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Post by sianyc on Mar 29, 2007 9:39:44 GMT
Hey chica Glad the little one is getting better - nothing like ill children and demanding mother-in-law's to set you back about 6 months! You should be proud that you ahve managed to cope with everything without spiralling down again. That's a big acheivement
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Post by chica on Mar 31, 2007 8:32:30 GMT
Thank Siany, I sometimes wonder if it is just all in my imagination, and that I just feel sorry for myself all the time, but I have to admit the last few weeks have been really difficult. But thankfully Ma in Law is now heading to the airport as I am writing this, and I am still slobbing around in my dressing gown, oh what joy. It is the simple things in life I can cook pizza for tea tonight and not feel like I am cheating...might even throw in some good old chips!!!! The kids can get dirty in the garden, the floor can go unswept, I might even let the dishes pile up in the sink just for the hell of it. Breathing a big sigh of relief, the only drawback for me right now is that the children are upset that nanny has gone. So now I feel guilty for feeling relieved (hope that makes sense). Anyway enough wittering for now. Hope everyone out there is having a good day today.
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Post by cheshire on Mar 31, 2007 13:18:22 GMT
Hi Chica, Hope you have a relaxing day - let those dishes stack up, ignore mess and dirt and just chill (trying desperately to take my own advice today too, ). My kids are getting egg and chips for tea - not the healthiest of menu options, but hey, it is the hols!! Hxx
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Post by sianyc on Apr 1, 2007 7:15:08 GMT
I'm terrible at ignoring housework. I have to leave the house or I just can't do it. Silly isn't it - it's not at all important
Enjoy your rest from the mother-in-law ;D
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Post by chica on Apr 2, 2007 12:07:04 GMT
I have had a weekend of slobbing around, and it felt wonderful. Yesterday I ended up taking the kids to burger king for lunch and later on we all had chinese for tea!!! ;D So many calories, but it felt so good not having to cook and wash up etc.... will have to remember what it felt like. Kids break up from school tomorrow, so I am trying to prepare myself for that. I have to admit that I am usually dreading their holidays, but not this time, so that is definately improvement ;D My little lad at the moment is playing with the train set next to the computer, he is growing up so quickly, I still feel rotten for missing out on their first six years, but I am not so guilt ridden about it, after all it is about time I realised I cannot or ever will be super woman. ;D
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Post by sare on Apr 2, 2007 13:57:53 GMT
Hi Chica,
I love lazy days and takeaways. I know it's full of rubbish but it tastes sooo good and gives me a few hours off!
I think you have a great attitude towards the time you feel you missed. I don't really remember much of my daughter's first year but I have accepted that I will never be able to change it, the only thing I can do is move on and try and make up for it now
So glad that you can see the light
Sare xx
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Post by chica on Apr 16, 2007 9:24:03 GMT
Well a lot has happened since I last wrote in my diary, not all of it good On Good Friday (not so good for me) I had an accident and have broken two bones in my leg (apparently quite spectacularly) and am now plastered from my ankle to my butt I have undergone surgery, and they have put plates and screws in to try and keep it all in place. I tell you nothing is ever plain sailing with me!!! Why cant I just have had a simple break instead of needing surgery again What I am really worried about, is the fact that I already have severe arthritis, and my right leg was supposedly the stronger of the two, as I broke my left hip some time ago now, but I still have a lot of difficulty with it. So I am now back in a blooming wheelchair, unable to get out and about, cant even get into a car as my leg is plastered right out in front of me!! Anyone got a shoe horn I can borrow? But on a positive note, I have found out that I do have friends and family that are helping, I have often written in my diary about promised help from my family that has never materialised, but now I have to eat my words, my sister and mum have been fantastic and I really would have been lost without them over the last few days (Cant help wondering why a crisis had to come first though)? Also I have two mums offering to help out with the kids school runs, as they go back to school tomorrow. It is very strange and difficult for me to have to accept help, it is usually me who is helping everyone else, but I guess I have a visible pain now that everyone can see!!! Does that make sense? Enough of my rambling. Wishing everyone out there, a day of hope and enlightenment. Love and Hugs Chica
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Post by helenr on Apr 16, 2007 21:38:23 GMT
Oh hun, am so sorry about your accident, just in time for the good weather Try to sit back and let people help you, you deserve it so be kind to yourself
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Post by chica on Apr 17, 2007 8:47:19 GMT
Thanks for that Helen, I am afraid I have no choice, but to just sit back and accept help, but I do find it really difficult. I am sitting here this morning at a loss. The children went off to school this morning, they managed to sort their own clothes out, helped out with their snack bags, and they have PE today and even managed to sort out their gym bags. All of a sudden they have had to grow up so quickly, I feel as guilty as hell, as I am normally the one running around like a demented nitwit doing everything for them. Mind you someone has suggested that it is maybe a good thing, for them to realise that mum cannot run around after them all the time and that they are old enough now to help out. It is just that it would seem that the changes have had to be made overnight and not gradually. Mind you in fairness, maybe I would still be doing everything for them even if they were 22 so who knows, maybe this broken leg has happened for a reason after all. I have lost count of how many times I have dreamt of having some time off, no dashing around on school runs, shopping, washing, cooking etc., etc., etc.,..... Now here I am sitting here like a wet lettuce unable to do anything. My mum always said, be careful of what you pray for as you may just get it, but somehow I think the prayer got a little muddled, I was praying for a nice long holiday on a sunbed and beach somewhere ;D. Oh well enough of my wittering. Sending you all love and hugs Chica
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Post by winegirl on Apr 17, 2007 10:25:42 GMT
Hi Chica
My Mum still runs after me like a dement now, I think most mothers do! And I agree, it probably will do your kids some good to be helping themselves out. My mother never let me clean, wash, iron, cook anything until the day I left home. And now I can't Iron or cook for toffee! I would definately not make that mistake with my little girl.
It may not be the dream holiday you were praying for, but make the most of the rest, as I'm sure it wont be long before you are running round like a nutter again!
Look after yourself
Winegirl x
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Post by sianyc on Apr 18, 2007 8:17:45 GMT
I definately think it's a good idea for the kids to help out. They probably enjoy it too!
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Post by chica on Apr 26, 2007 10:09:28 GMT
Quick update, My plastercast and staples came off and out yesterday. I am still not allowed to walk on my leg at all and must not weight bear (easy for them to say). So I am still sitting around having to watch everyone else get on with their lives. The kids are being brilliant, they are still managing to get their clothes sorted, get dressed, washed etc without my assistance, (how comes they couldn't do that for themselves before I broke my leg)? My mum has been a diamond and comes down every other day to try and catch up with all the washing etc..I feel so blooming useless. It seems strange though, that although I cannot do what I need to do for the family because of a broken leg, people have been so kind and helping out in whatever way they can, but when I was at my lowest mentally and could not do all these things I was still left alone in total despair and it all went unnoticed. Maybe people with PNI should all have plaster casts put on their heads, then we may all get the help we need!!!!! Enough of my rambling. Hope everyone is having a good day today.
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Post by sianyc on Apr 27, 2007 11:51:20 GMT
So true about the help thing! Bit bloody annying really!
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Post by marion on May 1, 2007 20:41:53 GMT
Hi Chica So sorry to hear about your accident. Hope your leg soon heals. Congrats on being made a moderator by the way - we used to chat quite a bit before I was offline for so long so it's great to see you've been doing so well. Lots of love Marion.
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Post by caterina on May 2, 2007 20:16:12 GMT
Hi Chica I like the idea of the plaster casts on our heads! Sorry to read about your accident, take it easy xx
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