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Post by winegirl on Feb 4, 2009 14:47:57 GMT
Here if you need us xxx
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Post by monica on Feb 5, 2009 9:54:15 GMT
Hi
Just want to echo what other girls have said - all the best. How are things with oh's family now?
Monica
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Post by funkymumlou on Feb 6, 2009 12:13:57 GMT
LL here if you need someone to talk to hun text me anytime x
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Post by winegirl on Feb 9, 2009 12:29:14 GMT
How you doing babes? I guess you will be busy with work and sorting out your home life right now, but just wanted you to know that I am thinking of you if you read this x
Love
WG xx
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Post by littlelotty on Feb 9, 2009 22:08:34 GMT
Hi WG
Thanks for your messages. I have been ill and went to the docs today and they said i have a chest infection and the flu so no wonder i am feeling so rough! Ended up in tears today as i was so ill and just could not manage lucy. It is so hard to look after her when i am feeling so rough. It has really got me down today as well. Fed up with feeling rough. Hubby got his father to look after LO for a few hours this afternoon so that helped.
Me and hubby have been working really hard at our relationship and got some books on overcoming relationship problems etc and we are reading them and working at it and it is helping alot. He is trying so hard and so am i and hopefully that will pay off soon.
thanks all for your posts, will be back when i am well. It takes all my energy to get up!
xxxx
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Post by cokey on Feb 10, 2009 9:31:11 GMT
Bless you, its really awful being responsible for a lo when you are so ill. I hope you get better soon xx
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Post by sianyc on Feb 10, 2009 11:48:55 GMT
Take care LL - hope you feel better soon x
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Post by winegirl on Feb 10, 2009 12:43:57 GMT
Huge hugs LL. We are all here for yuo when you need us and really hope you are better soon xx
Love
WG xx
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Post by littlelotty on Mar 7, 2009 22:42:27 GMT
Well i have decided to start writing back on here as everyone will soon find out anyway so why keep it a secret i dont know!
My hubby ended the relationship about 3 weeks ago now and i have been trying to find somewhere to live as it is his house and i dont think i would want to stay here anyway - too many memories. I managed to find one after looking at 8 places to rent and i move in on the 23rd March. It has been so hard living in the same house as someone but you are not 'together'! I am starting to get to the point of wanting to move into new place so i can have my own space again and not be in limbo.
I am still in therapy and we have been working on the last few weeks of managing on my own as it is my worst fear and come true! I have never lived on my own and although i will have LO it is different as when she is in bed i will feel on my own. I also havent been without a man since i was 18 and i am now 28! I get with men in order to fill a void inside me of needing to feel loved and wanted - hence my 6 months of therapy so far of working on past childhood trauma and abuse!
I need to start using this diary as this is going to be such a massive change for me with very little support around me so i need to offload as my fear is i will drop down like last time and try to end it again but i know i will be stronger and have to think of my LO.
Anyway enough of going on, hope everyone is ok.
LL XX
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Post by cheshire on Mar 7, 2009 22:56:37 GMT
We're all here for you and you have our numbers too - talk to us if you need to
xxHxx
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Post by nicola1712 on Mar 8, 2009 12:50:03 GMT
Keep writing on here, that's what we are here for.
Sorry to hear your news and know how hard it must seem for you - I have always needed to have a man to feel more secure and 'right' too. But you never know it may be quite liberating and fun living on your own, you get to choose everything to your taste and can do whatever you want!
Thinking of you xx
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Post by beckah on Mar 8, 2009 20:34:09 GMT
Hi LL
Sorry to hear your news. We're all here for you. I am like you in that i am afraid of being on my own and always have been. You are stronger than you believe though xxxxxxx
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Post by cokey on Mar 8, 2009 21:05:09 GMT
HI C You know I was just thinking of you today and wondering how your relationship was. Look at least you gave it your very very best and you can never feel like you didn't. Also you will be so surprised at the inner strength you have and you may feel invigorated by your independence. I know its nothing like your situation but can you rmemeber when my husband went to work away for 6 weeks. I freaked out but actually it was an amazing experience because I came out of it a much stronger happier person. I wouldnt hesitate to be alone fater trying it if I felt it was thge right thing for us. We are here for you and I am on facebook if you wanta live chat Candice xx
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Post by winegirl on Mar 11, 2009 20:27:11 GMT
Loads and loads of love from me (()) - (you got my number i think??)
WG xx
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Post by littlelotty on Mar 12, 2009 20:16:25 GMT
what a week i have had. One thing that has been good is me and hubby been getting on but still getting on with the packing etc - just nice we are able to get on still.
But my SIL is 20 weeks pregnant with her 2nd baby and has found out this week at the 20 week scan that her baby has so much fluid on the brain and is very badly brain damaged and she has been recommended to have a termination which means she has to give birth etc. She has agreed to go ahead with this and is having it on sunday and she is understandly a right state. I spoke with her last night and today and she is in such a state and just the thought of giving birth etc knowing the baby is dying is bad enough but she wants a funeral.
I havent stopped thinking of her and it must be awful. I am on my period this week which is never good and once again i get stressed and anxious and dip - when will it stop! I have had an awful week at work as well just to top off my week!
Thank god it is friday tomorrow and going to chill out at the weekend. We are doing a car boot on sunday to get some money. I am getting very anxious about the move and really dont want it to happen, just dont want to be on my own and the stress of moving etc. Wish i could wake up and it be in two weeks time and all over!
Hope everyone else is ok
LL XX
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