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Post by Weeble on Oct 6, 2014 21:14:46 GMT
Hi hun yes I am really well now. Better than ever I wouldn't wish pni on anyone but for me the silver lining was once recovered life was richer
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Post by monica on Oct 6, 2014 21:16:34 GMT
You're not doing anyone's head in - were here to support and reassure you as we've own been through are own hell and know how tough it is. Were also here to prove to you that you will recover as we all didx
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Post by Margaret on Oct 6, 2014 21:20:09 GMT
Im so frightened that i wont recover & i am this type of person. I wouldnt either, i envy people i see on the telly, facebook ect ect enjoying there babys with no problems :-( i feel like ive done something wrong all ready, with the kissing and the tounge thing i menchioned in an early post, but it wasent ment sexual and the thoughts happened from that the next day. I could break down right now writing this.
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Post by Margaret on Oct 7, 2014 19:33:07 GMT
Having a complete breakdown. Rotton pictures and thoughts in my head. Living in hell
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Post by monica on Oct 7, 2014 20:22:40 GMT
Deep breaths ! They r thoughts only! You will break the cyclex
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Post by monica on Oct 7, 2014 20:23:30 GMT
You r an amazing kind and loving mum who would never in a million years harm her babyx
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Post by Margaret on Oct 7, 2014 22:04:14 GMT
Thanks monica. Im going to ring my doctor tomorrow & ask for earlier apointment than 3 weeks time. Hope your well xf
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Post by Weeble on Nov 1, 2014 9:50:41 GMT
How did it go?
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Post by Scarlett on Nov 14, 2014 12:05:11 GMT
I have been told i am suffering OCD with intrusive thoughts. I told my doctor everything and because i was at suicide point i was refured to the mental health crisis team. I have been seeing them everyday since and will be given theropy when i am finished with them. I still have the thoughts, now there making me believe i like them and want to do them although all i want is to be a normal mother.
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Post by Scarlett (margaret) on Nov 14, 2014 12:05:54 GMT
I have been told i am suffering OCD with intrusive thoughts. I told my doctor everything and because i was at suicide point i was refured to the mental health crisis team. I have been seeing them everyday since and will be given theropy when i am finished with them. I still have the thoughts, now there making me believe i like them and want to do them although all i want is to be a normal mother.
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Post by monica on Nov 14, 2014 13:51:19 GMT
Hi
I'm so pleased you got help. It can take a while to completely get rid of the thoughts. This is undoubtedly one of the most distressing symptoms of pni. It robs u completely of ur confidence as a mum and u need to build that up again.
The reality is if u wished to harm ur child you wouldn't be going through hell dissecting these thoughts and worrying about them. Is the support ur getting helping? Do try distraction techniques when a thought pops into ur head and keep telling urself ur a wonderful mum because ur.
What sort of therapy will u havex
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Post by Weeble on Nov 16, 2014 14:20:27 GMT
Well done for getting help and believe me they see people like this a lot. Just remember they are punishment thoughts thoughts of your worse nightmares and that's why they bother you so much
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Post by Lyra on Jan 12, 2015 22:00:02 GMT
I also had thoughts that the evil paedophiles in the news were going to get my son , then it developed into me thinking I was going to do that or my partne5r was , it is a horrible part of the illness that makes me feel like a horrible evil human being , just want to forgive myself for being ill and get rid of the thoughts so I never get the thoughts again
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Post by longtermsufferer on Mar 21, 2015 3:38:15 GMT
Hi everyone, firstly I want to say thank you for all your honesty and openness. Having intrusive scary thoughts are horrible and isolating let alone having them on this theme. I have a son who is 2 years and 4 months. When my son was 3 months, he became very unwell and since that time I've been having awful thoughts and physical sensations that many of u describe. This occurs on the background of my father who molested my older sisters and I have at times feared/had an insecurity that I will turn out like him. My journey to recovery hasn't been very successful and feel that therapy has never properly addressed my major concern, my thoughts. Im seeing a psychologist on an ongoing basis but we don't directly tackle the thoughts, mostly talking therapy around peripheral issues such as my ongoing difficulties with family and work. I have been on medication but suffered horrible side effects with one particular type making me suicidal. It was definitely not what I thought maternity leave would be like. Currently I have days which are bearable and others where it's overwhelming. Most of the time I feel like I'm in a frozen state of uncomfortablness even though I try not to let it known how terrible I really feel. An added complication is that I'm currently 25 wks pregnant. My longing to give my son a sibling close in age outweighed my health - silly I know but I have big age gaps in my family and didn't want that for my son.
Could anyone pls give me some advice as to what helped with their recovery. I understand cbt to be a great tool with managing and dealing with thoughts. Any specific cbt tips would be great. A psychiatrist I recently saw recommended going on a small dose of Zoloft but I'm unsure given my past experience in this space. This forum has been incredibly valuable - are there any diarys or posts that I can read about others recovery who are suffering similar to me?
One final question, if the peripheral stuff gets better will that make everything better or do I need to really address the thoughts to be fully better?
Thank you so very much.
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Post by monica on Mar 21, 2015 12:34:47 GMT
Hello
Welcome to our site. I'm so pleased you have found comfort in the fact you're are not alone in your symptoms at all. Having these obsessive thoughts about harming sexually your child are probably the hardest to bear especially if you don't know it is a symptom of pni. Someone described this to me as the protective instinct going into overdrive to the point where you see yourself harming your child. This seemed to make sense to me.
Please don't lose hope - you can recover from this. It can be a rough ride as you have to retrain your thought patterns. Cbt is excellent for this and worth looking into. Re meds there are ones that are deemed low risk in pregnancy . I understand ur fear of you've had a bad experience previously. Perhaps a Dr can help you with this as a different one may not give you the same awful side effects
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