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Post by cheshire on Jun 11, 2006 10:57:55 GMT
Hi Susanne,
Just wanted to call in and and say hixx Thinking of you Hx
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Post by susanneb1984 on Oct 26, 2006 18:51:56 GMT
I don't even know where to start, and I think if I did, I wouldn't know where to end.
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Post by cheshire on Oct 26, 2006 20:42:45 GMT
Hi - lovely to hear from youxx Take your time, we're here of you need to talk. xx
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Post by susanneb1984 on Jan 2, 2007 21:58:04 GMT
I'm confused about the mods thing, H can you email me ASAP
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Post by cheshire on Jan 2, 2007 22:29:27 GMT
I've PMed youx The password is changed periodically for general security reasonsx
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Post by susanneb1984 on Jan 3, 2007 9:00:35 GMT
Ok, I'll wait for Vee to email me, not happy though
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Post by susanneb1984 on Aug 2, 2007 12:05:14 GMT
Wow, 30 odd pages. Well, it's been over 2 years since I joined this site, and wow what a rollercoaster it has been. GJ is nearly 2 years old, and Thea is nearly 5 and I'm still here! Alan and I are back together, and have been since Feb 07. GJ is seeing a psychiatrist, and she's been diagnosed with social anxiety disorder, I'm pretty sure it's because of my PNI. But other than that, she's doing ok, Thea's, well she's Thea and she's so excited about going to school in September, she's starting in reception. GJ is supposed to start school nursery in a year, but we've been advised to delay it or introduce her really slowly so as not to make her too anxious as she suffers panic attacks. So we're looking around for a school that meets her needs, as the school Thea is in, I don't think will. But we've got time to find the right school for her. I still find her difficult to deal with, and we have some days better than others, but at least we're not breaking down like we did. Although it did take 14 months for us to get a diagnosis of PNI, and then they wouldn't take us to a hospital because GJ was too told, but hang on a minute, I was diagnosed with pre natal illness at 30 weeks pregnant, so surely someone should have put 2 and 2 together and got 4? ? Anyway, gonna have to sign off, got things to do while GJ is sleeping.
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Post by susanneb1984 on Aug 3, 2007 7:27:42 GMT
Well it's friday, just got my money to live off, all of £78! Must be careful not to spend it all at once lol Quite how they expect us to live I don't know, £78 per week to feed the 4 of us and pay my share of bills, hmmmm can't see how that's gonna work. Alan's only on £17,000 per year, he's not exactly on a fortune. Drives me mad. Anyway, think I'm gonna take Georgina to the park today. |I'll try to come on later
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Post by sarajay28 on Aug 3, 2007 19:22:36 GMT
Hiya Susanne, How lovely to hear from you, i am glad things are going well with you and Alan. I can't believe that GJ is nearly 2!!! Nathan was 2 on 21st July, doesn't time fly? he's a proper little boy now. Wow Thea starting school, she was a 'little' girl when i last spoke to you! Amazing. So hows things then? its really great to have you back hun. Am away to Blackpool tomorrow for a week so don't be downhearted if i don't reply, i will as soon as i get back. Love to you all. Sarah.xxxx
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Post by cheshire on Aug 3, 2007 19:42:39 GMT
Hi Susanne,
Good to hear from youx
Hopefulx
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Post by monica on Aug 3, 2007 20:56:20 GMT
Hello
Good to hear from you - I'm so pleased things are better for you and that you and Alan are back together. I'm sorry that GJ has an axiety disorder - it must be hard for the whole family. If I remember correctly, she had an accident in the playground - is it linked to that? Is she ok now? What about you? How are you feeling? You'd been through so much....
All the best - looking forward to hearing from you
Love
Monica
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Post by susanneb1984 on Aug 5, 2007 8:16:19 GMT
Thanks for the replies. Thea has made an almost full recovery from her accident. She has some long term damage to her ears, her balance is off. But other than that, and a headache now and then, she's fine. Yes Georgina having social anxiety is hard work, but I've learnt to deal with her, and I'm slowly finding ways to comfort and reassure her. I've had the strangest dream. I was pregnant again, and loving it, I had this neat little bump, I glowed and I felt amazing. When I got to the hospital, I didn't even have time to be checked over before my baby was born, it was a little boy. He weighted 4lb 8 and was the most gorgeous little thing I've ever seen. He took straight to breastfeeding, and he was the best little baby, he never cried. The only problem was, we'd bought all pink stuff, thinking we'd have a little girl, so we had to go shopping! We were out of hospital in 3 hours and it felt amazing. We couldn't find a name for him, but I fell so in love with him. Do you think this is my broodiness or me trying to relive Georgina's birth in the way I wanted it to be?
I'm feeling a little low at the moment, I'm trying to deal with Alan not wanting anymore children, and it's tearing me apart. I love been a mum, and while things wouldn't be easy, we'd manage. I don't feel the girls would lose anything by us having another child. Georgina is the most maternal little thing, and she'd love it. I don't think Thea would be too bothered, but I can't understand why Alan is saying no. We agreed for me to come off the depo injection, that was 6 weeks and 3 days ago, and he's not come near me since. I think a lot of it is because we fell pregnant with Georgina so quickly. I know he's scared of me getting ill again, and so am I, but that's a chance I'm willing to take, we know the signs now, and we could get help. My HV is a lot better than the old one.
Oh well, gonna have to go try to get this dream out of my head. I woke up feeling so warm inside, like my family was finally complete, and as for the sex of the child, I don't mind. A girl would be easier and we've already chosen her name, a boy would be a bit harder, I've never been around a baby boy. And I've never been able to find a boys name I like, during both my girls pregnancies, this was the part the caused arguments!
xxxx
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Post by susanneb1984 on Aug 7, 2007 18:00:43 GMT
Georgina's gone to Grandma's with Thea for a few days, she went at about 4:30 today and I am soooooo bored. I miss my babies. God, I can't win can I? They drive me mad when they are here but then I miss them so much when they are gone! They will be back on friday so I suppose I should just enjoy a bit of time on my own. I've started writing some articles on PNI. I don't know if they are any good, but it's worth a try. I always mention the site, and the support it's given me.
Alan's gone out, and I'm all by myself, I've read all my mags, I've cleaned up, eaten my tea. Now what do I do? No one is on MSN to talk too!
Oh well, off to curl in in boredom!
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Post by cheshire on Aug 7, 2007 18:10:40 GMT
Pmed you x
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Post by susanneb1984 on Aug 8, 2007 8:19:20 GMT
Well both the girls are away and I'm so bored, done my cleaning, answered my emails, but Alan's taking me to the cinema tonight, we're going to see The Simpsons movie. I'm at the docs at 11:10 today, I had a colposcopy in Feb, which showed CIN2 and I need my follow up doing, I've been putting it off to be honest. Having acid rubbed on your cervix and biopsy's done wasn't the most plesant thing, but it needs to be done I suppose. I'll keep you all up to date on the results.
If anyone wants to read my draft article on PNI please email me, or PM me, any advice and thoughts on it would be most appreciated.
xxxx
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