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Post by caterina on May 8, 2007 15:56:37 GMT
Hi Clarey Have been looking through your diary and sorry to hear you're having a rough time. Those hallucinations sound scary, you're doing well to cope with them. Feel free to pm if you want a chat Hope you're having a better day today xx
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Post by clarey on May 9, 2007 19:55:28 GMT
Thank you Caterina. They can be really scary although they aren't as frequent as they used to be. My son is poorly with a temperature. He has been ill since yesterday and hasn't slept much for 2 nights. I think it's a tummy upset again. I had my last counselling session today I feel quite down about it. I know I am in a better place generally than I was several months ago but my counsellor has become so important to me. I feel quite tearful about it...I feel like I am going it alone now. It's just me and the meds now and thankfully here.
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Post by caterina on May 9, 2007 20:06:41 GMT
Hi Clarey You're not alone, we are all here for you. I reckon it must be hard stopping your counselling sessions but keep posting here if you want to talk and we will do our best to help you in any way we can. Poor wee mite, feeling poorly, doesn't make it any easier does it? Be good to yourself xx
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Post by sianyc on May 9, 2007 21:09:29 GMT
We're here for you when you need us lovely x
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Post by helenr on May 9, 2007 22:25:31 GMT
Hi Clarey,
we're all here for you, and behind you all the way!
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Post by claire99991 on May 9, 2007 22:31:56 GMT
Hi clarey its you, your meds and ALL YOUR FRIENDS HERE!
Good luck x
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Post by marion on May 10, 2007 9:40:01 GMT
How are you doing Clarey? How's your son. Hope he's a little better and your sleep isnt too disturbed. Thinking of you Love Marion.
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Post by jmontan27 on May 10, 2007 19:16:02 GMT
Hi Clarey, just caught up on your diary and sorry to read you're experiencing the anxiety again. I'm sure this can't be helped by the fact that your son is unwell again and that you have also had your last conselling session. I had counselling several years ago and I remember feeling "what am I supposed to do now?" when it finished. You do become almost reliant on your counsellor and I think this is why they only seem to run a standard amount of sessions, so they don't create a feeling of dependency in their clients. Anyway, it is hard but you do get used to not going every week. I hope you start to feel better soon and that your son gets over his bug.
J xxx
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Post by winegirl on May 10, 2007 20:05:19 GMT
Hi Clarey
Just wanted to reiterate taht we are here for you, so please try not to feel so lost.You are not going it alone, but with us. We will fight with you all the way.
Look after yourself
Winegirl
p.s hope your liitle man is feeling better?
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Post by clarey on May 10, 2007 20:20:24 GMT
Thank you all so much for all your kind words of support...it means so much to me. Funny, I just logged on and was about to start moaning about my day... but when I read all the lovely supportive posts it has cheered me up so much I have forgotten all about my down day I invited another mum around this morning which is quite a big thing for me. For some reason I get very anxious about people coming around to my house. I think it is because I am afraid that if I have a panic attack or my voice starts to go through anxiety I can't just leave. If I am at someone else's house I can make my excuses and go home to the sanctuary of my own space. I did have a wobble when I thought my vision was going weird as I kept seeing green but after a while I realised it was the reflection of the sofa. I could feel the panic rise and the burning feeling in my hands but I breathed slowly..all the time trying to concentrate on what the other mum was saying. Not easy but I did it. My son seems to be better today thank goodness. I keep thinking of things to talk to my counsellor about. After 8 months of counselling it will take a while to get used to not having it I suppose.
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Post by jmontan27 on May 10, 2007 20:39:32 GMT
I totally know where you are coming from about inviting people round. I get really anxious too, but with me it's because I assume (probably wrongly) that they are going to judge me on where I live and my furniture etc. Most of my friends / acquaintencies are quite "well-off" and live in lovely semis or detached houses which look like they have been decorated by the "changing rooms" team. We have a small 2 bedroom terrace with my parents 25 year old threadbare 3-piece suite!
Glad your son is getting better, and well done for having someone round!
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Post by clarey on May 11, 2007 21:04:11 GMT
I took my son to the toddler group today as he seems to be over his illness. I felt ok actually and came away quite pleased with myself. This afternoon I felt horribly tired. The weather was awful so I couldn't really go out and time seemed to drag on so.
My OH has to go away on business on sunday and he wants me and my son to go with him. It's just for a couple of days but I'm not sure I can do it. All the travelling and everything. I haven't been away since being ill and the thought frightens me. I doubt I will go.
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Post by clarey on May 14, 2007 20:17:07 GMT
I didn't go with my OH so stayed at home with my son. I had a nice weekend actually, went to a friends on saturday and spent sunday with my parents. I even drove to the toddler group today which is the first time on my own since last August.
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Post by claire99991 on May 14, 2007 21:03:53 GMT
well done hun there is something to put in the doing things out of comfort zone thread!
Love to you claire xx
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Post by caterina on May 15, 2007 9:54:17 GMT
Hi Clarey Just wanted to congratulate you on the driving and going to toddler group. Glad to hear your wee one is better too xx
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