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Post by chica on Sept 10, 2006 14:48:23 GMT
Hi there, I have been meaning to give this a go for ages, I am not sure how regularly I will be on, but I thought I would give myself some time and space for myself, where I can rant rave shout laugh or cry. Anyone who wants to join my thread are more than welcome. Well here goes, day one of my time and space, feels good already . Today is definately the day after the night before ;D, yesterday we had a party for my hubbys birthday (its not till tomorrow) but it was easier for everyone to come yesterday. I have to say even if it is patting myself on the back, I think it all went really well. I worked my butt off in the kitchen preparing everything and best of all, I did not have a panic attack. Even hubby remarked on how calm I was staying, these meds are obviously helping. Usually if I have people coming over I get myself all worked up for the whole week prior, but I actually managed to stay calm. The party went really well, lots of food and drink ;D hic hic!! The only slight trauma was when my mum who is blind in one eye, misjudged where she was going and ended up cutting her head open, blood pumping out everywhere. Never mind, we managed to stop the bleeding and put steri strips on, in fact I think it added to the conversation and was certainly a moment to remember. She is fine today by the way. She is always the life and soul of any party but I must admit that has been her most outlandish party grabbing trick ever. So today has been very quiet, hubby has just got back out of bed, he needed to go and have a lie down, (cant imagine why) possible something to do with all the scotch he had, he blames the food!! Only playing. An added bonus, was for the first time in nearly 6 years, we both managed to get a lay in, still cant quite believe it. My little girl could sleep for England but my little boy is up at the crack of dawn, he came into our bedroom first thing this morning and asked if we were awake? We grunted no not yet, go back to bed and miracle upon miracle he did. So all in all its not been a bad day at all. I am getting myself into a bit of a tizzy though, as tomorrow after a long 3 month summer vacation the children start back at school tomorrow, and I am getting into a panic, because this time it will not be pre school but the real deal... I am getting myself all worked up because I have realised that I will not be able to help them with the majority of their school work because of it all being in a foreign language, so I am now beating myself up over it and feeling very illiterate. Never mind I am sure I am expecting it to be far worse than it is. Lets hope so anyway. Hope you are all well today. Chica
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Post by cheshire on Sept 10, 2006 22:00:16 GMT
Hi Chica I bet you'll be glad of your bed tonight then after such a busy evening last night! I love entertaining- but like you, sometimes dread it for at least a week beforehand?! Hey well done on the lie in by the way My daughter is the same age as your twins and she gets the vibe usually when we really need more Zzzzzz. But it took about 5 years to get to this point!! Anyway, hope you sleep well tonightxx Hopefulx
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Post by chica on Sept 12, 2006 12:56:15 GMT
I am not quite sure what to make of yesterday, it was a day of very mixed emotions, the twins went back to school for the first time in 3 months, believe you me I have been counting down the days, the summer vacation is so long over here, boredom certainly takes its toll. But although I could not wait for them to start back, at the same time I have been absolutely dreading it, as this time it is not pre school, this is the real deal!!! As you may or may not know I live abroad, so my youngsters go to a foreign school, and I have been tearing myself apart about the school work that they will be facing. They will be completely on their own, as I cannot help them in the way that I would if their work was all printed out in English...I feel guilty for not being able to support them the way I have always imagined educating a child. I am sure they will thrive, they have no such fears its just me . Over here as well we have to buy all their school books (its going to cost a fortune) and can I find the books that they need, a big fat NO. I asked the headmistress today where to buy them and even she did not know for sure.....I worried myself sick all morning about how they were getting on, and you have guessed it, all for no reason, they came running up to me with great big smiles on their faces, no problems at all. In the afternoon, I ended up with a house full, yet again. It was hubbys birthday and we had kind of hoped to have a bit of time to ourself with the children back at school, but it just did not happen...Ended up running around all morning doing chores, in the afternoon he had arranged for someone to come and take a look at his motorbike (2nd baby) it isnt running right, 4 hours later and lots of noise, stress and chaos it was still running rough. Hubbys mood is by now deteriorating rapidly, of course its mine and the kids fault, nothing to do with his blooming bike!!! The phone kept ringing and even though through caller display I knew it was his family, he refused to answer it as he had the hump!!! I am now trying to entertain and amuse 2 children one humpy husband, answer the phone, cook the dinner, get the children in the bath and generally have a nervous breakdown. On a positive note, I spoke to my sister in law and she listened to my worries about the little ones and their schooling and she helped allay my fears, as she said, it is probably better if they are on their own as when she helps her children with their homework it is really her input and not theirs, so I am a little bit more relaxed about that side of things. Thats about it for yesterday definately a roller coaster ride and one which I would not want to take again. Will try and get back on later to update what I did today.. How about that day 3 of my diary and already a day behind!!!
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Post by cheshire on Sept 12, 2006 14:36:48 GMT
Chica. you make me smile! Regards going back to school - know exactly what you mean when you say 'I worried myself sick all morning about how they were getting on, and you have guessed it, all for no reason, they came running up to me with great big smiles on their faces, no problems at all'. I thought being the other side of the classroom door would be easier - but no, it's much worse!lolX
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Post by chica on Sept 12, 2006 21:01:24 GMT
Well I seem to have survived another day, I have just managed to confiscate back the computer from hubby, he is hooked on window shopping on ebay!! The kids have just survived day 2 at school, and I have at last managed to track down a book shop where they can possibly order me their school books!!! Hoorah! I am exhausted, it took me all morning walking round the town to find the place, everyone I stopped to ask all seemed to have different ideas as to where this shop was, but eventually I found it and managed to explain my situation, and they will hopefully be able to locate the books and have them here by Friday, heres hoping, you are often promised things in this country without them materialising so I wont truly congratulate myself until I have the said books in my very sweaty palms. Pat on the back time coming up, the lady in the shop said I spoke very good Spanish, (trouble is I was trying to speak German) only kidding.....picked the kiddies up from school and I must admit they were quite well behaved this afternoon, not too much bickering and fighting, I think school wears them out. Mind you saying that, they still played us up for about an hour and a half before they went to sleep tonight, which I have to say is so annoying, how I keep my temper some nights in check I do not know. We have tried everything and nothing seems to work, if we could just seem to crack going to bed time, I am sure life around here would be so much happier. Anyone out there got any tips, please let me know, mum and dad here at the end of the tethers. Thats about all I have time for, my bed is calling me, (not sure what its calling me) but I am ready for it to say the least, so recap on today, not too bad. Lets hope tomorrow just gets better.
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Post by yoyo on Sept 12, 2006 21:05:18 GMT
Well done on today You must look at all you've achieved Well done. Dulce Suenos (is that right?!) Hope tomorrow is a good day You deserve it x
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Post by sianyc on Sept 13, 2006 7:02:37 GMT
sounds like you're dealing with the school thing very well Not sure whether I'll be crying in a corner or dancing all the way home! As it's a year away and she's a bit of a livewire I think it'll be the latter As I type this, it's 8.02 am and the eldest has already been in the naughty corner. I'm getting more and more jealous
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Post by chica on Sept 13, 2006 9:40:24 GMT
What a day so far, its been a blooming nightmare. Last night yet again I was plagued with nightmares, I have never had so many, I am beginning to wonder if its the meds, as it is getting to be virtually every night. So this morning when it was time to get up I was already exhausted. The first thing that greeted me, was my little boy being as demanding as ever, wanting to make and create things as per usual, (wheres the scissors, wheres the sticky tape etc etc), I asked him to just give me a minute and he went into one... I thought good morning mummy!!! Next problem was discovering he had wet the bed, so yet more sheets to sort out, as if I did not have enough washing, then we had the screaming ab dabs because daddy was in the bathroom too long and now my little boy had, had another accident in his pants unfortunately of the brown variety!!! I am by now somewhere on a stress level that you would not believe. Then the morning rush starts for getting ready for school, it is day 3 today and it is taking a while to get back into the swing of things. Anyway that is my day so far, so much for when the kids start back to school I will find some peace and quiet and me time... who knows maybe tomorrow.
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Post by sianyc on Sept 17, 2006 9:08:06 GMT
Hey getting ready for school sounds like a blast Hope there's an improvement soon x
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Post by chica on Sept 24, 2006 14:39:07 GMT
Thank god, I have the internet back again, it has been a nightmare just lately and no where or no one to off load too. I cant even begin to think how to recap it all, so I guess I will just have to start from scratch again. Today for the very first time in a long time, we all went to the Sunday Market, which made a really big change for me, as usually hubby cannot be bothered. He spends all his week out and about, so a treat for him at the weekend is staying in and doing nothing. My little boy bought me a pot plant, with his own money from his money box, it is the first time that has ever happened and I got all emotional and choked up. Mind you he did have a motive, he hoped that if he bought me a plant that I would then take him to the beach.... unfortunately we did not have time so I am not too sure if he regrets buying me it now . The only slight worry I have, is that I am not Mrs Green Fingers, I just hope it does not die on me too soon. Any way enough for now, hubby is loitering, I think he needs to use the computer, we have been without the internet for what seems to be an eternity and have a lot of catching up to do. Hope you are all enjoying your Sunday afternoons, mind you I want to know what ever happened to the lazy Sunday afternoons, I guess that was all BK (not burger king but before kids)
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Post by chica on Sept 25, 2006 12:34:29 GMT
Not had too bad a day today so far at least. I spent some of the morning with you guys, trying to catch up with how everyone is, then I went on the preverbial book hunt again. I got to the book shop and the lady looked very apologetic and I thought oh no whats happened now!! It would seem that I now have half of the books but not all of them.... oh well this is Spain and everything is mañana mañana, or in other words keep your hair on you will get them eventually. It is now over two weeks that the children have been back in school and I am still waiting for their books, mind you I am not the only one, and the headmistress today basically said, dont worry everyone is having trouble this year, so that made me feel a bit better, if she is not worried I guess that I should not be either. My little boy managed to stay dry last night so that was another bonus . Heres hoping it lasts. One sad note is that we have my stepson staying with us at the moment and he announced that he booked his flight back home again last night, he leaves on Thursday. Mind you he is returning to his girlfriend who he is missing like crazy, so I know that is where he really needs to be right now. I will still miss him though. I always feel more complete when he is here, I know we gave him the option to move with us permanently and he chose not to, but I still feel responsible in a way for tearing the family up, even though it was all a joint decision. Anyway enough for now, I had better go and do some more cleaning.
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Post by chica on Sept 29, 2006 20:58:04 GMT
Dont know where to start or how to begin, in fact I am so blown out of the water with everything at the moment that I am not sure that I can go on. Life has to get better than this. Please tell me this is so!!! Right at this moment I feel all the emotions I think that I am capable of and a few more besides, except love, joy, happiness, you know all the good ones. Where did they all go. I feel betrayal, anger, isolation, rejection, hopelessness, you name all the bad ones and I feel them right now. Sorry Guys, cant write any more at the moment. Will try and get myself back together soon and I will be in touch. Just needed to SCREAM
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Post by monica on Sept 29, 2006 21:30:46 GMT
Dear Chica
What's up? has something triggered off these emotions? I'm sorry things are diffiuclt for you and hope they pass soon. here for you...
Monica
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Post by cheshire on Oct 1, 2006 13:37:40 GMT
Hi Chica
How are you? Been thinking of youxxxx Come back soon Hopefulxxxxxx
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Post by Veritee on Oct 1, 2006 13:46:19 GMT
Yes Chica Where are you?
we are thinking of you
VeriteeXX
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