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Post by mummyj on Apr 16, 2007 6:51:47 GMT
I thought that it would be a good idea to start a diary. Things have been so up and down recently that I want to try and see if theres a pattern to anything so next time I try and come of the meds I can be better prepared. Yesterday wasn't a great day. I felt quite snappy and tired all day, then just before 7pm DD burn't herself on the BBQ she seemed fine, I got cold water on it, but phoned NHS direct to make sure I was doing the right thing. The nurse I spoke to advised us to go to A&E to get it dressed to make sure she didn't get it infected. I'm quite calm in crisis and when she was here I could see that she was fine, but DH insisted on taking her and I needed to stay here with DS who was by this time in bed. I just started to worry while they were out and I didn't know what was happening. But they were only gone for about an hour. They saw Grace straight away even though the place was packed cause she's only little. They dressed it, and I've to take her to the practice nurse for the next 3 days to get the dressing changed. But that also has a knock on effect on work and I've had to cancel what I had booked today as I'm keeping Grace home from nursery and taking her to the doctors this afternoon. I feel totally awful for the company I've had to cancel the work with, and that makes me sound very selfish as the most important thing is that Gracie is OK. I just find it difficult to win sometimes.
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Post by winegirl on Apr 16, 2007 16:57:11 GMT
Hi Mummyj
Sorry to hear about your little girl's accident! You really do stay calm in a crisis! I would have been in bits!
Glad she is ok, and you are right, your family are more important than work. I know you feel like you can't win sometimes, working, being a mum, a good partner etc.. but you are very right to be staying at home with your little girl.
Hope your day has been ok, and hope you don;t mind me crashing your diary?
Take Care
Winegirl x
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Post by mummyj on Apr 17, 2007 6:51:36 GMT
Of course I don't mind Winegirl everyone is welcome Grace is fine thank you. I took her to get the dressing changed yesterday afternoon and theres only a tiny blister. The nurses loved her and she got a sticker and a certificate and a chocolate biscuit for being so brave! She's back to nursery this afternoon and I'm back to work to catch up! Feeling tired today, didn't sleep so well for some reason, but feeling OK otherwise which is always a good start to a day!
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Post by sianyc on Apr 18, 2007 8:19:24 GMT
Glad you coped so well with everything and it hasn't got you down x
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Post by mummyj on Apr 21, 2007 6:12:39 GMT
Had a few good days. I think the meds are starting to kick back in again! Yesterday was Grace's 3rd birthday and we had a nice day. Went up to a kids play place with some friends in the morning, and then we had an afternoon just the two of us when James went to school. She spent all of it playing with her new pram, then we had birthday cake for tea. Have felt a lot calmer this week which I'm sure is due to the meds, but feel OK. I was supposed to be seeing my GP on Thursday but had to change the appointment as I had to work to catch up from Monday, so won't be seeing her for another 3 weeks.
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Post by winegirl on Apr 21, 2007 7:24:23 GMT
Hi Mummyj
glad it looks like the meds are kicking in and you had a nice day yesterday! Sounds like Grace had a fab birthday!
Lets hope more of your days are as good as yesterday.
Take Care
Winegirl x
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Post by mummyj on Apr 23, 2007 20:00:37 GMT
Anti-d's are definitely working so far! Had a really lovely day yesterday. DH and I both weren't working which hardly ever happens. All 4 of us took the dog out for a lovely long walk, and had a great time, singing songs, playing chase with the kids. DH told me that even though I've had to start taking the meds again he can see a massive difference in this time lastyear. Whenever he suggested doing things like that I would just want to stay at home, and he would end up taking the kidsd out while I stayed at home. So if the meds mean we can enjoy days like that all together then I guess I should keep going with them. Feeling tired today but that might have something to do with the amount of wine dh and I drank last night, to finish off a lovely day
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Post by yoyo on Apr 23, 2007 20:03:36 GMT
Hang on to this feeling - it'll help you ride the stormy days - dead proud of you
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Post by mummyj on Apr 25, 2007 19:54:06 GMT
Thanks Yoyo Have felt a bit flat today. Didn't have a good day yesterday, the side effects of the anti-d's seem to be so much worse this time round and I've been getting loads of headaches, had a horrible one yesterday. Went to mums and tots for about an hour but didn't rally have the energy to chat etc and came home. Have been tired too the last couple of days which seems to be another side effect, but then again with my kids 6am is a lie in! Have a busy day with work tomorrow so hopefully will feel better then
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Post by mummyj on Apr 25, 2007 20:10:44 GMT
I think that also Grace being 3, and so 3 years of PNI has made me feel rubbish. I never ever thought it would last that long. The symptom I hate the most is how angry I can get sometimes (I was such a calm and placid person before) and this means getting really angry with the kids when they're naughty. I can see that they hate it, and I hate myself for doing it, and it makes me feel like a terrible mother. It happens less often that it did at the beginning but its the thing I hate most about this stupid pni.
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Post by mummyj on Apr 29, 2007 16:49:29 GMT
up and down a little bit the past few days, still getting quite angry. Have a busy week coming up with work which usually helps me a little. Not much else to report really - feeling flat the last few days about having to be back on the anti-d's but am also getting increasingly broody - its quite confusing
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Post by mummyj on Apr 29, 2007 20:46:59 GMT
also struggling with dh lately, want to go to bed at the moment, but h';s already up there so I'm putting it off, just want to be on my own and that makes me feel awful
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Post by mummyj on Apr 30, 2007 19:54:38 GMT
Very up and down today - an awful morning but felt a lot better this afternoon, its just so unpredictable. Looking forward to my GP appointment next week just so that she can tell me everythings OK and have some advice about how to do things, if that makes any sense? I know how lucky I am to have such a fab doctor, it would have been a whole lot harder without her support.
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Post by cheshire on Apr 30, 2007 20:08:22 GMT
Hi MummyJ
Glad your GP is so good - it took me a couple of gos and changes of GP - but then when I found someone who understood, it made all the differencex
Hopefulx
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Post by mummyj on May 1, 2007 20:13:21 GMT
An OK day day today, been working for almost all of it as it was dh's day off which made things easier, but do feel guilty when out working and don't see the kids all day. Had a good hour when I got home tho, playing out in the garden with the sand pit and paddling pool, and had some lovely kisses and cuddles at bedtime. DD has just learnt to say 'I love you' which is the most beautiful thing I've ever heard.
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