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Post by cokey on Apr 8, 2008 14:34:34 GMT
Hope you are okay xxx
You know where I am if you want to talk and voice your thoughts.
Cokey xxx
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Post by justme31 on Apr 9, 2008 20:50:43 GMT
hi cokey thanks for ya support. am feelin a lot better tonight then i have been the last few days......dreaded time of the month is comin to an end so maybe thats y ive been so cranky the last few days. obssessive thoughts r still there but i think i am dyin tonight...got ear infection and have convinced myself it is a brain tumour!! i find these thoughts easier to deal with rather then the ones about harmin, going mad, gettin schizophenia etc. am going to c the therapist tomo so hopefully can go through ways of dealin with these bloody thoughts... they just irritatin me. anyways hope everyone is ok
claire xx
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Post by winegirl on Apr 9, 2008 21:11:19 GMT
Hi JM
Best of luck with the therapist tomorrow x Let us know it goes??
Take Care
WG x
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Post by justme31 on Apr 10, 2008 20:08:03 GMT
today has not been a good day..went shops felt so spaced out and not with it i decided to come home. had a row with the other half hes says i am a completely different person since i have had the pni.. this has really upset me and have spent all night cryin cos am so worried that i am never gunna b the same person that i was b4. i thought about endin it all earlier am worried that am going mad and am gunna stay like this 4ever. went to c the therapist even that didnt really help.... i just feel so down.. have never felt this depressed and hopeless b4 in my life.
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Post by cokey on Apr 11, 2008 14:53:55 GMT
u ok?  Cokey xxx |
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Post by justme31 on Apr 11, 2008 16:47:21 GMT
yeah am ok .. still not feelin too clever dunno what going on and hopin things pick up again soon. My ocd seems to have gone into overdrive at the moment and am so depressed.... for a day and a half this has been constant and i dont know what to do.. am having trouble handlin how i feel. hope u r ok cokey. thanks for all ya help over the last few weeks x
claire
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Post by cokey on Apr 11, 2008 17:02:17 GMT
Claire
You are probably having a blip. Do you remember them? They feel so much because you have had some good days. For example today I have few thoughts - lots of anxiety but few thoughts - then now I am tired the OCD is in overdrive also. In the past 10 minutes I have thought 'I am going to pour milk on Evie's head' 'I am going to cut my hair off' 'I am going to get depressed' 'I am going to stab my son with the screwdriver I am holding and 'I am going to run from this house screaming'. Because I have had such a good day I feel really peed off I am suddenly off again. I know what has caused it, its because my husband is late home and my anxiety levels have risen.
Something must have raised your anxiety levels (could be something you aren't aware of but prob what happened yesterday with partner) and so OCD is havinga little party in your mind. Thats making you feel low.
Keep with it, keep talking. You are going to be fine.
I am okay - I feel confident against it today. Let it do its worst.
You know where I am.
Cokey xxx
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Post by winegirl on Apr 11, 2008 20:02:43 GMT
Hi JM
Sorry you have been struggling.x You know we are always here for you?
How has the anxiety been? Have you found it is still worse in the morning and picks up as the day goes on??
You up to much tonight? I always found the evenings were about the only time that the anxiety actually eased off for a while!
Thinking of you xx
WG (())
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Post by justme31 on Apr 12, 2008 9:59:38 GMT
gawd cokey the thoughts r hard aint they? my thoughts for yesterday(This was all in an hour)i am gunna kill someone, am gunna hit my daughter with a bottle, am gunna jump out the car on the dual carriageway, am gunna take loadsa pills( didnt wana just an obssessive thought),am gunna call the cashier in the supermarket a c###, am gunna hurt the dog lol wtf is that about.. many more but have forgot em this morn!! i can laugh today but wasnt findin it to funny yesterday!! WG the anxiety has been awful the last few days.. have had 2 days of it straight with no let up... went shoppin last night and was feelin quite well late last night. Feel a bit better this morn so am hopin that things r gunna pick up.. am going out later and my partner is off all weekend so am hopin that helps. hope u r all doing ok x
claire x
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Post by winegirl on Apr 12, 2008 10:03:11 GMT
Hi Claire
Really hope today is better for you. Hopefully the distractio of having your OH there and being out and about should help. I am determined to take my LO swimming this afternoon - even though it is a major drama for me!
Well done on the shopping yesterday hun, hope it all eases up for you this weekend xx
Take Care
WG xx
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Post by justme31 on Apr 24, 2008 14:03:40 GMT
just updatin my diary cos i havent done it for a while. Have been so ill the last week or so so havent been on here much. I think i can say i am startin to feel better.....wont b sayin that when i get the blips.!! The thoughts r still there mainly in the background and mainly in the mornin which is the worst time for me. Am having hours in the day the last few days where am feelin relatively normal and i dont feel the pni has been dominating my life for the last week or so. I wanted to say to everyone especially ppl suffering with the obssessive thinkin that takin the tablets has helped but seeing the therapist has helped with the thoughts so much...there is hope and we will all get better. anyways am ramblin lol hope u all r ok and thanks for supportin me when things have been real bad for me.
P.s anyone seen scarlett aint seen her on here for a while
xx
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Post by Scarlet on Apr 24, 2008 14:29:34 GMT
I'm here hun, my sis is here with me and I went to Paris for 3/4 days. I'll be around more next week.
You will get better no doubt about that. Did you have a look at the EFT vid I posted in the alternative section JM? It may help you distract yourself from those obsessive thoughts.
Hugs
xxxx
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Post by Scarlet on Apr 28, 2008 7:14:09 GMT
JM hun,
How you feeling? Hope alls well and you are having more good moments, do let us know whan you get chance.
Hugs
xxxxx
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Post by justme31 on Apr 28, 2008 8:35:56 GMT
Hi Scarlett i was wonderin where u disappeared too!! Hope u had a good time in Paris and enjoyed ya sisters visit. I am so so at the moment...dreaded period comin up so am having a bit of a hard time but am managin to deal with it and try and keep myself occupied. Am deffo no where near as bad as i was...was on here the other day and was readin a few of my threads and thinkin gawd am still strugglin but no where near as bad as i was then. Am still takin the antids.. think these have helped a lot along with therapy..have managed to stay away from the tranquilisers for nearly a month and a half now so something must b going right lol. Hope everyone is ok
Claire
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Post by cokey on Apr 28, 2008 12:20:16 GMT
You sound so positive jm - you are on that lovely road to recovery.
Cokey xx
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