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Post by southerngirl on Oct 4, 2007 11:27:34 GMT
Well I have found out that going on a roundabout while getting used to these tablets isnt good lol. I home educate my lot and took littlies to library and stopped off in park on the way home. I took youngest on roundabout as he is too little to hold on and only went round a few times before I had to get off. Who needs to get drunk rofl. I didnt feel like going out today but pushed myself to do it and ended up actually enjoying it. Hubby home until Saturday now so going to get him to do the housework Liz x
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Post by southerngirl on Oct 4, 2007 13:36:47 GMT
Should have known it was too good to be true. Hubby and 15 year old have just had a major row and of course I am stuck in the middle as usual. 15 year old is a nasty piece of work who just annoys hubby to get reaction. Hubby has just walked out leaving me to deal with kids running riot. Am now sat in tears wondering why on earth I am bothering as my life is never going to change. Liz x
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Post by Scarlet on Oct 4, 2007 14:22:19 GMT
Liz I promise you things will change hun....Life never stays static, that's for sure. Sorry you are having a hard time with your 15 year old...do you think she's craving attention? Or perhaps she's going through a grumpy teenager stage, I know I wasn't a bag of laughs for my mother when I was a teenager either (although twas many moons ago now *winks*)
Fantastic that you homeschool your lot. I can imagine it's blooming hard work. We have moved around a lot with my hubby's work, and I often though of homeschooling my 10 year old..don't know if I could these days though, what with my baby (and PNI)..but I am managing to go through his homework for 2 hours each evening, which he is benefitting from, helps me as well to get a break from my little one.
Glad you managed to get out an about, even if you don't feel like it. It will become easier hun, and look you actually enjoyed it.
Take care, thinking of you.
Scarlet X
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Post by southerngirl on Oct 5, 2007 8:01:19 GMT
Wishing I hadnt bothered getting up at all. Hubby slept downstairs and came up to youngest on a few occasions when he woke. This makes me feel like he doesnt trust me to look after him. He completely ignored me as if I wasnt even in the room. He told me I had to get up earlier as he needed to go to the shop to get stuff for breakfast, he was told to get it last night but he couldnt be bothered. As far as he is concerned he doesnt see why he should have to put up with the crap from my 15 year old ( she hates him) and that I just have to deal with it. I keep trying to explain that I dont need this at the moment and that he should just ignore her, he actually makes it worse by having a go at her. Yes she is lazy and will just sit on her bed if you dont tell her to move but I am past caring at the moment. Luckily my computer is in my bedroom so at least I can come on here. Why do men only think of themselves. Hubby has said he doesnt care anymore, my feelings dont matter. How can I make him understand I need his support not him turning his back on me all the time. I am actually starting to wonder if I will be better off on my own Liz x
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Post by winegirl on Oct 5, 2007 13:00:32 GMT
Hi Liz
Sorry hubby is being so unsuporive at the mo. Perhaps you can direct him to this site to get some insight into how this illness makes us feel?
Your 15 year old sounds just like me at that age, and prob all 15 yr old girls in the country! She will get over i and your Hubby will just have to grin and bear it in the meantime!
I hope today has picked up for you? Thinking of you x
Winegirl x
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Post by southerngirl on Oct 5, 2007 14:08:08 GMT
Thanks Its just nice to go somewhere where people wont look down their noses at me. I dont trust forums anymore due to being told by someone I considered a friend at one point that I was trying to get attention !! Also feeling quite down as the one person i still have locally who I considered a friend basically ignored me when I said I had started taking anti d's. I called off going to the gym with her as the tablets made me feel really rough and not once has she asked how I am or anything. I dont talk to many people now as my ex caused so much hassle for me that most of my so called friends turned on me. Well hubby is talking to me again as I made the first move as really needed a hug. We have been trying to sort out of the garden as it looks like a tip. Hubby and I are getting a Harris Hawk in a few weeks so it really needs doing. Will have to stay calm around birdy as they pick up on it so may help me a bit. Have been trying to look ahead and plan the future a bit more. Just feel that I have nothing to look forward to so hoping some positive planning will help. One of my main goals is to lose weight and get fit enough to run at least a half marathon. If I did it for charity I know of a very good cause Actually the Great South Run is in a years time again so maybe I should aim for that I have spent too long thinking negative thoughts and am trying to get back to positives again. I will not let this beat me and detroy my marriage Liz x
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Post by winegirl on Oct 5, 2007 14:47:19 GMT
Glad you sound more positive hun x I think doing the run would be fab! I can walk for miles but couldn't run to the end of my street without keeling over!
No one here is going to look down their nose at you. I know how you feel about friends deserting you with this illness, I was quite upfront with my friends about it and they all ditched me. Just shows how shallow some people can be.
Keep the positives up hun!! x
Winegirl x
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Post by southerngirl on Oct 5, 2007 15:28:04 GMT
OK I have my first goal. I am going to do a run next year for a special charity, any ideas on which one lol. I still have a lot of weight to lose but this will give me the goal I needed to do it. I can walk for miles too but running is still a little way from me at the moment. Well at least I have a major goal to aim at. Liz x
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Post by Scarlet on Oct 5, 2007 16:41:29 GMT
Liz, we don't think you are an attention seeker at all. PNI makes you crave reassurance a lot, but it's not seeking attention hun...You won't be judged here, and we most definitely won't look down our noses, because we have walked a mile in your shoes hun..
Glad things are looking up a bit on the hubby front...you need a hug Liz most definitely.
A marathon sounds good, but like Winegirl, I'd be up for a walk, I can walk fast, but running....I'm knackered just thinking about it....phew!!!!
Thinking positive is always good, and YES you are gonna beat this illness, most definitely you are girlie.
Take care hun and have a lovely weekend
Scarlet X
Winegirl, I can't believe that your frineds deserted you, how bloody fickle is that...
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Post by southerngirl on Oct 5, 2007 17:05:09 GMT
I put a bit on the fundraising forum about a walk. Someone had already come up with the idea Would be great if we could co ordinate a few over the country on the same day. Great way to get some media interest Anyway, I am going to the gym tomorrow, if I cant do my full workout I will do cardio which is treadmill bike and x trainer. I use to hate it but feel good and I need to get back to it. I think I am getting used to the tablets now as dont feel quite so dizzy and light headed all day. Liz x
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Post by yoyo on Oct 5, 2007 18:40:18 GMT
You are amazing - just the word run makes me sweat!! LOL If there is enough interst I'm sure we can sort out something as a fundraisier WIll put the feelers out
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Post by winegirl on Oct 5, 2007 19:15:13 GMT
Liz
I am no runner but well up for A PNI walk! You do amazing to keep going to the gym like that. Very inspiring!
Winegirl x
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Post by southerngirl on Oct 5, 2007 20:26:00 GMT
At the moment it is the only me time I get. I do enjoy it though as it does get all those feel good hormones going I must admit that after reading some of your stories I feel like a fraud sometimes as I have got PNI mildly I think. Reading some of them is what has given me the kick to take back control of my life again. I have accepted I am ill and that I am working towards getting better and it has helped an awful lot. I think that if I get my head clear then I can get things done. I know it is going to be a while before I have more good days than bad but it will come. Liz x
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Post by southerngirl on Oct 6, 2007 9:21:47 GMT
Well I got to the gym !!!!!!! It really took it out of me but am going to do things a bit different tomorrow in the hope I can complete my lot. I did a 1-1 plan with an instructor which does a bit of everything so hoping to do everything except the stepper which really kills me. I spoke to my instructor and told her that I want to do the Great South Run next year. She has talked me into the Race for Life in the middle of the year too. As its shorter it will build me up to the longer race quite nicely. I have found I am not eating properly at the moment so may write myself a menu out and try to stick to it as going to gym and not eating will only make me feel worse. Hubby at work this evening so hoping one year old settles as going to try and do some forward planning. I think if I set myself goals to aim at for the next 12 months I will get more done. Liz x
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Post by sunflower2007 on Oct 6, 2007 9:41:34 GMT
Just wanted to say Hi and that I think you are doing a fantastic job. It sounds like there are lots of strong personalities in your household and it can't be easy to keep the peace. Don't worry about friends deserting you once they find out about PNI, I think that generally in the population it is seen as a mental illness and this makes people afraid and act out of ignorance. People who truly love and care for you will stick with you no matter what.
Hope you have a good weekend
Sunflower x
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