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Post by monica on Aug 21, 2015 10:23:36 GMT
Well done ! Sounds like u have a great friend .im sure she'll be kind and supportive and not think any less of you. Do lean on her. If this panicky evening thing is new urs probably meds so hang on in there. Probably another week or two and it'll ease offx
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Post by blipblop on Aug 21, 2015 19:21:53 GMT
I'm really suffering. I'm constantly thinking about it. I'd die before anything happening to my daughter so why can't I brush these thoughts away. I'm so tired but can't sleep. I've not eaten anything today. Sorry to go on, I'm just looking for support and someone to talk to.
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Post by monica on Aug 21, 2015 19:39:55 GMT
You sound shattered! Can ur friend come over? Or talk to you? Try to distract urself - it's not easy but even a little respite will help. Also call the nhs equivalent of nhs direct or samaritans. They can be so supportive and give u good advice. Also look in you tube for a 5 min yoga session or cardio workout. It'll help burn off some of that netbous energy. Try to eat little and often as u need food to keep u going .
You are s great mum - these are thoughts only and u get them as you love ur daughter so much.
If u can't manage see the Dr . I suspect they are worse due to meds. Whilst it is normal to feel worse if it's unmanageable get professional help as maybe others will suit u better ? You will get thru thisx
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Post by blipblop on Aug 21, 2015 19:48:59 GMT
I am so tired I feel an emotions wreck. My friend said she will come at 10 after work tonight but I don't want to have to rely on someone to help me get through this. If she stays I might then find it harder when she leaves. I don't see this ever ending. I look at my daughter and feel so guilty. I don't deserve to be her mum. I have looked on the samaritians website. I'm still so scared to talk about it. Are they likely to have heard it before? X
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Post by monica on Aug 22, 2015 7:01:24 GMT
I promise you this nightmare will end. I'm pretty sure it's the meds kicking in that R making you feel worse. Why don't you make an appt with Dr for this week just for reassurance ?
I felt crap with pni but for about 2-3 weeks after starting meds I felt even worse . Anxiety went through the roof. Dr prescribed me diazepam to calm me down a bit ( it's ok in short term). Then slowly after this initial period I noticed one day I hadn't cried all day then I'd actually laughed and held a normal conversation .
Do you lean on ur friend - this is temporary and you need support ATM . I'm sure Samarotans will have heard it all before. It'll be someone to talk things through and they can help. One of my friends who suffered from anxiety and depression has used them when going through bad spell and said they were brilliant . Hang on in therex
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Post by blipblop on Aug 22, 2015 10:32:41 GMT
I think I am going to ring Dr's on Monday and see of they can get me in. I constantly feel on edge. My anxiety has gone crazy. My friend wants to tell my sister. Obviously she won't say anything without my say so. She thinks my sister will understand as she has been going through a difficult time and knows what it is like to not have control over your mind and the way that you feel. It's just such a hard thing to get your head around. Like it just hit me one day and it has changed my life. I've not really been helping myself these last few days as I've just been sat moping around. I feel myself just going into a dark hole. I don't want to deal with this anymore.
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Post by blipblop on Aug 25, 2015 8:32:16 GMT
I spoke to my Dr yesterday. He gave me some websites to go on. They revolve around cbt. I got my letter yesterday about the counselling. I have to ring them back next week to see when they can get me in for an appointment. I hope it doesn't take to long. My Dr said it's unlikely I'm suffering from pni as that usually happens around the first few months of having a baby. (Should I leave this group then) he said I'm suffering from intrusive thoughts and that the depression and anxiety is making it worse. He said that I could have had these thoughts about anything but I've attached myself to the one that is about my daughter. He advised that i talk to family about it as its a very isolating thing to go through. I still debating whether to or not. Last night and today I have felt the best I have in a long time. I've started watching/listening to youtube bits a night. It's asmr. It's so relaxing.
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Post by monica on Aug 25, 2015 14:30:10 GMT
If course you can stay on here. Whatever the label the symptoms are the same as pni and if we can help you we will.
What sites has ur gp recommended? I'd be interested to know.
Glad ur feeling better. Hopefully meds kicking in positively now x
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Post by blipblop on Aug 25, 2015 15:33:01 GMT
Thank you. This group is fantastic. You all do so well to try and help people feel better and understand things. The sites were moodgym (it's and Australian site) livinglifetothefull and fiveareas. I've only been on moodgym so far. I automatically felt better after speaking to my Dr yesterday, I think sometimes you just need reassurance and someone to talk to. I have a check up at the Dr's a week today to see how im getting on with my meds. Hopefully this is a turning point now. My partner gets back on Friday, he has been away for 11 days (i started my meds the day he went). The worst days I have ever had. I want to be still feeling better when he is back as I'm not sure I want to share all of this with him.
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Post by monica on Aug 29, 2015 19:33:43 GMT
Thanks for that - I will look up those sites. How have you been? How have things been with meds?
So pleased speaking to dr helped you - I too needed lots of reassurance so that's quite normal.
How are things with your partner - I think he should be back now. I hope it's a good bank holiday weekend for you in spite of the mixed weatherx
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Post by blipblop on Aug 31, 2015 19:21:19 GMT
Hi monica. I'm great. Never felt better. I'm doing well with the meds now, I have Dr's tomorrow to see how im getting on. I have councelling on the 23rd of sept. My partner is back and I have told him what has been going on whilst he was away and how im suffering from intrusive thoughts and he was absolute brilliant about it. Couldn't believe I hadn't told him sooner but said he is happy I had a friend to talk to. I'm in a really good place at the minute, not sure whether it's the meds or I'm just not over thinking it. Either way I'm very happy.
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Post by monica on Sept 1, 2015 7:36:38 GMT
That's fantastic news! So pleased for you. You deserve so much to feel happy. It's brilliant you've told your partner. A problem shared is a problem halved and I'm sure not having to pretend makes life easier. Honestly Youve come so far in a short time. Good luck with the counselling - let us know how you get onx
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Post by blipblop on Sept 2, 2015 21:15:48 GMT
Thanks Monica. I had Dr's the other day and she just kept telling me how happy she was with me and how I have managed to turn it all around in a small amount of time. She recommended that I stay on the meds for 6 months as if I come off them sooner I may go downhill again. I'm happy with that. I don't feel any less me for taking them, as long as I'm on the right path. My partner is working away for the week and I can feel myself finding it harder to fall asleep and I am thinking about the thoughts a little more. Don't get me wrong I'm nothing like I was just over a week ago. I think I've just got more time on my hands to sit and think about it all. Well I hope it's that and I'm not having a blip.
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Post by monica on Sept 3, 2015 20:01:14 GMT
You have really come on in leaps and bounds. Don't worry it's normal to wobble a bit when faced with stress like ur partner going away. It sounds as you're managing it well and in time that will gox
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Post by monica on Sept 11, 2015 10:18:07 GMT
How have you been?How was it with your partner going away?x
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