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Post by quantumrose on Sept 14, 2015 10:37:24 GMT
Hi laus 1987, You've been on a huge journey and done so well! As Monica describes, blips can be so demoralising BUT they are just that, blips. You sound aware of your triggers (tiredness for instance) and that goes a long way to hopefully taking the fear out of feeling this way and that it will pass. I too find morning the worst time of the day, especially when sleep has eluded me the night before! Maybe try and factor that in to your routine as much as possible and save the bigger jobs for the afternoon? I haven't tried St Johns Wort myself but I have tried herbalism and found it hugely helpful. It might be worth speaking to a herbalist or going to somewhere like Neals Yard where they can find something specific to you. I found an oat, rose, lemon balm and lavender tincture really helpful for anxiety and tiredness. Mostly because it helped me relax even though I was tired, does that make sense? Good luck, glad you found us xx
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Post by quantumrose on Sept 14, 2015 10:38:06 GMT
Hi laus1987, You've been on a huge journey and done so well! As Monica describes, blips can be so demoralising BUT they are just that, blips. You sound aware of your triggers (tiredness for instance) and that goes a long way to hopefully taking the fear out of feeling this way and that it will pass. I too find morning the worst time of the day, especially when sleep has eluded me the night before! Maybe try and factor that in to your routine as much as possible and save the bigger jobs for the afternoon? I haven't tried St Johns Wort myself but I have tried herbalism and found it hugely helpful. It might be worth speaking to a herbalist or going to somewhere like Neals Yard where they can find something specific to you. I found an oat, rose, lemon balm and lavender tincture really helpful for anxiety and tiredness. Mostly because it helped me relax even though I was tired, does that make sense? Good luck, glad you found us xx
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Post by blipblop on Sept 15, 2015 19:35:04 GMT
Hi Monica. All is going well. I managed ok when he went away. I'm doing fantastic at the minute. When i wake in the morning I have a horrible feeling, just because of what I have been through but I don't dwell on it. I get up and the feeling soon passes. I look back now and think why did I let it get me like that. I let it take over who I really am. I knew nothing would ever come of my thoughts. So I don't understand why I let it affect me like it did. When I was in that moment though it scared the hell out of me and I didn't want to be here anymore. Still have my first councelling session booked for next week. Thanks for checking in and thank you so much for being a huge support to me.
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Post by monica on Sept 15, 2015 19:49:54 GMT
Hi
Brilluant to hear you're doing brilliantly! Like you I look back at pni and almost can't believe it took over me - I think that's commin when ur feeling well but when in that dark place it's hard to visualise life being good and having the strength to fight this.
I'm sure the counselling will be the proverbial icing on the cake for you. Honestly you're doing so well - how you coped with ur partner away shows that x
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Post by quantumrose on Sept 17, 2015 17:35:29 GMT
Hi blipblop, I hope you don't mind me popping up and saying hi! Your journey to recovery has been fantastic, youve done all the right things to aid this and for that you need a massive pat on the back. I hope things continue to improve, you have shown such strength x
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Post by blipblop on Sept 22, 2015 7:38:49 GMT
Hello quantumrose. Thanks for your kind words. I really do feel good. I'm sure im one of the lucky ones, as in it hasn't affected me for a long as other people. I can't imagine still feeling how I did last month. It totally broke me. I never want to go back there. The thoughts still pop into my head everyday but I pay them absolutely no attention and before I know it they are gone again. Whereas before I let them get a hold of me 24 hours a day. My anxiety was ridiculous. I have my first councelling session tomorrow. I will let you both know how it goes.
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Post by blipblop on Sept 24, 2015 14:46:48 GMT
Hello ladies. I had my councelling session yesterday. Didn't really do a lot. She just wanted to get an insight to what's been going on and how it's been making me feel. She said I seemed to know a few bits anyway due to the research I've been doing myself. I have another session in 2 weeks time. I understand that the thoughts will never fully go away. It's like a scar now. It was such a terrible time. I hoping to keep moving forward and enjoying my life and getting back to how I used to be. I couldn't have got to where I am today without you Monica. I really do thank you from the bottom of my heart. The lovely natalie ellis has been In touch with me also yesterday. I feel so lucky to have had the support you have all given me.
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Post by monica on Sept 24, 2015 20:35:20 GMT
Thank you for the lovely comments . So glad we've helped you. You've omitted to praise yourself as your recovery is 99% down to you. It is a terrible illness but hearing about your recovery really does give hope to others.
You say you feel you'll be never completely free of these thoughts ; I beg to differ or at least give you hope they will probably go in time and maybe only reappear in times of stress . You really have come on in leaps and bounds . Keep us informed about the counselling x
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Post by blipblop on Oct 8, 2015 17:58:51 GMT
Hello Monica. I hope your well. I'm really good. Been Dr's today. She gave me a 2 month prescription on my meds. Which made me feel even better as she doesn't feel the need to see me again next month. Got councelling again next week. The sessions are only going to be 20 mins long, not sure what we will do with that little time. It might sound silly but I look forward to these Dr's and therapist appointments as I get to rant on about how well I'm doing. I genuinely didn't think I'd be in this "normal" position again. Xxx
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Post by monica on Oct 10, 2015 8:39:07 GMT
Amazing news Blipblop! You're doing brilliantly which clearly your Dr has recognised. 20 min counselling - that does seem short. Glad u have the opportunity to talk about ur self and your achievements - often as women and especially with pni we forget that we do so much in spite of this illness. How's life in general ? X
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Post by blipblop on Oct 14, 2015 14:26:08 GMT
Hello. Life in general is amazing. I'm still in a really good place. Just been to councelling and within 10 minutes she discharged me. She said I've done a good job on my own and have got myself through it. She said if ever I want to see her again I just have to ring and get an appointment. X
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Post by monica on Oct 14, 2015 21:06:47 GMT
Wow brilliant ! I hope ur confidence is soaring! Keep talking - and give us some tips !
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Post by blipblop on Oct 15, 2015 18:54:36 GMT
Tips are that what you think is not a reflection on who you are. What you think is what you feel. If you think your a bad person your gonna feel terrible. Believe your still the same as you was before its just a hard time your going through. Don't dwell on a thought just ride through it. Most importantly keep using this amazing support network. Your incredible Monica. I'm still gonna continue to use this site and offer advice if and where I can. Xxx
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Post by monica on Oct 18, 2015 22:23:46 GMT
Thank you! You are too! Wise words Blip blop - it's always really uplifting to hear pisitive recovery stories that give sufferers real hope x
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Post by monica on Nov 2, 2015 21:43:03 GMT
Hi just wondering how you've been doingx
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