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Post by Scarlet on Jun 5, 2007 12:40:19 GMT
Sorry you are feeling low after coming back form your hols. Bloody rollercoaster... Hope you have a better day tomorrow when you are back at work hun
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Post by sianyc on Jun 5, 2007 14:21:02 GMT
How are you today honey?
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Post by Jay on Jun 5, 2007 18:36:30 GMT
Managed work ok, but found it a real effort to walk home. I nearly sat on the pavement and gave up!! Didn't of course, but was real glad when I actually got home. Daughter was not the happiest of people when I got home either. I know I shouldn't but I drank 3 glasses of wine while getting the evening meal ready!! Was cross with myself about it too.
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joannem
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Post by joannem on Jun 5, 2007 23:07:37 GMT
Jay never mind the wine, you deserve it! Remember the little things - you said you got the evening meal sorted, well being back at work and still finding the energy to do that when you probably just wanted to curl up in bed is fantastic! The "little" things matter too hun and give yourself credit hun cos you are doing really well xxxx
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Post by Jay on Jun 6, 2007 7:09:56 GMT
Well I slept yesterday evening away, and oh had to almost take me to bed, as I was to tired to wake up enough to go.
Have got up tearful today.
Thanks Jo for you pm, to find that this morning was wonderful. It will keep me going at work today. I have the busy office on my own today!!! I am knackered before I start. I might have to take the car part way, as I don't think I can walk it all today. I should walk it really, I am not happy with the weight I put on while on holiday. I was already big and now I am bigger.
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Post by Jay on Jun 6, 2007 18:02:34 GMT
My day was not so bad. I was so busy, and they all seemed to be awkward and more demanding today. I could not please people, and somehow I did not lose my patience with them. [Don't really know how!!]
Somehow telling someone that they had to wait because I was transfering someone from their car into a wheelchair and they could not stand at all, [which makes things more difficult], did not seem to satisfy them as an acceptable excuse. Everyone needed lots more help today, which I like, but it all takes longer. At one point a had a queue, and the ones waiting were huffing and puffing about being kept waiting. I closed the door to catch myself up for a while [did not do it, but thought about putting a note on the door saying -"P*ssed off, go away!!!" but I managed, so was pleased, my boss was quite impressed how much I did on my own.
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Post by sianyc on Jun 6, 2007 18:57:28 GMT
WELL DONE ;D
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Post by winegirl on Jun 6, 2007 19:35:53 GMT
Hi Jay
Well done mate, you really are doing so well. I find being at work full time so tiring, I could never even think about walking!
Glad your day was ok, and hope tomorrow is as good.
Take Care
Winegirl x
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Post by caterina on Jun 6, 2007 19:51:46 GMT
Well done Jay, you're doing so well xx
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Post by Jay on Jun 8, 2007 15:44:39 GMT
Thanks everyone,
I only work two days a week 9.30-4pm and that's all I can manage, they sometimes get 3 days out of me.
I make myself walk, as my counsellor said I had to excersise. I use to swim a couple of times a week, but she said something rude about my weight last October, and I have not been able to face swimming since. But I have made myself walk to work. I have my ipod to listen to, it takes me about 40 mins to walk it. Going to work last year I use to feel so awful I use to retch and panic all the way there, so could not get on a bus being like that.
I don't panic as often now, and I looked round a shop this week without freaking out. Actually I am not so shakey in general, I've just thought about it. The first day or two on holiday I shook, I could not read as my hands shook too much, but I have just realised they have not been like it since??? [should not say these things, I'll get it back tomorrow now!!]
Jay xx
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Post by joannem on Jun 8, 2007 17:38:35 GMT
Thats fab hun, walking that way and going round the shop! All good things that deserve a big pat on the back! And the shaking stopped too! All looking good Jay! Sending you a big massive hug, cos you are lovely and deserve all good days and this illness far far behind you xxx
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Post by helenr on Jun 9, 2007 20:32:59 GMT
Hi hun,
please be so proud of yourself that you even make it to work, never mind not telling them where to go! love and hugs x.
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Post by Jay on Jun 12, 2007 7:06:50 GMT
I hated myself so much yesterday.
It was a difficult day, then we got some bad news which finished me off a bit.
I am sorry if I said wrong things anywhere.
Thanks for helping, and putting up with me.
Jay xx
ps I've managed to sleep for 2 nights now, without extra, extra knock out pills. I still take my great big dose of sedating anti'ds, but it so nice to sleep.
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Post by Jay on Jun 15, 2007 22:13:26 GMT
Have been a bit low this past week.
I have not helped and supported many people, and I feel a bit bad about that. Especially when people do so much for me. But I don't know what I would have done without all of my friends here, to incourage and help keep me going. You are all great, I can't thank you enough. I hope next week will be better. then I shall perhaps be able to get going again.
Jay xx
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Post by joannem on Jun 15, 2007 22:39:46 GMT
Hey Jay You do help people more than you realise just by being you and the lovely encouragement you give, but dont worry hun we are all here for each other when things are good and when things are not so good. You have had a lot of extra worry recently so dont be hard on yourself hun. One day at a time, remember baby steps when we need to xx Love J xx
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