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Post by cokey on Jun 23, 2008 10:07:13 GMT
Go for it MD, I think a PhD in PNI would be great because you ahve a really good research base here already. I would be happy for you to use my case anytime. You can wire me up to a machine too lol (my mate did that with the babies - they had a baby lab and everything! lol people brought in babies voluntarily - who would do that eh? lol).
Have a good day.
Cokey xxx
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Post by mummydonna on Jun 25, 2008 19:02:05 GMT
...yeah i'm sure lots of you lovely ladies would be my guinea pigs...errrr i mean volunteers! hee he. As we all want to further the cause of understnding pni. Don't think i'll be using any machines...tho' it would be fab (altho inpossible) if we could invent a machine that could tell if someone had pni....if i knew earlier, it would have saved a lot of heart ache as it was only when i could put a name to what was wrong wih me that i was able to start dealing with it.
Today was a bit sad...end of the holiday and i was in pain...as suffering from wisdom tooth evilness...it's all inflamed and angry...plus bad back ache still. Went to the doc this afternoon and she gave me some drugs for the pain and anti-inflamatories and told me not to lift anything heavy (hello! have a LO and live on top floor flat!).
of course with my pni i started freaking out about the meds when i looked at the leaflet and now don't want to take them as there is quite a risk of stomach probs even fatal and i have ibs and it also increases risk of heart attack (obviously stirring up issues of my friend who just passed and also - altho' i haven't talked about it -my nan and grandad who both passed 3 years ago - who were like my parents, both had strokes within 3 weeks of each other and i think some of my pni issues are to do with still dealing with the grief and the added grief that they're not here to see the LO and support me).
My OH is lovely and told me not to take the meds...think i'll opt for a few glasses of wine to numb the pain all round. I must have put on a few pounds this holiday. we have been eating and drinking like kings!
The LO has been a bugger all day, went out with him at 8am for a long walk..he's teething and don't we know it!!! Poor thing..i feel his pain. thought about drinking a bottle of calpol to see if that helps, but i hate the stuff!!!!
anyhoo i better sweet talk my OH into buying me a bottle of the red stuff
love and hugs to all
MD
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Post by cokey on Jun 25, 2008 19:55:53 GMT
I love calpol. Don't take the meds if they will trigger thoughts md (nothing will happen to you if you do, its just I know how fragile we are), can you take codeine? What about acupuncture, my mate swears by it for her bad back.
Cokey xxx
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Post by mummydonna on Jun 26, 2008 9:32:32 GMT
thanks for advise Cokey...yeah thinking of going back to docs (didn't actually see my own GP yesterday had to see another) and saying how i feel and perhaps can they give me some painkillers i've been on before.
But, in a right state this morning...feeling so low and in pain, plus the LO is screaming all the time coz of his teething and i think he's frustrated at being back in our small flat where i have to constantly move him or things for saftey..it's a nightmare. So i've just put him in his cot screaming so i can have a cry and offload on here.
i rang my oh and he told me he would ring the docs if i didn't. I feel stupid and it's just all on top of me being back home and having all the bills to deal with, the place was a shithole when we returned so we had to spend time cleaning it up, but it's just that it's so small and we have so much crap.
I want to go out and prob will...it's just carrying him and the pram downstairs and pushing it hurts my back. But i'm gonna go mad if i stay...so it's a case of buggered if i do and buggered if i don't.
AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LO is driving me nuts!
md
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Post by winegirl on Jun 26, 2008 19:51:34 GMT
Hi MD
Oh sorry you were havig such a tough time of it earlier hun!! Did you manage to get out with LO??
I hate those days when they just scream and cry endlessly and you just need 5 mins away from it!!
Did you ring the docs?? I think it is a good idea, and even if it is not, it certainly doesnt hurt to go! How you feeling this evening? You managed any chill out time??
WG xx
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Post by cokey on Jun 26, 2008 20:27:11 GMT
Bless you. You must be in pain. My LO is teething too at the moment and that in itself wears you out.
Good you can have a good cry though, always makes me feel better.
Did you get out? How is your back?
Cokey xxx
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Post by mummydonna on Jun 26, 2008 20:49:26 GMT
thanks WG and Cokey...it's so good to get your support.
I got out...yay! effort! i'm so narky as i'm in pain....i tried to get an appointment with my doc but he was out today so gonna try tomo. Back not as bad, but trying to be careful. Been so down...guess i've been sorting the bills as OH never does as it's such a comedown from the holiday.
went out...you're so gonna laugh.....got shat on by seagulls...me and LO covered just before we got to town...i nearly cried until i tried to see the funny side of it all....well at least we should be getting good luck!
my 'king pram stinks...little bastards!
getting some wine down me..a good pain killer
hugs to my gals md
anyhoo..
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Post by mummydonna on Jun 26, 2008 20:51:29 GMT
i'm a senior member how does that work?
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Post by winegirl on Jun 26, 2008 21:19:13 GMT
Hi Hun Sorry shouldnt laugh about the seagulls but.... LOL x You becoma a senior member depending on the number of posts you have. You start of as a new member, then a full member, then a senior member and then i think its a very active senior member. It is done automiatically when you have reached so many posts... Either that or its saying you're old!! LOL x WG xx
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Post by mummydonna on Jun 27, 2008 16:29:49 GMT
errr.prob saying i'm old..i feel it, in body at least! lol
Had a shite morning...found it so hard to get up with the LO (didn't help that I'd had a bottle of wine last night). V grumpy, but got on with the housework. I couldn't go out today as the health visitor was comng round and i needed to sort the place out. Not that i wanted to go out. Been bit down all day...just wanted to eat chocolate and mope around.
The HV was as much use as a chocolate teapot...but i guess that's wat i expected...my old HV was brill and helped my partner and i a lot...kinda counselling us. But the HV was serious lame anyhoo., but i won't have to see her much.
So tonight? More chocolate i think....this diet/detox keeps being pushed to the next week and the next and the next week. Wonder if i'll get a chocolate hangover?#
Hugs MD
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Post by winegirl on Jun 27, 2008 16:49:05 GMT
HI MD
Chcolate and wine kind of solve everything for me. I have been having a bit of a blip the last couple of days so have been and brought some chocolate cake and a bottle of wine for tonight (we normally have bottles in the cupboard but appears I have already drank the all)
I hope you can relax a bit tonight and then feel a bit more refreshed for the weekend ahead!
Take Care
WG x
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Post by mummydonna on Jun 28, 2008 21:22:57 GMT
yeah i read in another thread ur having a hard time WG...sorry to hear it, but i'll repeat what another lady said...we're here for you too should you need to offload or anything Wine doesn't last long in my household either..i blame the fairies! Had a good day today....v busy meeting my bestfriends hubbie to be at last - as they live some distance and he's been ill, and traveling makes him worse. We had a stroll to the park then to the seafront where my friend treated me to chips and cake..two of my fave comfort eats. Been feeling bit down tho bout not having shed the baby weight and i know it's only been 8 months and I'm "ill" etc etc as everyone says, but i still feel it. And i feel it especially as my friends wedding is approaching and i'm the cheifbridesmaid and all the others are size 8/10 and more importantly my ex-fiance will be there. I guess i just feel quite vulnerable with pni, a lost self confidence? Before i wouldn't have given two shits what anyone else thought...i used to be self-assured and happy as me. But pni has taken most of me and i don't feel like the person i was before....saying that of course as i'm getting better i have flashes of the old me. i used to be the most laid back person, always cool and ready in a crisis and determined as strong in myself as i knew myself so well. Now just worry bout everything, the smallest things and a bit of an emotional wreck and have no idea who i am. I just fullfill the role of mother. Anyhoo..i've solving these issues with cheese and wine tonight...ahh my old friends. Was meant to get an early night but i'm starting to lift again in this cycle of up down and getting v manic and fidgety, restless and thoughts at a million miles an hour...so prob blabbed on long enough....time for cheese hugs MD
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Post by winegirl on Jun 29, 2008 6:32:59 GMT
Hi MD
Hope the cheese and wine went down well? Yum xx
I too used to be super confident and self assures, but PNI left me thinking I was a wreck who had lost all the attributes I once hand. The weight bothered/still bothers me too. Along with a whole host of changes in myself. But it gets better. My confidence is slowly creeping back and i often see the old me nowadays...
Glad you enjoed your day eating chips and cake by the sea! I would like to go to the coast today but OH isnt buying the idea.
Hope the rest of your weekend goes ok xx
WG x
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Post by mummydonna on Jun 29, 2008 18:18:11 GMT
glad ur getting ur confidence back WG..you should do as it looks as if you've helped so many people on this website. Today was good..plans to meet friend fell through but i got a lot done at home...washing, LO food for the week and made time to paint my toenails! Sad isn't it? I see some mothers out in full make-up with thier LO's how the hell do they do it? Manic today still, but managable...just constant buzzing thoughts, hard to concentrate on and mostly meaningless. Went to the park with the LO and phoned a few friends for a catch up. Tomo and the next day OH has off...need to go to the jobcentre to let them know i am officialy unemployed for a week...and hopefully get out and do something nice with OH and LO. We are on good terms...i managed to stay awake...funnily enough as manic! and we played Mario cart on the wii and ate cheese. This morning we got a quickie in while the Lo was in his bouncer! v unexpected!!!!! and wonderful. something that would have never happened! So all good...trying to monitor myself though as i can get too manic and crazy Hugs MD
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Post by winegirl on Jun 29, 2008 19:22:18 GMT
Hi MD
Sounds like you need to be a bit manic to get through your days!! My god you are busy!!
Sounds like all is good with you at the moment though. Wii, cheese, sex... sounds like a dream! LOL x
Best of luck at the Job Centre hun, let us know how you get on? Will be thinking of you xx
Take Care
WG x
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