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Post by winegirl on Jan 29, 2009 20:03:12 GMT
How did it go pal?
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Post by stevensmummy on Jan 30, 2009 7:59:44 GMT
Hi,
Ended having my tea at a mates house last night so was a bit later home than wanted to be but never mind. Saved me cooking!
The MW was really nice, its my MW this time, occasionally you get some of the others, so it helps. My urine is ok but thats about it. My BP etc is low as always, usually really low but when I'm preg its normal, 101/85 I think yest. She is going to come to the house to see me next week, as she doesnt think I should be trailing out to see her when I could be at home instead. I have to see her weekly which the hosp warned me about.
Generally all well from babies point of view, I'm really sore at the top of my tummy, just below the ribs, its really red, apparently thats bruising from the inside, from it kicking! My stomach aches are most likely to be from my tablets. She said they do normally cause stomach pains, but its the lesser of the two evils. She warned that if I dont start taking care of myself and actually doing nothin then I will land back in. She also said too many times in there and they will talk of inducing early. Which I'm not very keen on. I'd rather not have a sweep, which is all they will do, and have a horrible drawn out labour. At least when its ready to come out its much quicker. I kind of think well wouldnt 4-5wks time be much better than a possible 9wks? But then i think well what if its just not ready and doesnt play game, hrs after frs of labour. No ta! She also said natural methods of getting it out, ie natual induction, you know the hot baths and pinapples etc. There are plenty more I'm sure. If at about 36wks I start this, esp the pineapples apparently its suposed to help. Well I've nothin to loose!
Pretty tired this am, but I'm going to go to toddlers with the boys, the older one gets to come on a fri as he has no playgroup. Its the lesser of 2 stresses I think. At least there they play for 3hrs without bothering me much and I just sit with the mums and drink tea. Its just accoss the main road from here so I can walk in 5 mins, easier than loading in and out of the car to go somewhere. Mums also taking them 2nite for a sleepover to give me a rest. She will take them back over sometime on sat afternoon so that gives me a fair few hrs rest. You dont realise just how hard everyday life is when you are that exhausted and ill. I feel like a wimp! lol
Off to get organised, and get some of these awful tablets in me
xxx
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Post by winegirl on Jan 30, 2009 8:31:02 GMT
You are not a wimp! MY god, if i was as poorly as you, pregnant, 2 kids, horses etc.. i'd be a blubbering wreck! But you just carry on! The MW has hit the nail on the head. Rest or be forced to rest at hospital. Makes sense really, but difficult I know when you have so much on your plate!
How many weeks are you now mate?
WG x
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Post by stevensmummy on Jan 30, 2009 17:28:20 GMT
Hi,
Nearly 33. They keep mentioning induction early and all sorts of scary stuff but I dont fancy that. the were going on about it again today at the clinic. But as I said whats the lesser of 2 evils? Another 5 wks then be induced for a possible long, drawn out labour, ending in c-sect coz I'm knackered? Or, a possible 9wks like this? I see ups to both, but as I'm feeling just now I think I'd be waiting until nature decides its coming out. U see my point?
You know they actually said they were kind of glad I didnt come to the antenatal classes as i might scare the first time mums. Huh!!
Had a very tiring and uncomfortable day. I decided it better to walk to toddlers and let the kids let off steam than go round the bend at home. But I think I pushed myself too much. I got home and my legs are pulsating and puffy ankles and i could feel myself getting light headed. I had 2 glasses of water then made lunch. After which I put the youngest to bed for nap and steven and i lay on the sofa. He was ciddling me and saying mummy you look tired, I'll take care of you, just you sleep in my arms. Little darling. He did drop off so I allowed myself about 45mins of a sleep, snuggled up to him. I felt better of it but I still feel a bit knackered. Mum picked them up this afternoon so i can get a rest 2nite and 2moro for a bit. And my MIL has asked mike and I over for tea to save me cooking and washing up. Means we just stay after seeing to the horses, then home to bed. Sound great to me!!!
I cant help feeling like a burden tho. All my mates keep saying dont be silly you need it, but my dad esp makes me feel like I'm overreacting and causing a hassle. He said some really hurtful things to me and to mike about me when I was in hosp and just b4 I went in. Normally I wouls be well f**k you and go all out to prove that I'm not useless and making it all up etc, but i just dont have the energy. I really am exhausted. I just feel quilty about being incapable. Is that me being silly?
Right off for a pee, lol. And away to get my tea made for me. Hmm lovely
xxx
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Post by winegirl on Jan 30, 2009 17:46:48 GMT
You are not being silly, and you dont need to prove anything to your dad! Its more important that you get well for you, your new baby and your family! You can prove to him how superwoman like you are later!
As for the induction, well its like this. I have confidence that whatever the professionals suggest is always for very good reason. HOWEVER, you are a patient with free will, which means this works exactly how you want it to. So if you want to go full term and think it is ok to do so then do. They cant make you be induced! The brilliance of the NHS, here to serve, not demand!
Hope you enjoy your tea tonight babes. If I lived closer I'd be hounding for a doggy bag! LOL
WG xx
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Post by stevensmummy on Jan 31, 2009 21:10:32 GMT
Cheers love, ure right I dont need to prove anything to him. Hes always made me feel insufficent, why should now be any different. One day I'm going to have the courage to say yes to these CPN sessions and I'll be interested to see if he is one of the roots of all this. I dont know why I feel I need to prove to him I'm capable. When i was a little girl I thought the sun shone out of his rear. He was everything I wanted to be, strong, confident, always right! I learned as I grew up that most of what i thought was wrong, yet I never managed to stop needing to prove myself to him. All I wanted was him to be proud for once. I've never yet managed that. I dont why i still try.
As for the induction, yeah ure right i dont need to say yes do I. I didnt really think about it that way. I guess the further along I get themore i will know. Last night when I went to the toilet I felt kind of wet, and I thought oh s**t not again. But there was a gooey bit. Almost like my show, but not like my last time. It wasnt big enough. Just like a little bit. I read somewhere it can start to come apart. And can take up to 2 weeks for labout to begin in that case. I'm guessing that meant from getting a proper 'bit'. Anycase if that is a bit of show then I've not got long to wait. I'm going to keep a watch for 'bits' and let the MW know next week.
Tea was lovely last night. Nice just to be able to sit down and have it put on a plate and given to you. No doggy bags tho love, I'm feeling really hungry this last 2 days, prob my body making up for what i lost, half a stone apparently! I was exhausted by the time I was there so was so greatful of it. I'm knackered again tonight. just pushing it too much i think. I walked round the farm tonight while mike checked the calving cows. The boys and I were looking about and I think I was only out for 30mins but that was just too much. I didnt realise just how weak I really am. I keep thinking ahh I'll manage but I really cant. And thats frustrating.
I'm off to get organised with a bath and a hot drink. What with being in hosp I missed the first 2 eps of the new lost, so I'm watching it, and recording incase i fall asleep, 2nite at 10. So I am in line b4 2moros ep. Mike watched it and said it was rather confusing (he didnt see all of last season tho) so even if I do stay awake I'll prob be greatful of a second chance to see it.
Night xx
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Post by monica on Jan 31, 2009 22:12:48 GMT
Hi
Glad you are able to chill without the kids - hoepfully that will give you the boost and regeneration you need.
Sod what your dad says - some people can be so hurtful but it's cos they don't understand. I used push myself in my last pregnancy and really regretted it after each time as it used to completely zonk me out and would take me ages to recover, so TAKE IT EASY!
Love
Monica
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Post by stevensmummy on Feb 2, 2009 15:34:22 GMT
Cheers monica. I know its silly isnt it. When I get to the end of the day and could cry with the pain and am so tired I can hardly move, then I regret it. I am trying to take it easy, honestly I really am.
Hate to say it but I think I have another installment!
Woke up this morning, after a really uncomfortable night. Just painful aounf the hips and tummy, put it down to doing a bit much as I was at mum n dads last night for tea. Got up went for a pee then came back and sat down on the bed to put my slippers on. Stood up and thought, uuggh wet. Wet to the toilet again sure enough really quite wet. Had i not just had a pee I'd have thought stress incontinence with the stretch and hurting of bending down. but i'd just had a pee. So I changed my clothes and pants. And a few mins later a little dribble again. Immediate thought, oh not again! Had a mild prem rupture with last one, just leaked for the last 4-5 weeks. Said it was a weak cervix, and after antibiotics and a day in hosp checking my cervix and baby ect I got home. I was checked more often but other than being leaky I was fine.
Called the MW about 11 ish, said there was no way i could go in today to hosp. Both the boys were ill, they are v high temps, eldest has toncilitis too. For the sake of a few drops I'd rather wait till 2moro when I'm sure one way, I was just looking for best advice. She did say that first thing is more likely, if there is a slight rupture as I would have pooling of the water at the cervix from lying down. Sounds very familiar to last time. Recommended I wear a pad, so i can collect whats there, wear te same one all day. She says i will smell it sweet if it is waters, the pad will collect it and induce the smell. Says I have to phone if I get sore, i am sore but I had the blacksmith this am so I did too much. Hence feeling a bit pulled. She said be aware of being in labour and not knowing, since its thrid it could be quite quick so dont hang about. The can inject me and give me anitibiotics to stop it. And could carry on another 2 weeks if its really burst, or even 4 weeks if its a small burst.
So sounds like its ok really. Bit like last time, mum said she remembers this. I'll just keep a watch and have to really take it easy. For the sake of a day in hosp I'd rather have that than prem birth.
Off to have alie down while kids napping
might get back later xx
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Post by stevensmummy on Feb 3, 2009 11:37:20 GMT
Well to no surprise I've got to into town to the hosp again. This is really beginning to annoy me. I'm sick of trailing in and out. It makes me feel like such a burden to everyone else.
I had a leak again this morning. As I expected to be honest. I'm not worried about it as this is what i did with my other 2 and everything was fine with them. The only thing being this time I'm much weaker and have been ill. I do feel sore but of course I will I'm prob doing to much. I cant just lie in bed all the time, its not a possibility. I have taken a bag with me but if I land up having to stay I wont be impressed. I cant cope with having everyone else looking after the kids and me lying there useless. Its hard to cope with, esp when the kids are upset at me having to be in.
Better go anyway have to get ready to pick up steven from playgroup, then drop them at MIL, who is not at all impressed about having to look after them!
Hopefully, cross your fingers guys, be back home later to update!!
xxx
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Post by winegirl on Feb 3, 2009 13:10:10 GMT
Awww babes best of luck in the hospital! Dont go having that baby just yet mate!
Is MIL actually that bothered about looking after the kids for a bit?? Is anyone actually thinking of you up there?? Everyone seems so preoccupied with things that need doing and kids need looking after I worry that they are forgetting about looking after you!!
I hope you read this this afternoon - means you will be back home!
Let us know how it went? I am thinking about you xxx
WG x
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Post by stevensmummy on Feb 4, 2009 19:18:09 GMT
Hi,
Thankyou, ure such a sweetie you know that.
Yes MIL wasnt impressed about having to look after them. Mum picked them up and took them to hers about 3.30 so she only had about 2 hrs. She went on about how much hard work they are keeping an eye on two. then the next min shes telling me they were no bother. Odd but thats her. She can be so helpful and supportive but if you ask for something like that out of the blue its like asking for blood!
Didt have to stay long, got home a few hrs later. I was put on a montior, the babys heartrate was really erratic but they said it was prob them poking aboput at it. You know how the get you to take a deep breath and the push down to see if its engaged well, she did that and it shot back out again, lol. She laughed about that, saying well it was engaged but its now away again and turning about like mad. It was well pissed off with her. After it settled I got examined and she said she saw the reason straight away. There was this really watery mucus running out said. It was no wonder I was wet feeling she said it was really runny. She did that test stick thing, like a preg test and said -ve to blood, urine and waters. But she didnt know what it was. Apparently its can happen shes has seen women who practically drip but its just mucusy stuff. Its was coming off my cervix so its most likely from pressure. As I have had kids already she says its more common.
As kids were at mums we went back there after getting out so got our tea too, which was a nice break for me.
We've had bad snow today so i went straight up to the horses after picking up steven from playgroup. The inlaws were oh dont come up the roads not good we'll do the horses. But they did them last nite so I was deading the mess of the stables. They just cant seem to manage to pick the shit out, I mean how hard is it. its just laziness not to do it all. The little mare is really good, quite a tidy stable but the big mare is a typical mare, really messy. If you dont do it properly its a nightmare> So surprise today was a mess, 3 barrow loads! The go on at me oh you shouldnt be doing it but when it comes to the crunch they didnt offer to help, they just left me to it. Then of course said afterwards oh you look sore, well hello of course I am! thanks for the help!!!
Thats the moan over now tho lol
I'm going to have a hot bath, the last few nights I've had to have a shower as I've either not had time or been too tired.
Away to put the LO to bed and leave steven with his dad while i have a nice relax. Got no chance of getting him to bed he had a nap at 4, so daddy will have fun 2nite. I'm going to bed!! lol.
xxx
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Post by stevensmummy on Feb 5, 2009 19:22:43 GMT
Just a quixkie as my bath is running, I'm aching tonight.
Stevens didnt have playgroup today as school was closed due to the snow, so a freind and I decided we'd go to her house for the kids to play. they had a great time, i ended up being there all day! Had the intention of going to my freinds as I usually do on a thur but never made it that far. Wehn my in-laws phoned to say they had done the horses I stayed for another cuppa which turned out to be three, u know the story, lol.
So had a good catch up and a good rest. came home and flew about like a twit to get tidied, washed the floors and everything like and idiot and am now in agony, did it all in 45mins.
Got to see midwife 2moro as she didnt come out to me today what with the bad snow. Going to go in past ans see her, as I was told there was a trace of protein in my urine and my Bp was slightly up for my normal, this was when at hosp. So asked for it to be checked this wk. So I'll go in past clinic at about 12 ish, usually the end of session, and get her to do a quick check and my BP. If all goes to plan and schools open again the under 5's group will be on till 11.30 so will time perfectly.
Off for a bath then an early night xxx
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Post by stevensmummy on Feb 6, 2009 20:01:49 GMT
Got in to see the midwife today, so my urine is protein free but has traces of keytones. My BP is still higher than normal but lower than the last time. They rekon the racing pulse and the light headedness comes from being anaemic. My bloods are to be repeated in 3 wks to see if they are any better. I need to remember to take the iron! I need to get a higher blood count for giving birth apparently. Not sure exactly why but the way I'm feeling just now I'd not manage to give birth, I'm too knackered.
Schools were open today so meant the community centre was too, so the boys got to the under 5's group and were pleased to be there.
Snow started bad again today so mum isnt taking the kids over to hers 2nite, she said she thought she might but with the weather its unnessecary. Mike is off this wkend so I'll get a bit of a break anyway. At least I'll get him to get up with the boys and I'll get to sleep till 9. By that time he'll have fed them and they will be driving him insane again and wont know what to do lol.
Am planning starting going to a young mums group on a monday morning. Its a creche minded session where we get to do stuff. Just now they are doing a 1st aid class. they do lots of great stuff and its all surestart funded so its great. They are having problems with getting someone else to do the creche so they can take more kids just now so there are no spaces. But a friend and I are 1st on the list apparently. I'm not too worried about it until after the baby is born but if it comes up b4 then I'd go so I got to keep my place. I'm looking forward to that.
Away to give steven is bedtime cuddle, he gets me to sit with him for 10mins b4 bed and we cuddle or read whatever he wants hes not feeling great just now so he's happy to sit on my knee and cuddle for 10 mins. Saves me having to concentrate to read too lol.
xxx
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Post by winegirl on Feb 9, 2009 12:39:55 GMT
Hi Babes
Sorry havent been around for a few days so just catching up with you! Hope you are doing as you are told and taking it easy??
Here was me moaning about being snowed in on Thursday and of course, poor you living as north as north is (well bar stornoway or something) ,must have been up tp your neck in it!
How are you doing today mate? You been taking those iron tablets? If now we may have to order a blood red steak to be sent to you for your tea!
Hope you are feeling better??
WG x
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Post by stevensmummy on Feb 9, 2009 20:11:23 GMT
Hi Hun, thanks for dropping in, its nice to know you arent alone in the world lol.
Yes love, we have a fair bit of snow. Its not too bad I have to say, I'cce seen alot worse but the roads are terrible, for some reason they are making a pathetic job at clearing them. Apparently its due to this salt/grit shortage. Its terrible anyway, the roads are white and pure ice.
Not feeling too bad considering. Its been a long weekend, didnt get much of a rest as I decided to clean lol. But nm. I'm a wee bit organised now, rather than not at all!
I've been told to go to bed early and rest. but I just cant sleep. I'm too tired to read. I hate those sorts of books you only have to be half on to read so I read classics and shakespeare, thats sorts of stuff, so when you are tired you cant take it in. I make cards and go to a craft class for a 3rd world charity, one of the girls there suggested I start crochet. i thought yeah whatever, I cant knit so I've no hope. But its actually easy and you can sit in bed and do it. It comes up much quicker than knitting and is so much easier. I dodnt know what to make but she suggested a blanket. Which is now going to be a car seat cosy toes. They are almost impossible to get in shops, a girl at the clinic had one and her mother crochet it for her, it was lovely, so thats the plan. No saying it will work like that but hey its keeps me in bed and resting so got to be a good thing. Getting a wee bit concerned I might be getting pre-eclampsia, its been suggested by MW thats this could be the start of it. In which case I may land in hosp and I'll be bored so its a good occupier. As if I get too bored I'll go off my head and prob land discharging myself, and OH will go mad if I did!
Have been taking my iron. No blood red steaks thanks WG lol. I cant cope with tablets, get bad cramps so have liquid, its yuck!
Away for a nice bath. Go while I can as Steven will be up wanting in beside me b4 I know it. Peace shattered!!
xxx
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