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Post by Kirsty on Mar 12, 2017 20:34:01 GMT
Not doing to bad thank you. Been an ok day. Just trying to get my head around the areas of the site, you may have to show me the in's and outs on Wednesday haha x
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Post by monica on Mar 18, 2017 20:10:34 GMT
How are you doing? All set for tomorrow's party? X
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Post by Kirsty on Mar 18, 2017 21:17:53 GMT
Hello, not quite sorted for tomorrow yet but getting up early to finish it all off, have been so busy today and will be a long busy day tomorrow too but I can't wait to celebrate at her party, then we have a family gathering in the evening also a meal on Monday night for her. We let her have a
Present early today which was a cozy coupe car and she loves it I wanted to share a picture with you all (Monica you will see it on fb) it actually made me feel so happy to see her excited and happy when she got in it.
She has also cut 3 more teeth all of a sudden and also Learnt to say ta when she is given something and also statutes feeding herself from a bowl and spoon. She has also starred walking. Just so proud. And it feels so good to feel that way. God I love that kid!!!!
Can't believe I actually feel this way and know I am feeling it this is a good no no GREAT day. Plus got hubby off for like 8 days now. Really looking forward to
Spending time with my family
Xx
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Post by frogface on Mar 18, 2017 21:51:07 GMT
Lovely! So happy for you  |
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Post by Kirsty on Mar 18, 2017 22:28:13 GMT
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Post by Kirsty on Mar 21, 2017 11:49:48 GMT
In a bad place today. I have a meeting with work and it's triggered a really bad day. Crying lots and argues with hubby because he started having a go a me saying he just doesn't know who I am anymore and can't read me x
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Post by frogface on Mar 21, 2017 12:27:52 GMT
Is it possible the birthday had something to do with it too? Sounds like a rotten come down. Go easy on yourself and try not to take these comments to heart - you are still you.
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Post by Kirsty on Mar 21, 2017 13:33:28 GMT
I feel so far away from me it's untrue. Maybe yeah lots of pressure to be ok on her birthday and had lots of people around me all the time. My nan keeps putting me down at every opportunity she has. It's taking it's toll now x
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Post by frogface on Mar 21, 2017 15:08:30 GMT
You'll come back to yourself. Birthdays, work, nutty relatives can be very stressful individually, never mind all at the same time. Keep breathing.
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Post by Kirsty on Mar 21, 2017 17:48:38 GMT
Thank you
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Post by monica on Mar 21, 2017 20:49:15 GMT
Big hugs . What happened at the meeting? Talk if it helps you offload.
Stuff like this can be hugely stressful and really drag you down. Combined with your daughters birthday. I have no doubt it was wonderful but there must have been lots of work and stress also birthdays can be particularly difficult as they bring back memories. Relatives comments ! Try to rationalise - bloody annoying but doesn't really matter.
Have a glass of wine of cake or something yummy ! Talk to hubby - I'm sure it's been stressful few days for him and he's just lashing outx
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Post by Kirsty on Mar 21, 2017 22:19:08 GMT
The meeting was about me returning to work and what that looks like etc I was so anxious about it but my best friend came with me to ensure I was treated fairly.
Yeah it was stressful over the weekend but I did enjoy it I just think it's like a come down again and your right it brought back memories of how happy I was this time last year. One year ago tomorrow pni hit me and destroyed the girl I used to be. Sucks!! She is dead and buried that's for sure. X
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Post by monica on Mar 22, 2017 7:30:56 GMT
She isn't dead and buried - just a bit lost in the PNI maze! Was the outcome of work meeting positive ? X
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Post by Kirsty on Mar 22, 2017 16:59:00 GMT
Yeah it wasn't too bad going back in 4/5 weeks on rehab so will see how I get on. Just so sick of not feeling good enough. I upset liz today at group because I wanted to raise a concern with her about another member of the group but it wasn't my place. Feel like a right twit now. Just feeling like a failure in everything right now. Suggestions for the charity are not the right thing so don't really know why I'm doing it, I want to give back to liz and the charity just don't know how I can make a difference. Thinking of not returning to group either. Just feel like they are sick of me now, so may not go back! X
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Post by monica on Mar 22, 2017 20:06:12 GMT
Blip blip blip! The self doubt, self critism is a symptom not to mention a little bit of paranoia? Talk to Liz for reassurance - I doubt very much whatever you said was not valid . you are valuable member of the charity and have so much to offer. Try not to doubt yourself - it's a blip X
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