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Post by southerngirl on Oct 18, 2007 21:16:06 GMT
Just a quick one as am going to bed . I emailed him last night and we are at least talking things through. Had an OK day, kids pretty well behaved Liz x
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Post by winegirl on Oct 19, 2007 17:30:56 GMT
Glad yesterday was ok for you. How has today been? Have you had any more of a chat today?
Thinking of you x
Winegirl x
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Post by southerngirl on Oct 20, 2007 12:52:30 GMT
Really not sure where things are going anymore. I have so many things whizzing round in my head that I have to deal with that I just feel I am better off on my own. I do love hubby but just feel like I only get support when it suits him. Just cant be bothered anymore with all this fighting. Liz x
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Post by winegirl on Oct 20, 2007 13:47:01 GMT
Hi Liz
I have ofte felt like that hun. But am sure it's just the PNI talking and it will pass x
How has today been for you? have you made it to the gym today yet? Would b good to have some time there to clear your head perhaps?
Winegirl x
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Post by southerngirl on Oct 20, 2007 15:08:35 GMT
Not going to gym until tomorrow. I do think a lot of it is the PNI but am struggling to deal with getting better and everyones problems too. Anyone find the magic wand I am looking for lol, think mine has broken Liz x
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Post by winegirl on Oct 20, 2007 20:06:01 GMT
And hwen they have passed the wand on to you Liz - chuck it my way! LOL
Hope tomorrow is better for you x
Winegirl x
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Post by southerngirl on Oct 24, 2007 11:02:39 GMT
Well, who decided to swop my 15 year old for a new one Last few days she has been great. Not sure why she has suddenly changed but its nice to have my daughter back instead of the monster she has been. Am still really up and down, been quite snappy at hubby too but he is used to it All in all things have been pretty good the last few days. Liz x
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Post by winegirl on Oct 24, 2007 17:00:19 GMT
Glad things have been better for you hun x And great news on your 15yr old snapping out of the stroppy teen thing! Hope things continue like this for you! Been back to the gym recently?
Winegirl x
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Post by southerngirl on Oct 24, 2007 17:03:41 GMT
Went yesterday but havent been today. May get there later if daughter babysits Or I might just sit and watch telly Liz x
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Post by winegirl on Oct 24, 2007 17:10:05 GMT
I'd be in on the telly idea myself! With perhaps just a wee glass of vino... x
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Post by southerngirl on Oct 25, 2007 13:50:33 GMT
Having a really low day. Hubby has just got another job where he will be working during the day and is going to also keep some of his evening hours at his other job. I know he is right that money will come in handy etc but he has just removed my chances of getting my own life back as I will have very little time to do my own thing. I work for myself although I havent actually worked for ages and wanted to try and get things going again but him working will stop that. I also wont be able to go to the gym when I want to so that has been blocked too. To top it all my daughter had a message back from my daughter who lives with my ex saying the reason that there is nothing about the children who live here on her website is because she wants nothing to do with me. This has really hit home how much they hate me for walking away from them. I had to make the choice to save my marriage and family I have now or be alone and continue to have ex controlling my whole life. It wasnt something that was done easily and to be honest I think the PNI was there even then and didnt help me with dealing with everything. Just feel like everytime I start to get back on top I get knocked back down again and really dont feel like fighting back anymore. I know deep down its normal to feel like this but it doenst help when its hurting like hell does it? Cant do anything about anything and feeling out of control again Liz x
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Post by winegirl on Oct 25, 2007 21:21:29 GMT
Hi Liz
Sorry things are knocking you back a bit at the moment hun x
I don't really know what to suggest hun, but wanted you to know that am here for you and listening x
Winegirl x
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Post by Jay on Oct 26, 2007 21:40:46 GMT
Hi Liz I think you are having a bit of a hard time, with both pni and family, I don't know how you manage it all. I have a 15 yr old girl who is up and down with hormones and now having panic attacks, it does make things difficult. I am sorry that your OH's decision about jobs affects your life so much. Keep plodding, [hope you don't mind me writing in your diary?] Hugs Jay xx
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Post by winegirl on Oct 27, 2007 10:58:36 GMT
Hi Liz
How are things going so far this weekend hun?
Thinking of you x
Winegirl x
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Post by southerngirl on Oct 27, 2007 11:51:15 GMT
Well I have sat and had a long think and hubby and I have come to a few decisions. He is going to take the job and do extra hours but I am going to be doing some home study in the near future so I do not get bored at home. I am trying to get myself organised so I have some sort of routine going with the kids as I am so unorganised its unbelievable lol. I hate housework so have set myself a routine of 1 room each day which I will give a good going over and the rest can have a quick go through This means that I can keep on top of things. I am writing lists of things that need doing each day as I am really forgetful at the moment and this gets me down so this will stop that bit Hubby was really great the other night as I fell apart on him on the phone and he really seemed to care. We talked for ages and I think I made him see that I wasnt against him working but against change at the moment. I think that as long as I dont try and be supermum then I will get through it. I have moved puter back downstairs so I can come here and moan when kids are doing my head in or just need cheering up. You lot are brilliant and know exactly how to help, no patronising just being there, thanks Liz x
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