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Post by sj07 on Jan 8, 2008 15:33:44 GMT
Thank you ladies. Sorry about last post felt so awful last few days since taking higher dose of anti d's and last night was just terrible. Haven't been sleeping at all and felt totally out of control. I had so many things wizzing around in my head and no matter what I did I just couldn't stop thinking about awful things and really felt like just running away last night but the only thing I really want to get away from is my thoughts and thats just impossible!! I hate it when I get so low and truly believe that everyone would be better of without me I really scare myself with the thoughts I have. I have only just managed to sort of get my head together and have spoken to my gp and he has prescribed me dosulipen (dunno how t spell it) and he said these should help me sleep too. He said the psychaiatrist should be getting in touch soon as he reffered me a while back. My mum has been looking after lo all morning as i felt i just coludn't get out of bed. I hate the feeling of wanting to do something but not being able to because of feeling so ill. She is going to go pick up my prescription for me later as feel like I really cant go anywhere and have to see people 2day! My mum is a life safer really dunno what id do without her. Feeling a bit more calm now. Going to see if I can take the dog out for a little walk and get some fresh air might help clear my head a bit. x
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Post by Scarlet on Jan 8, 2008 17:30:21 GMT
I'm glad you've got your mum around to help SJ.. hurray for mums!!!
I have heard of dousepin and I think a few of the ladies on here mentioned thay are taking it. It's meant to help with sleep as well, so hopefully you'll soon be getting a better nights sleep soon.
Sorry you have been feeling crappy, and I know it's hard but try and get out of the bed if you can (unless you need the sleep), even if it's just to watch the TV or to come on here. I found that if I went to lie down I would only have intrusive thoughts anyway, and it never helped in the beginning really.
Hope you have a better day tomorrow hun. We are here for you.
Love Scarlet X
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Post by Bobyn on Jan 8, 2008 19:30:13 GMT
Hi SJ,
So glad to hear that you're feeling a little better today. I hope you enjoyed the walk with the dog and felt a bit brighter for getting out of the house. Don't feel guilty about your Mum helping you at the moment. If you'd broken a bone in you body you'd need the help and wouldn't feel guilty so just know that at the moment a little bit of you is broken, but over time it'll heal and you'll get better. Mums are so great and I don't know what I'd have done without mine the last few months. I felt really low at times and suicidal but now that seems like such a long time ago, and as if it happened to a different person. You'll feel like that one day. Just take each stage one day at a time and keep writing on here and accepting all the help you can get. Thinking of you and hoping you have a brighter rest of the week SJ, With lots of love, Bobyn xxx
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Post by winegirl on Jan 8, 2008 20:39:00 GMT
Hi SJ
Glad you are feeling a bit better today hun. Did you manage to get out for a walk this afternoon? I always use to really struggle to get out of the house, but found that once I had had a walk round the block I felt tons better for it.
Hope your evening goes ok x
WG x
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Post by Scarlet on Jan 10, 2008 8:39:25 GMT
Hi SJ,
Hope you are feeling a bit better hun and that the dousepin is doing it's job. Let us know how you are when you get the chance.
Scarlet X
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Post by sianyc on Jan 10, 2008 15:59:56 GMT
Hope you're ok SJ x
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sj07
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Post by sj07 on Jan 10, 2008 16:59:41 GMT
Hiya, I am okay thanks. The dousepin helped me sleep a bit better last night, I got a few hours of sleeping through which is pretty good for me! I seem to be getting really bad sleep hangovers in the day though which is horrible but i am hoping this will wear off as i get more used to them. Luckyly no really bad side effects with these like ive had when changing to other meds! xx
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Bobyn
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Post by Bobyn on Jan 10, 2008 17:39:56 GMT
I'm sure they'll settle down in time and I'm glad that you've managed to have some sleep on them. Hope you have a good night tonight too. x
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Post by winegirl on Jan 10, 2008 20:12:32 GMT
Hi SJ
I get the funny sleep hangovers too, they can last for hours in the morning! Glad you managed to get more sleep last night hun x Hope it continues xxx
WG x
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Post by sj07 on Jan 12, 2008 22:33:18 GMT
Had another good nites sleep!! Yey!! Got appointment to see the psychiatrist on wednesday - ahh am scared!! Just gonna try and keep the thought in my head that they are there to help me and wont take lo away!!
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Post by winegirl on Jan 13, 2008 20:18:13 GMT
Hi SJ
Glad you managed a good nights sleep. Best of luck for wednesday hun, you will be fine. And we will be thinking of you. Please let us know how you get on?
Take Care
WG x
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Post by sj07 on Jan 14, 2008 1:13:46 GMT
Just been out with a few mates to the cinema and had a really good night!! I actually felt slightly normal and like me for a change if that makes sense?!?!? Have had a really good day today and felt happy. Just thought id write this in my diary and when im feeling low and at my worse it might help me realise i can actually be happy and it aint all bad! Better try get some sleep ill be up in a few hours! and thanx winegirl will let u know how it goes. xx
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Post by Scarlet on Jan 14, 2008 8:52:53 GMT
Hi SJ,
Glad you had a good night at the cinema. Hope you get many more nights like that one, it's always nice to get out with friends.
let us know how you get on with the Psychitrist this Wed, I'll be thinking about you.
Love and hugs
Scarlet X
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Post by Bobyn on Jan 14, 2008 13:24:36 GMT
I'm glad you had a good night out and managed to see that you are getting better, it just all seems to be going a bit too slowly sometimes doesn't it? Hope you got some sleep and maybe even a lie-in x
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Post by sj07 on Mar 21, 2008 15:33:34 GMT
Haven't written anything in a while. Been feeling a bit better trying to get on with life but have felt things going down hill in the past few weeks. Meant to be going back to work in a couple of weeks which scares the hell out of me. Tried taking an overdose so everyones life can be happy without me but no stupid me didnt even take enough tablets. Wish i had the guts to just do it properly. I wish i could be a good mum just dont know what to do anymore.
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