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Post by noodles on Apr 9, 2006 15:32:26 GMT
hey hon, it's so one day at a time isn't it, i find it really frustrating that i can't plan any thing coz i never know how im going to feel!!! im so glad that peter is getting better..... noodles xxx
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Post by hannah457 on Apr 9, 2006 18:58:20 GMT
had a nice calm sunday. martin cooked dinner which was soooooo nice to relax for a change. going to relax tonight and watch a film. night all sending out big hugs xxxx
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Post by cheshire on Apr 9, 2006 19:06:43 GMT
Big hugs to you too hannah, Glad you had a calm day xx
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Post by noodles on Apr 9, 2006 21:23:24 GMT
hi hannah thought you were having an early night, im going to bed in a bit, have decided that i am really sad, carls gone to work and im sat in front of my computer!!!! how was your film??? xxx
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Post by hannah457 on Apr 10, 2006 16:51:48 GMT
been in the garden today tidying it up, then i started to feel panicky, was gonna have a diazipam but martin my partner help me through it. never got my early night ended up sitting on the computer most of the night. feeling really tired.... hannah xx
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Post by hannah457 on Apr 11, 2006 21:19:35 GMT
went into town today to get the kids easter egg's from tesco. it was packed out and i ended up having a panic attack. been really tearful to night, haven't got a clue why. feeling really shitty.
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Post by cheshire on Apr 12, 2006 11:07:26 GMT
Hi Hannah
Panic attacks when shopping - it really is the pits... How are you today hunni?
HopefulXX
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Post by hannah457 on Apr 12, 2006 17:28:49 GMT
feeling really shitty today. had to take a diazipan to help with a bad panic attack. really tired and groggy got the muzzy head feeling. peters been grisly all afternoon and when i was cutting Brandon's hair we had little visitors so todays been a really crap day cant wait to go to bed to finish this awful day.
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Post by cheshire on Apr 12, 2006 17:45:00 GMT
Hi Hannah
Hope you get some sleep - hope tomorrow is a little better for you hunni
Hx
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Post by noodles on Apr 12, 2006 20:36:05 GMT
ah babe, your having a shit day too!!!! i think we all need a holiday in the sun with nannies to deal with the kids when they are grizzly, and to do the nights!!! ahhh i can dream.... we can get through this!!! i hope;)
loads of love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Post by yoyo on Apr 13, 2006 10:51:22 GMT
Hi Hannah
how is today? Sory you're having a otugh time recently. You are doing so well though x x x x x
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Noodles - that sounds a perfect idea !!! We just need a suagr daddy eh?!!
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Post by noodles on Apr 13, 2006 20:25:56 GMT
hey babe, how are you feeling??? xxxxx
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Post by hannah457 on Apr 13, 2006 21:19:33 GMT
my cpn came to see me today. it was hard and emotional session. we talked about my rape. cpn asked me to tell her what happened to me the night i was raped, i found this really hard to do but i did it. when i was telling her i felt as if i was reliving it all again. i was a right mess i was in tears, shaking like mad and i just wanted to vomit. i feel as if the dirt from the rape is still inside me and i just want to scratch myself until my skins clean again. i kept it in for years and now Ive started to tell people all about what happened that night i feel so vulnerable. my cpn said I'm going to need alot more counseling to help me through all this. i get nightmares about it all the time and sometimes in the day i get flash backs which catch me off guard and make me panic. feel really low i feel like curling up in a ball and dying. god i just want the pain and hurt to go away. taken a diazepam to try and control the tight feeling in my chest but i doesn't seem to help at the moment. i just want to die to make all the bad go away
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Post by noodles on Apr 13, 2006 21:23:48 GMT
oh honey, i don't know what to say to make you feel better!!!! i can just send a big hug!!! thinking of you noodles xxx
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Post by hannah457 on Apr 13, 2006 21:49:34 GMT
thanks noodles hug gratefully received
love Hannah xx
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