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Post by Victoria on Jan 13, 2011 18:13:25 GMT
Kelly, glad you managed to get out today. Leave the wrap thing until you are ready to go through it. No point going through it when you are not in the right frame of mind. Take it easy. There is pushing yourself a little, and there is doing too much. Sounds like your oh is supportive in your illness which is great. You sound like have the same anger that me and many others have at this horrible illness. Well done you for making the decision to tell your story on here. Just tell it as you feel you can. xxx
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Post by lizcreed on Jan 14, 2011 7:54:11 GMT
fsg is so right, I think lots of us have had to push ourselves to get back on track but you have to know your limits or you will make yourself stressed even more. You are doing so well, its the little differences you make everyday that will also give you a boost Liz x
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Post by kelly30staples on Jan 14, 2011 8:49:46 GMT
here goes
i met my ex 11 years ago i was 19 i caught pregnant with my son whos now 10 after only 4 months together i was on the pill tho. i suffered mild depression with him but was no where as bad as now or last time , anyway when he was 2 i caught again only to lose it then my sister lost her baby when she was 8 months pregnant then i caught again and lost it which was realhard for us both , then we both caught at the same time lol i had a lil girl olivia who i suffered severe pni with i was addmitted to the mother and baby unit twice put on so many different ad's then put on poroxatine and litium when olivia was 9 months oldi lost my dad suddenly i was still really ill so could'nt really take it in i still could'nt bond with olivia think i was scared i was going to lose her but i got there when she was about one i started getting better e moved house settled then my mum was in a car crash a few months later she got pnemonia then a bllod clot in her groin and then we find out she has leakemia shes now in remission then i lose my grandad my ex then tells me he dont love me anymore after 10 years that was the biggest shock as i though we was ok, i them meet my new partner move intogether so we have 4 kids between us i fall pregnant with our baby only yo lose it and then his neice who i was with when she had her baby loses him to cot death hewas 4 weeks old now my cpn and crsis team are still telling me i have pni after 6 years sorry so long but feel a lil better getting it off my chest sorry if it upsets anyone i dont want to do that
take care kelly xxxx
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Post by Victoria on Jan 14, 2011 9:52:17 GMT
Wow. Kelly well done for telling your story. You have been through so much loss and heartache that no wonder you are poorly. I cant say too much as am off out now, but be very proud of yourself for getting that all off your chest. Not only does it help ppl to understand what you have been through a bit better, but it will help you being open about things and how you feel in your illness. You are making active steps in your recovery and that is the most important thing. Just coming on here, is a massive positive. Little steps forward is the way. Catch up with you later. xxx
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Post by Weeble on Jan 14, 2011 10:05:13 GMT
Hi Kelly, when you here stories like this it makes sense that you are feeling so ill. I read what you wrote and felt so sorry for you and although my story is different in many ways so similar. It has been explained to me that the feelings compound, so when you recently lost a baby you felt all the previous losses as well. I have to be honest I am so cross with you gp he messed with your drugs and made things worse for you. You have my sympathy, empathy and understanding and you have been through so much.
Kat
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Post by juppster on Jan 14, 2011 12:10:51 GMT
Well done for sharing Kelly, i know its not easy but glad it has made you feel a little bit better getting it all down in writing. Keep talking lovely x
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Post by kelly30staples on Jan 14, 2011 13:28:23 GMT
thank you all i've been on my own last few hours oh been out mum was out ive not been left on my own for about 6 weeks i done a bit of cleaning polished hoovered washed pots folded a bit of washing oh just come back with a new pair of pj's for me they so sweet i'll most prob be back on later kelly xxx
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Post by Weeble on Jan 14, 2011 15:57:33 GMT
That sounds such good news, I find tidying the house really therapeutic, I feel like I have control of something and I look at it and feel pleased. How did the rest of the day go?
Kat
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Post by kelly30staples on Jan 14, 2011 18:23:58 GMT
not feeling to good this afternoon just had enough now its been 4 weeks since started ad's and feel no different not sure if i should yet with what ad's i'm taking just confused even the thought of living for my kids is getting to much whats happening
sorry
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Post by lizcreed on Jan 14, 2011 22:31:04 GMT
There are lots of us that have been through traumatic things in our lives so we understand how horrible it all is. When you feel so bad and you are having all these horrible things happen it can make you feel like you will never get out of the horrible place you are in but you will. It is good that you are writing it all down like this as sometimes its good to have it as a reference that you can go back to as you see how far you have come as time goes on xx
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Post by Weeble on Jan 14, 2011 23:18:20 GMT
Hi Kelly
The others have said so much just wanted you to know that I am listening and thinking of you. I can only imagine how much you are hurting and I know how frustrating the hcps are.
Kat x
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Post by kelly30staples on Jan 15, 2011 9:28:38 GMT
hiya
hope your all ok this morning
i've woke feeling so low i dont know how much more i can take i'm trying so hard to think positive do lil things i dont even want to go out again but goning to try just in the garden
i'll let u know how the rest of my day gooes and thank you all so much for listening and for the advice
kelly xxx
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Post by juppster on Jan 15, 2011 10:36:39 GMT
Morning Kelly...well done you for trying to think positive. Believe me i know how hard this is when you are feeling so low..it really feels like you're fighting an upwards battle every day but doing those little things like getting out in the garden will eventually make the difference. Be kind to yourself, don't put too much pressure on yourself. Just remember you are ill at the moment and are trying to heal and that takes time xx
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Post by kelly30staples on Jan 15, 2011 18:06:14 GMT
thank you juppster i managed to go for a walk down the river with kids and oh to feed the ducks but i did'nt enjoy it at all but at least i got out thanks again kelly xxx
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Post by lizcreed on Jan 15, 2011 21:10:08 GMT
well there is your little thing for the day slow and steady, do the bits you feel you can. sending you an extra big hug x
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