Anita's Diary

[winegirl]

Hi Anita

I am like that too, I wont go out anywhere as dont know anyone. My OH keeps telling me to join an aerobics class or something but i would feel so stupid! As Hopeful says, if it helps, we are always here xx

WG x

[Bobyn]

Anita, I'm so sad for you sweetheart. Staying in and not seeing anyone must be really lonely and won't be helping you at all at the moment. I hope the doctor sorts out the counsellor for you very soon and the health visitor gets in contact as they might be able to suggest places for you to go and meet new people in a similar situation. I always talk far too much when I'm nervous and hate meeting new people but just think, in a year from now I bet you'll have new friends in the area and you'll be settled in . Lots of love, Bobyn xxx

[anita123]

Thanks guys for all the support. I hate feeling lonely but at least I can let me feelings out on line...if i didn't have people giving advice, support and encouragement on this forum i really wouldn't know what i would do. XXX

[anita123]

Feeling a bit anxious this evening my hubby has gone out and I am all alone in the house and feeling real lonely and very sad. Feel like i just want to cry for hours and hours don't know why...I have been ok for the past few day but today i feel like i haven't got a friend in the world and that no-one really cares about me. I just want to be back to how i was, able to go out enjoy more self instead of being stuck at home with no-one around and feeling sad and anxious.....I am really fed up with this state of mind why arn't i getting any better??

[cheshire]

Hi Anita,

So sorry to hear you had a really low evening - how are you today? x

[winegirl]

Hi Anita

I have questioned many times as to why I am not better yet. But I think now I hav come to accept that this could take alot longer than i thought. But every day is a step closer to being well again. We are here for you hun, through the ups and downs x How have things been for you today?

WG x

[Bobyn]

Hey Anita,
We all care LOTS about you. If you need to cry then sometimes it does feel better just to let it all out and have a good sob. If I haven't had a cry for a while it can be the littlest thing that sets me off and afterwards I do feel drained and exhausted but it's a huge release, so don't bottle it all up.
You really will get better but it can take a while and meanwhile it's all little steps towards recovery. I wish I could wave a magic wand for you but instead I'll just send you a big hug and lots of hope for a better week.
Lots of hugs and happy wishes,
Bobyn xxxx

[anita123]

Just miss being me thats all, feel like I am inside myself fighting to get out...Hate being useless...i mean i can't even go out on my own. I know it will take time but it feels like its never going to end. Can't wait to finally be free and be happy again really can't xx

[Scarlet]

Hi Anita,

I know what you mean about it feeling like it's not going to end, but it takes time to take control of your life again hun, and you are doing it right now without knowing it.

Talk to us anytime

Love and hugs

Scarlet
X

[nishka]

Hiya

You will get there - these things do take time. Don't beat yourself up about things, you don't deserve it. You are suffering and are trying to get well. Well done for trying to be positive, you will be free soon.

Lots of love xx

[anita123]

Well today seems to have gone well managed to do loads of housework and only had one anxiety attack today so doing well

Only problem is i am still in loads of pain from falling down the stairs and so it looks as though i have broken my coccx (broken my bum) It really hurts!!

[smiley]

Hey Anita

Just wanted to say that when I was really ill and had a bad day I just used to think I will go to bed tonight and tomorrow will be abit better than today was. And that used to get me thr it.

Glad you had a better day today

Smiley

P.s Hope your bum is ok?!!

[winegirl]

Hi Hun

Sorry about your bum hun! have you seen dr about it? Wondered if there were any strong pain killers they could give you for it? So glad today has been ok for you, I really hope tomorrow is even better for you hun x

Take care

WG x

[Bobyn]

I could have told you that doing housework was dangerous LOL.
Hope you're a bit better today and haven't actually broken anything?
Take care and stay away from housework and chores x

[sianyc]

Oh even bruising that really hurts

What a cracking reason not to do anything though :-)