GMT
Good Advice - hard to take though but worth it.
Glad to hear Doc trip went well for you. Helps to know you're in good hands.
I took Citalopram for around 6 months and I found it helped take the edge off things. Took a while to kick in but when it did I knew I felt a little better with it. Side affects for me were bloatyness, dizziness and headaches but I was like that anyway. Coming off was a little harder but withdrawal only lasted 2 weeks max.
Let us know how you get on. Anything to get you through this horrid illness. If you find that anything helps a little bit - go for it! For me acupuncture did that as did having my hair cut - made sure I went every 5 weeks once I noticed I felt better when I'd been.
Take things steady & try not to get too frustrated at this illness - I know that the hardest thing in the world - but the fact that you're fighting this mentally & getting frustrated shows you are getting much better. Keep talking
:-)
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Post by cheshire on Nov 15, 2005 18:17:23 GMT
Thanks for your messages, that is really useful and I've got a few days to consider it as GP suggests chatting to counsellor too first which is beginning of next week - keeping everything in the loop sort of thing.
I am warm to the idea of taking them, but the side effects for some reason worry me..
Anyway, thanks once again, I don't think I've been quite this active on my diary for ages!
Hopefulxx
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Post by cheshire on Nov 16, 2005 15:26:32 GMT
I am beginning to recognise I'm having some (I don't know if they are different or just stronger) feelings about being ill- more about being ill rather than the symptoms themselves upsetting me I think I am feeling quite upset that this has/ is still happening to me..it doesn't feel fair I'm still afraid that there will be lasting conequences for me and my babies. Those are my feelings but I am trying to think good thoughts too. I've recently become so aware of some of my thought patterns - it's incredible how many negative things you can think about yourself in one day isn't it? But I did take myself out today and did some shopping It was ok.
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Post by cheshire on Nov 20, 2005 10:32:07 GMT
Hello
I feel reasonably ok today. I love this frosty weather, it makes me think of Christmas - and then I think OMG Christmas lol!! I'm going to keep it very simple this year - just want to have fun with the kids..
Anyway, as usual, totally indecisive about what to do today. Inclination is to stay in all day, but I think we might all go out for lunch? It's always a bit of a lottery as can't predcit what little one will be like..so we'll see if I seize the day or not!!!
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Post by cheshire on Nov 20, 2005 16:39:04 GMT
Hi
Not such a bad day so far . Lovely and relaxing and we did get out in the end, but I cooked for lunch which was nice.
All that washing to do though...grr..
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Post by natalie1985 on Nov 21, 2005 6:16:54 GMT
Hi Hopeful, I'm so envious of your white christmas'! Although i love our warm christmas, i would still love to experience a white christmas!!!! Sorry to hear about the blip you've been going through! Glad its slowly moving on! So how's christmas shopping going??? Take care sweety! Lots of love, Natalie xxx
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Post by cheshire on Nov 23, 2005 20:51:09 GMT
Oh hi Nat, I didn't see this! I'll send you a picture of us outside on Christmas day - most probably be raining and no snow, but I will.
Anyway, general diary entry:
I am frustrated as I thought I'd miraculously be better just in time for going back to work...but I am not there yet! My therapist and GP think I am having some sort of post trauma type thingies again - oh Joy! (after hubby ill) - Or what we would call a blip, but they still think I'm recovering and doing ok.
But, and I don't know if anyone else understands this, what I have been feeling a bit down about is the fact that I think I realise that things are never going to be quite the same again..or are they? I think what I mean is apart from all my priorites changing (around work and family etc.) I don't think I'm ever going to be as confident and calm as before...maybe always a bit susceptible to stress??
Does anyone else have a problem with driving?
I am also feeling an overwhelming sense of grief for some reason..and again, been told that this can happen at this point. Yuk.
I suppose life does change you though - inevitably
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Post by cheshire on Nov 24, 2005 21:44:55 GMT
I had a great day today. I met BAM02 (Moderator) for some Christmas shopping and a meal. It was lovely to meet BAM and to be able to talk things though about our own experiences of PNI. It was great x
BAM, I have come back to a war zone - what about you?
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Post by sarajay28 on Nov 24, 2005 22:50:43 GMT
Hi Hopeful,
Sorry your not having a good time of it lately, When i had PNI after having my daughter 6 yrs ago, i had a thing about driving, i used to panic alot about being in control of the car, the fact that the kids might not be safe with me?! all sorts of things used to go through my head when i got in the car but this passed quite quickly (don't know why it suddenly went) but it was scary at the time. It hasn't happened this time thankfully.
I'm glad your getting the help and support you need from your GP and therapist. I'm sure you will start to feel better soon, you have done before and you can again. I also worry about never being the same as i used to be but i feel i'm slowly beginning to see my old self coming back.
Try and keep positive
Loadsa Love
Sarah.xxxx
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Post by cheshire on Nov 24, 2005 22:53:44 GMT
Thanks Sarahjay
All of what you say here gives me loads of hope and a reason to stay positive.
Thanksx
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Post by cheshire on Nov 26, 2005 20:34:56 GMT
I had an ok day today, it's actually turning out to be fun. I just wish all of those Xmas pressies would magic themselves to my doorstep...not min, everyone elses!!
Oh well, will get into present buying soon.
Love to all Hx
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Post by cheshire on Nov 28, 2005 18:05:53 GMT
Hi Not such a bad day - have done rather alot - sure I'll pay for this tomorrow! But this has to go down as an ok day.. It's just that sometimes when I look around the house, I feel completely overwhelmed by the state of it - even though I know it will only be probably 1/2 hour to clear up..I still hate that feeling of not being on top of things.... Oh well, better make the tea Love to all, Hopefulxxxxxxx
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Post by cinders on Nov 28, 2005 19:08:40 GMT
Hiya flower,
hows things with you? Glad to hear that you're getting your chrimbo shopping all sorted. I am so behind with my shopping this year and I am really going to have to pull my finger out and get some serious shopping done!
By the way, I loved seeing your tree all decorated. It looks lovely and got me all excited about christmas....as you can probably tell, I'm having a better afternoon today. My morning was full of anxiety, but as the day has gone on I'm feeling a lot better....long may it continue.
You mentioned about driving... I went through a horrible patch of being really scared of driving...horrible thoughts and it was really difficult....I think the main thing to do is keep doing it though, I know its hard, but if you stay away from it because of fear it becomes harder to do the next time. I tried deap breathing before, during and after driving and the anxiety sort of went on its own...thankfully cause I love driving!
I know what you mean when you say about the house being a mess, but dont you worry. I try and spend a little while each day (except today when I cleaned for ages) and then have something to look forward to after the cleaning. Helps me get through it anyway.
Anyway flower, I'm going to close and get ready for the programme to start at 1930...Hope its good. Speak to you tomorrow. Take care Love n hugs Cinders xxx
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Post by cheshire on Nov 28, 2005 19:20:26 GMT
Hello me dear! I'm glad your day is improving - mine are a bit like this too at the moment..improve as the day wears on....mornings - yuk I think you're right about driving - got to keep doing it - I love cars and driving too! It seems daft to be scared of it but I really am terrible I must admit only just getting into deep breathing - but it can help. I find 7/11 helps (I think this is count to 7 in and 11 out).. Hmm, yes good advice regarding messy house - I am sort of getting to the point you're at - ie. do it but do other things too..OCDs are a bit of a thing for me around tidy and clean. But I've been telling myself that it's much more satisfying to clear up a pig sty than just an untidy house - lol! Take care Hopefulxx
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Post by sarajay28 on Nov 28, 2005 21:11:03 GMT
Hi Hopeful,
You know everytime i read one of your posts i'm thinking 'this is me' or 'i do that', are we twins??? lol. I also have/had a thing with cleaning and tidying getting towards borderline compulsive but my CPN and my mum have helped me through this and now it doesn't bother me, obviously some days i go mad and clean as though my life depends on it but other days i don't care. My CPN explained that when you are anxious some areas of your life become obsessive and that as you get better these tendacies return to normal so i kinda look at it as a big sign that i'm recovering. Does that make sense?
Anyway, your not alone, you have your twin going through it with you!! LOL
Take care, loadsa love
Sarah.xxx
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