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Post by cazfletcher on Jul 13, 2006 13:20:08 GMT
cavan just took his nappy off, took his potty in the garden and pooped lol. then came and got me to clear it up!!!
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Post by cazfletcher on Jul 13, 2006 17:47:45 GMT
stuart is coming down for a visit tonight. we are having a day out on sunday so he can spend time with cavan
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Post by monica on Jul 13, 2006 22:29:06 GMT
Hi
How are things with you? Hope your toe is getting better. I hope the weather's good for you on Sunday. Where are you going?
How is life in general? You sound perky - long may it continue!
Monica
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Post by cazfletcher on Jul 19, 2006 15:35:45 GMT
AAARRRGGHHHH!!!!! f**k f**k f**k f**k!!!!! ahhh all better now. sorry!!
had a really shit couple of days monica my toe is getting better, i ripped the dressing off last night coz it was sooo itchy tho. as for the weekend, it just reminded me why i dont love stuart any more-1st time ive written that, strange. he came down on friday evening, we went to a pub for tea,then he stayed at his mums, after i turned sex with him down-jeez!!! mum had cavan on saturday while i worked, which was fine. stuart turned up sunday morning to look after cavan while i swam(see my sport relief post). i went ahead to the pool and expected him to bring cavan down and watch me, as had been arranged, but nooo, he takes him to his mums house, then gets so wrapped up in a computer game that he forgets to meet me. i end up going to his mums, and hes like, oh yeah, sorry. we were going to go straight from the pool to the seafront so cavan could go on the swings and the little train. by the time we got there, there was no parking, so we ended up in a horrible little rec area where there were some older kids smoking and drinking. i was not a happy bunny.
monday, i drop cavan at nursery and remind them about the message i left with them last week about having cavan til 6pm as mums away, i dont finish work til then. they said no such agreement had been made, but i can collect him at 5.30. i arrange this with my manager. then i get called to the phone at work. its the nursery, they didnt have the staff and the manager had a meeting to get to at 6, so i needed to be ther at 5pm latest. i said i cant coz of work so they said they would call back in a bit but if i wasnt there at 5.15 they would leave him at the police station. hes 15 months old ffs. anyway, a couple of hours later, the manager was screaming down the phone saying they werent having cavan anymore as I had messed THEM around, then she slammed the phone down. my manager let me off work as i had to pick him up, i was so scared what would happen. i got there and she was nice as pie to me. she told me i could keep taking him, which is good coz its the only nursery in my town that takes under 2yrs, and sorry for her attitude but SHE WAS HAVING A BAD DAY!!!! aaaarrrggghhhh!!!!! i got home and couldnt stop being sick, i was in such a state.
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Post by cazfletcher on Jul 25, 2006 9:05:05 GMT
well im havin a good day today. i start my counselling tonight, so im spendin the day just organising my thoughts. has any1 else had the problem of havin a million things in their head you wanna say but you open your mouth and it just goes blaaaaahhh?cavan came home from nursery yesterday afternoon with a runny nose and really irritated eyes. the nursery said it was coz he'd been playin in the paddling pool-how many chemicals do they put in there?! could it be hayfever this late in the season? i didnt get hayfever til i was 6? i also had a letter from the CSA saying that they will no longer be involved as i have stopped getting income support-im working now so thats ok. lol i dont want them involved now anyway, coz they think stuart should only pay me 30 a month but hes voluntarily payin me 100.
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Post by cazfletcher on Jul 26, 2006 10:51:20 GMT
i cant wait to see the hospital tomorrow-my toe is itching like mad, it kept me up last night, when i looked at it there was a piece of skin missing, its gone really flaky too. my counselling session was great, we got on really well. she has decided to put me with a bereavement counsellor, and also to work on my self esteem. she was really clever, i told her about the past couple of years, which is on here in my pregnancy and birth story. she said a bereavement counsellor would be best as i am feeling hurt, angry and betrayed, and also im displaying a kind of grief for the life i could have had with my babies dad. im hearing from them in a couple of weeks when they have found a suitable person to see me.
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Post by cazfletcher on Jul 27, 2006 13:16:30 GMT
i went to the hospital this morning to have my last check up at the fracture clinic. the consultant said the fracture has healed, but the itching is caused by my body releasing to much hystamine, the same stuff u get from a bee sting etc. ive been put on piriton anti allergy tablets to see if that helps. after i finished at the hospital, mum took me round matalan. i bought a swimming costume, a tankini top, a pair of england trainers for cavan and 2 tops for him, and a great disney camera set which included a reusable 35 exposure camera, a roll of film and a photo album. the whole lot was less than £30!
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Post by cheshire on Jul 28, 2006 19:22:10 GMT
Hi Caz Glad things are healing - I hate being itchy.... Sounds like the shopping went well though I don't buy much on my own, but loads if with my mum or with a girlfriend - then take it back the next day thinking 'oh I shouldn't have'! Hope you're not too bad at the moment Hopefulxx
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Post by cazfletcher on Jul 29, 2006 19:57:14 GMT
Hopeful im pleased to say im doing really well. im having my loft insulation done for free thanks to a warm front grant. its only 2 inches thick and it should be 10!! counselling should start soon too, which will do me good im sure. god sorry this is all out of order tonight, im sure you can just about follow tho lol cavans doing so well, im really proud of him. hes such a good kind boy with lovely manners, although he has wicked tantrums sometimes! so far ive not returned any of the shopping, so ill probably keep it all. i had the biggest bowl of ice cream at work today, 4 scoops! chocolate, coconut, banoffee, cherry ripple, with chocolate sauce and a wafer like a fan!
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Post by cheshire on Jul 30, 2006 21:42:42 GMT
Yum!! lol!
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Post by cazfletcher on Aug 1, 2006 17:56:33 GMT
oh my god have i just had the best day out or what?! mum took me and cavan to noahs ark farm park. it used to be a fully working dairy farm so its huuuuuuugge! theres a big maze in which you have to answer questions correctly to find the only way round, theres 3 possible answers to each one, and each answer is hidden around the park. it was things like how many flight feathers does a certain bird have, whats the biggest mammal out of these 3 etc. they also had a massive arena where they did shows about the animals, cavan loved that-he even got to stroke a guinea pig. for older kids they had a sack slide and tyre swings, and an adventure playground outside. they could also go on tractor rides and bottle feed the lambs. at this time of year they were a bit big for cavan otherwise i would have helped him feed one. they had every animal from guinea pigs and rabbits to shire horses, giraffes, llamas and lemurs! they also had a display where u could watch chicks hatching! im getting a season ticket next year.
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Post by cheshire on Aug 3, 2006 12:38:08 GMT
Glad to hear you had such a great day :)x
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Post by cazfletcher on Aug 7, 2006 17:06:00 GMT
thanx. my ex turned up yesterday to see us, it went ok and i got my money for cavan so its not too bad. i picked cavan up from nursery today and saw his handprints in paint up on the wall next to all the other children! they looked so small. emma said hes got 3 pictures in his folder there too!
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Post by cheshire on Aug 9, 2006 21:10:53 GMT
That is lovely - how's things?xx
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Post by cazfletcher on Aug 11, 2006 14:22:44 GMT
things are going ok at the mo, still takin it day by day. yesterday cavan dropped my mobile phone down the loo and waterlogged it, so i bought a new one, its the motorola razr v3!! its so cool lol. today mum took me to weston, as she plays badminton there. i took cavan swimming while she was playing her match, then we had lunch. after lunch we came back to clevedon as i had a meeting with the CAB. that went really well and all my debts are now gradually being paid off
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