Post by gizmoracer on May 31, 2008 21:37:49 GMT
It seems like ages since I was on here. So much has happened. S has been signed off work for another 6 weeks. (Runs out end of June). He's not a happy bunny about it, has got to that point now where he just wants to go back to normality. He has seen the physio and she thought it had something to do with his meningitis and being forced back to work too early. He was in agony for 4 days after seeing her. In the meantime she said he would definatly be off at least another 6 weeks (Hense above). He then went back to the physio yesterday, she was a bit gentler this time. Has found the muscle in his chest that has been causing the heart attck symptoms and also an area in middle of his back that was painful so has suggested another MRI but lower down this time. She did say though that the doc might not send him for one yet.
The kids have been off school this week. Its not been too bad, just busy back and forth to the MIL mainly. Monday my Aunt and uncle from Germany were at my parents and we were supposed to be going to see them but one of our friends got in touch to come down, he has just split with his wife and is in quite a state. So S decided to stay home, which to be fair he would have done anyway, he doesn't often do the 'family thing' can't blame him really. Also he is giving up smoking again and my parents house is completly unbearable to him, you can only just see through the perminant smog in there. Anyway as soon as our friend turned up Jason decided he was going to claim him to play Mario Kart and that was the end of that. So Joey and I went and S stayed and babysat the 2 racers lol.
An update from the last post on the games consoles is that the xbox was replaced and the PS3 ended up on ebay, we now have rock band. Was a bit disapointed at first the drums are really hard then we found out you couldn't do the whole world tour online and can't open everything just on easy. Its been fun though we now have 2 guitars and the new one I can use so we have been playing together alot this week and online with a couple of S friends which was a laugh. Think we have just about found a way to open most of it with my minimulistic skills as well. The racing is back on the agenda again, after a couple of weeks of indesisiveness we went out today and S bought a buggy from a friend, not going to get into what else is going on with it coz I'm having trouble keeping up as it is. Though to be honest so long as its kept affordable and local I don't have a problem with it. He has been really good with money recently and has been thinking stuff through properlly not just dashing out and buying so I'm confident it won't be causing a problem.
Having huge trouble with the weight loss. S phylosaphy is if it means that much to me I'll do it, and if it doesn't then I'll fail. I hate it when he puts stuff into black and white like that. He is doing so well with the smoking at the moment as well just makes me feel really bad and he can't see that I am struggling with it seriously, I got so desperate the other week I even started on the laxatives stupid I know but didn't know what else to do. I have got the docs on Monday so I will add it to my list of things to go through see if I can get some proper tablets to help. Today I have felt like death warmed up, yep period again started yesterday (much to my discust as S had predicted it to start in the morning and it did, smart arse). I went to an Ann Summers party yesterday night, it was ok, I came out of there with the top raffle prize and another one as well, so not a bad result. Thing is in the morning I had been wound up by Mum and Nan again over whatever it is that my stupid cousins tart has decided to compain about to do with me. I really don't know what her problem is but I'm not going to start myself off again. Just in the last 2 weeks I've had my Nan acusing me of being jelous and god knows what because she has said something to my uncle and Nan about me and most probably the well known fact that I hate her and my cousins guts but now its bouncing back at me and I'm getting it in the neck from all directions when I don't know what I've done wrong but my god I could write and essay on those two.... Anyway, told S about it all and when I was in the bath before going out he spoke to Mum on the phone and told her what I had been like and how upset I am over it all, then managed to get his own twopenneth across aswell ;D and trust me he does not mince his words like I do. Then after the Ann Summers party my friend and I got talking about all sorts of things. There was 4 of us there comparing birth stories and some were horrendous and then my friend was all upset at still not having kids and a decent bloke etc. That when we got talking about her ex dying. It was 10 years ago now and she is still so cut up over it all and her and the others that knew him well still think he was murdered. She was telling us about the dreams and visions she has had to do with it all. Needless to say hormonal me comes home blubbering in the car with a headache. When I got up this morning I was reallt scared the headache was not my normal type and my neck was killing me and I couldn't stand the light. I have wanted t cry all day coz I was in so much pain but still having to go out trapsing about. S did tell me to have a sleep and ran me 2 baths etc. but I still felt guilty at being ill and like it was pissing him off. Its just my hormones I know but have felt rotten in every way today. Feeling a bit better now.
Think I should stop here for now.
The kids have been off school this week. Its not been too bad, just busy back and forth to the MIL mainly. Monday my Aunt and uncle from Germany were at my parents and we were supposed to be going to see them but one of our friends got in touch to come down, he has just split with his wife and is in quite a state. So S decided to stay home, which to be fair he would have done anyway, he doesn't often do the 'family thing' can't blame him really. Also he is giving up smoking again and my parents house is completly unbearable to him, you can only just see through the perminant smog in there. Anyway as soon as our friend turned up Jason decided he was going to claim him to play Mario Kart and that was the end of that. So Joey and I went and S stayed and babysat the 2 racers lol.
An update from the last post on the games consoles is that the xbox was replaced and the PS3 ended up on ebay, we now have rock band. Was a bit disapointed at first the drums are really hard then we found out you couldn't do the whole world tour online and can't open everything just on easy. Its been fun though we now have 2 guitars and the new one I can use so we have been playing together alot this week and online with a couple of S friends which was a laugh. Think we have just about found a way to open most of it with my minimulistic skills as well. The racing is back on the agenda again, after a couple of weeks of indesisiveness we went out today and S bought a buggy from a friend, not going to get into what else is going on with it coz I'm having trouble keeping up as it is. Though to be honest so long as its kept affordable and local I don't have a problem with it. He has been really good with money recently and has been thinking stuff through properlly not just dashing out and buying so I'm confident it won't be causing a problem.
Having huge trouble with the weight loss. S phylosaphy is if it means that much to me I'll do it, and if it doesn't then I'll fail. I hate it when he puts stuff into black and white like that. He is doing so well with the smoking at the moment as well just makes me feel really bad and he can't see that I am struggling with it seriously, I got so desperate the other week I even started on the laxatives stupid I know but didn't know what else to do. I have got the docs on Monday so I will add it to my list of things to go through see if I can get some proper tablets to help. Today I have felt like death warmed up, yep period again started yesterday (much to my discust as S had predicted it to start in the morning and it did, smart arse). I went to an Ann Summers party yesterday night, it was ok, I came out of there with the top raffle prize and another one as well, so not a bad result. Thing is in the morning I had been wound up by Mum and Nan again over whatever it is that my stupid cousins tart has decided to compain about to do with me. I really don't know what her problem is but I'm not going to start myself off again. Just in the last 2 weeks I've had my Nan acusing me of being jelous and god knows what because she has said something to my uncle and Nan about me and most probably the well known fact that I hate her and my cousins guts but now its bouncing back at me and I'm getting it in the neck from all directions when I don't know what I've done wrong but my god I could write and essay on those two.... Anyway, told S about it all and when I was in the bath before going out he spoke to Mum on the phone and told her what I had been like and how upset I am over it all, then managed to get his own twopenneth across aswell ;D and trust me he does not mince his words like I do. Then after the Ann Summers party my friend and I got talking about all sorts of things. There was 4 of us there comparing birth stories and some were horrendous and then my friend was all upset at still not having kids and a decent bloke etc. That when we got talking about her ex dying. It was 10 years ago now and she is still so cut up over it all and her and the others that knew him well still think he was murdered. She was telling us about the dreams and visions she has had to do with it all. Needless to say hormonal me comes home blubbering in the car with a headache. When I got up this morning I was reallt scared the headache was not my normal type and my neck was killing me and I couldn't stand the light. I have wanted t cry all day coz I was in so much pain but still having to go out trapsing about. S did tell me to have a sleep and ran me 2 baths etc. but I still felt guilty at being ill and like it was pissing him off. Its just my hormones I know but have felt rotten in every way today. Feeling a bit better now.
Think I should stop here for now.