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Post by Jay on Jun 15, 2007 22:40:36 GMT
Hi I have not had a good week, but you kindly sent me a hug. So I ahve been looking you up as you seem to be newish, and I had not notice you here.
I understand a lot of what you say, and you are not having too good a time.
But I send my love Jay xx
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Post by babybumble on Jun 19, 2007 11:28:41 GMT
JAY - thanks for that!!!
well went see CPN...shes told me go back on venaflaxine then gradually build up to higher dosage ...and im seeing her in 2wks ...she was just trying to find out more about me told me that depression is a illness .... i got headache again...just want to sleep ...but cant ........kids etc ...
feel abit crap ...cried alittle infront of her...felt foolish... off to see how the other girls are feeling now.....
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Post by gizmoracer on Jun 20, 2007 9:21:53 GMT
Just wanted to say Hi really. I have noticed your name cropping up on posts recently and have finally found the time to read up a bit about you. My 2 are 17 mths apart so similar to you except I have it the oher way round ... I had PNI with my first and have never fully recovered though pleased to say am definatly on my way now. I have noticed the same thing as you My daughter (who I did bond with) can do no wrong , well things are never as bad shall I say, yet my son (who I had trouble bonding with) is always aggrivating me more even when he does the same thing. Trouble is I then go through time where I feel I have to over compensate for being so rotten to him ... Do you find this with Maisy? The breakfast thing is a nightmare for me to. My son wakes up at 3am (thats when hubbys alarm goes off) and promptly demands breakfast, milk, cartoons on telly and then lunch all with in about 5mins. And I'm like what day is it ... who am I ... How are things with your hubby now? I found that at my worst I couldn't bear to be anywhere near him and was convinced there was no point in us being together. Does he understand whats wrong with you? Is he supportive? It is sooo important to have the support close to you, my hubby only fully understood at the start of this year after he had been ill himself and is now very suportive, he even came to the counsellor with me yesterday which helped alot. Anyway I think thats enough rambling from me. Hope you start to feel better soon.
Oh yeah and the headaches ... do you feel like you've got a perminant stress headache? I certainly did, but it does start to wear off once you feel better.
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Post by babybumble on Jun 20, 2007 14:46:30 GMT
hi yes i do seem to buy maisy exactly wot she wants to compensate my guilt..or let her have sweets wen she asks...etcmaisy is a very lifely girl and hard to keep entertained as her attention span is low....so i get really fed up of making the effort too... me and hubby are trying to work things out ..but when im sleepy and snappy due to pni i feel guilty that im falling asleep..its taking me all the energy igot to make dinner today ..and yet we only had soup...i think my appetite has gone the other way ..im normally a comfort eater but i aint the enrgy so im nibbling at it...also to top things off im coming down with the lurgey.... hes hadnt a clue wot i was going through but hes trying too..but sometimes i see it in his face like im p***ing hm off...
head is a permantly stress,,,i wish i could make it go away ..
thanks for takign the time to reply hun ...
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Post by babybumble on Jun 20, 2007 14:47:11 GMT
sleepy day today would like to curl up on sofa and not move
now gotta sort tea out..huff huff
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Post by babybumble on Jun 23, 2007 6:54:29 GMT
well yesterday my real dad watched the kids whilst i went up town with my mum we did some shopping and although it was relaxing i was in a world of my own just happy to have had a break i left the kids at 9am...hubby carried on watching them at 1pm...i got hubby pick me up from mums at 5pm...so had a good break...but then got home...and its the same old story...mess mess and more mess...i didnt leave it like that but its me who has to clean it...grrrrrrrrrrrr
on the other hand today seems ok so far...though could do with out having to go food shopping really pee's off ...lol...
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Post by gizmoracer on Jun 23, 2007 7:27:42 GMT
Its nice to get a day without them isn't it. Though I always worry they are playing hubby up (strange I don't worry about it when they are with my mum). And then like you say the mess. It always seems to come down to being our responcibility, and lets face it is there anyone out there who actually likes housework??? Even little miss perfect Anthea Turner once admitted that she throws herself into it because she can't have kids. Hope your day Stays a good one.
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Post by babybumble on Jun 24, 2007 8:34:33 GMT
ARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH
as life couldnt get more harder!!!
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Post by cheshire on Jul 1, 2007 16:18:54 GMT
Hi babybumble
How are you ?
Hopefulx
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Post by babybumble on Jul 8, 2007 17:36:12 GMT
holy site,,,,,
my lifes a mess....if you read this please please do not judge me ....im soooooo messed up and really need to get this off my chest......
8wks ago ..i met a man..i split up with my husband as we had major issues anyways ..ended up having sex-contraception failed....i thought i was doibg right thing by taking morning after pill........well 2wks later me and hubby get back togeatha i have my period....12days later pregnant........!!! with the man i sleptwith...anyways....hubby wants us to b togeatha we plan r future..we would have termination as 1)not his and 2) really really not the right time mentally for me...anyways....long story short.....it was ECTOPIC ive been in hospital and well luckily ive kept all my tubes etc.......but oh i wish that i havnt had to go through this .......feel guilty feel like its a punishment for wanting termintaion..the thing was..i really really was fighting with termination..as having 2 children i couldnt bear the thought.......anyways so heres my apology for not being on and for being so careless.................................i hate ME..................................................
BYE
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Post by cheshire on Jul 8, 2007 17:58:19 GMT
Hi Bumblebee
We DO NOT judge you at all. I am so glad you felt you could talk to us.
I hope you are recovering from all that has gone on ok, as it sounds like you have had an emotional time of itxx
Thoughts are with youx Hopefulx
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Post by helenr on Jul 8, 2007 19:15:09 GMT
Hi hun,
no one here judges anyone else, thats why its such a wonderful place to say how we truly think/feel. God, life really can throw some sh**e at us sometimes. Having an ectopic pg was not punishment for thinking about termination. You've been through a lot recently, please try to be kind to yourself. Thinking of you, love and hugs x
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Post by babybumble on Jul 14, 2007 18:00:13 GMT
ohhhh i feel sooo empty and emotionless....is this part of PNI ...going for my 2nd councilling session on tuesday looking forward to it...
seem bit cooler these last 2days ....more chilled maybe its the tabs kicked back in...
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Post by Jay on Jul 14, 2007 21:55:52 GMT
Hi Babybumble
I have been looking around your posts today. I have not really been on site for a while. But I do feel you have had a bit of a tough old time lately,.... [and for a long time].
Please don't feel bad about yourself. Be kind to yourself and help yourself to get over this spell in hospital. It was awful for you to have had to go in and have the ectopic sorted.
There are things I want to say, but tonight I can't find the words. One of the threads/posts you wrote I could identify with. In a different way, but my experience of what happened to me, somehow made me understand, not how you were then--but how it might be affecting you now.
Keep plodding on. Get over one thing at a time. the recent hospital thing will need getting over, that is the first thing, before you get going on the next things.
Don't know if any of this makes sense??? If it doesn't - sorry. I will try to explain another day.
Hope today is better for you. pm if you want. love from Jay xx
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Post by babybumble on Jul 15, 2007 15:49:40 GMT
jay thanks so much for the reply...its nice of you to take the time and look through my posts..
pm me when u wanna chat huni xxxxx
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