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Post by littlelotty on Mar 26, 2008 15:46:06 GMT
WG
Have you tired the local college as normally they offer it down here for £10 although I am sure all colleges differ but could be worth a treat every now and then for that money!
Hope you toddler has calmed down - mine is doing that all the time at the moment as well - it is very hard to be so strong but she is certainly learning what the naughty step is for!
Take care
LittleLotty xx
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Post by winegirl on Mar 26, 2008 16:04:14 GMT
Oooh I didnt know that! I was paying £35 per hour!! Will def get in touch with the local colleges. Thanks x
WG x
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Post by littlelotty on Mar 27, 2008 9:12:55 GMT
Well had a good day yesterday seemed to be a bit more upbeat! I managed to do a bit around the house and un pack the things I brought back from my house. I ironed and cleaned up. I went to get my LO from in laws and she was very tired and a little pickle!
When she came home she was a nightmare mainly because she was so tired and therefore played up at everything and pushed me to my limits, but I am pleased to say that I managed her well and just ignored her and starting running her bath. Hubby then came home and helped me out with her. Once she was in bed we had dinner and I watched a bit of tele.
I was tired and could of fallen asleep but had squash again with my friend. I must be mad I thought to myself going out to play squash at 9pm! It was great though and I would not of gone if I was on my own going to the gym or something cause I was tired but as soon as I got going I seem to have this burst of energy and I was running all over the place. My friend who is super fit - she trains every day unlike myself !!! I am so pleased but we drew - two sets each and one of her sets was so close she won 9-8 so I was really pleased how I played and it gave me a burst of energy.
I came vack and showered and then fell asleep!!! Got woken up by the cat at 4.30am and then the alarm went off at 5.30am as we started to phone for tickets for wembley semi final tickets. It took an hour to get through and when we did they said I couldn't get them as I am not on their database and I was soooooo annoyed but had to accept that at least my OH has a ticket and is able to go otherwise he would have been crying this morning!!!
Anyway have dropped off my LO at nursery - she was in a good mood this morning for some strange reason and have put washing on and cooked a beef casserole which I am pleased I have done already by 9am! I have my reflexology today which I am really looking forward to and probably go to sleep later as I am so tired!
Also have come on today so think the last few days must of been PMT and will note this as I will get some evening primose next time!
Hope everyone is ok and have a good day.
LittleLotty xx
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Post by littlelotty on Mar 29, 2008 12:14:07 GMT
Not been on and written on my diary yesterday as I have been unwell with bad runs!!! It has been so painful and I am still in pain now. I sent my hubby out to get medicine this morning and just hope that works. I am worried as he is going to watch football this afternoon and I have my LO on my own and worried I might have to keep running to the toilet every 5 mins. I can always phone for help if I can't cope I guess.
Yesterday my hubby took the day off as I was unwell and looked after my LO with me. I felt better in the day and thought it had gone and felt a fraud for asking him to have the day off work. I spent all the day at home and my OH took our LO out for walks and to the shop. I cleaned up a bit as it looked a mess and I was stressing about it. My boss phoned as well to ask how I am and I said I feel better. Again I felt like they might think I am faking this and she should be back at work, she talked a bit about work and I had made a mistake on something and she asked me about it. I then worried all day about that and wished she hadn't said anything at all but guess she needed to know. I felt like I can't do anything right and haven't even told my hubby about it yet just kept it to myself.
After dinner I had the runs and all night I kept having to run to the toilet. I was in so much pain and thought my OH was going to have to take me to hopsital or call the doctor as I thought I was dying. I slept fairly well although there was a really loud bang at 3.30am that woke us all up and I think it was kids outside with bins!! Where are their parents!!!
As soon as I woke up this morning I had to run to the toilet and was on and off it for over an hour in so much pain. I came downstairs and fell asleep on the sofa. Thank god my hubby was here as he took my LO out to the shop to get me medicine and paper. He has been so great this morning and yesterday and I have made sure I have told him that rather than just taking it for granted. That is something I have learnt!
Well will probably spend another day at home as I can't bear to go out unless I have a toilet near!! Been like this since thursday!
Anyway had better go!! Hope to be back on when I feel better!
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Post by winegirl on Mar 29, 2008 12:21:13 GMT
Hi LittleLotty
Sorry you have been so poorly hun. As it happens I have woken up with a dicky tummy this morning and feel a bit nauseas on and off, guess there must be yet more bugs going round!
I hope you manage ok with LO this afternoon and feel better really soon!!!
Take Care
WG x
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Post by littlelotty on Mar 31, 2008 8:25:44 GMT
Had a bad couple of days and cannot get out of this black cloud. As you will see in another thread that I was really suicidal on sat night and really thought I was going to do something. I did manage to talk to my OH about it though which is a first for me and he was really worried that I was going to do something.
Yesterday we managed to go over to my house and pack up some more things. My OH said he is finding it too hard to go over there now as it reminds him of the past. I said that I would go over during the week when he is at work as it is nearly all cleared anyway. We then went to buy some more shoes for our LO and she has gone up one whole size!! Had lunch and then went to my OH's nan who is so sweet and dotes on our LO so much. Came back home and unpacked the car and our LO went to sleep for a while. Made her tea and played for a while - she could not get used to the hour forward! We bathed her and put her to bed. I made dinner although I started eating it and was in so much pain again with my tummy that I couldn't eat it. So strange as I have gone 24 hours of feeling better. My older sister phoned and we have arranged for me to have her daughter in a couple of weeks to go out for the day. She dosent want to stay yet and wants to see that we are all ok. She didn't ask how I was and none of my family do anymore which I find really hard as if it was the other way around I would ask them but guess they are different to me.
I am still feeling low and struggling to get out of the house again, just want to be at home all the time as I feel safe here.
Had a really bad nightmare last night as well about being sexually abused and I have woken up so tired and feel like I haven't slept at all.
Will post a bit later.
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Post by Scarlet on Mar 31, 2008 9:49:52 GMT
Hi Littlelotty, Sorry I didn't get chance to respond you you yesterday in your other thread, and that you've had a few crappy days. I'm glad you discussed it with your hubby, and that he is supportive. Sounds like you are going through ups and downs stages. Did you ever get chance to read Veritees thread on ups and downs and PNI recovery pattern. At times when I was having a blip, I used to read this thread and remind myself that I would recover eventually. PNI pattern veritee.proboards7.com/index.cgi?board=General&action=display&n=1&thread=4171Ups and Downs veritee.proboards7.com/index.cgi?board=General&action=display&n=1&thread=4163I think perhaps you had a lot of recent stress, have you moved house? this has perhaps triggered a bad blip and this takes time to recover from hun, but you will recover, we all get there in the end. Sadly recovery isn't smooth and stresses along the way throw us back a wee it temporarily, but we do get on track again, and you will too. Keep on talking to us, you are not alone. xxxxxx
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Post by littlelotty on Mar 31, 2008 11:19:15 GMT
Hi Scarlet
Thanks so much - I have just looked at both of them and they are so true and have really helped me to see a light at the end of the tunnel and that hopefully this is a blip due to stress and period. I need to keep remembering this. I have also sent both of the threads to my hubby as he is struggling with this too! (hopefully this will help him)
It does feel like I am going mad and losing the plot or psychotic etc and I can never get better - it is such a strange feeling and everyone I talk to does not seem to understand when I try to talk to them - accept on this forum which is why it is so helpful.
I have managed to sleep for a bit this morning which is good as I was so tired. Haven't done anything else except put dinner in the slow cooker - sausage casserole and put some washing on. I need to go out to the shop in a minute to post a parcel and send some cards so that might be good for me! Just feel so drained with energy!
Thanks again for all your support - it is helping me so much,
LittleLotty xx
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Post by larsbars on Mar 31, 2008 21:34:58 GMT
Hi LL,
I've just read your posts from today and I'm glad you are feeling a bit better than you were the other night. How far are you into your period. I have been feeling down again over the last couple of days. It's not as intense as the last few blips I have had but nevertheless it is there. I have been out and about today but really I have wanted to stay curled up in my bed. I still feel crap but at least I can look at today and say that I achieved something and that I didn't let it get the better of me.. I sometimes think that getting out and about (even if it's just to the local shop) just keeps you in touch with the rest of the world. Somethime3s when I feel bad if I stay in and ruminate I think I sink a bit deeper into myself. I hope you have a better day tomorrow. xx
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Post by littlelotty on Apr 1, 2008 7:14:29 GMT
Hi Larabars
I am hopefully finishing in the next couple of days - I never know with my periods as they last so long! But I am starting to feel a bit better which is good although still in a bad mood - I shouted at my OH this morning and I had hardly been out of bed!
I hope you start feeling better soon - are you due on or are things stressing you out - that is what I am starting to notice - that is what is causing my blips.
I hope you have a good day today.
LittleLotty xx
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Post by littlelotty on Apr 1, 2008 12:50:35 GMT
Well I had a pretty good day yesterday although seem so tired still - when will this tiredness go? I managed to go out to the shops at lunch time and post the parcel and letters and buy bread etc. I then cleaned up a bit and went on the computer for a bit. I had to go over to the house as someone was coming to collect the mircowave that I have sold and that was ok. I managed to pack more things and load another car load up. Unloaded it back at hubbys house and then went to pick my LO up from nursery. She had her hair up and she looked so cute - I will have to start doing that. She was well behaved last night and has got so much better since me and my OH have been back together again - it is amazing how much they pick up and how they are affected by this. I managed to bath her and gave her milk and put her to bed. My hubby went to play football so I was pleased that I managed to do this on my own. Had dinner when he came back and watched tele whilst my hubby was on the computer. I went to bed after I fell asleep on the sofa. We all overslept this morning so it eneded up being a rush which put me in a right state. I had to get my LO ready for nursery and give her breakfast as well as sort hubby's lunchbox etc out. I had to take him to work as he missed his lift and we ended up having an agurment in the car whilst on the way to nursery. I should of waited until my LO was out of the car as she would of picked that up. The arguement carried on until I dropped my OH at work. We managed to calm down by the time I dropped him off as it was a good 30 min drive. I know I upset him and I said that it felt like things are getting back to how they were before I left which really upset him. I know I should not of said that and it all came out wrong but we managed to talk through it and agree on what we both wanted. We said that we would talk more about it at relate tonight. I came back and had breakfast and then had to go back over to the house as I had someone coming to collect the fridge freezer and storage unit that I sold so managed to pack another car load of things. When will it end!!! So have managed to unload the car at hubby's house and have sat down and I am tired and the house looks a mess and I have no energy so might take a rest and then start again. Hope everyone is having a good day. LittleLotty xx
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Post by winegirl on Apr 1, 2008 17:18:27 GMT
Hi LittleLotty
I find the mornings are the hardest times to deal with anyway, so when we are all running late i am just a blobby mess. I get really angry and get all my fuzzy head back and am generally just a mess. So you are not alone mate.
How did the rest of your day go today?
WG x
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Post by katiev on Apr 1, 2008 18:54:02 GMT
Hi Littel lotty Sos orry I havent been able to keep up with your diary for a while- Im so sorry youve been going through such a bad patch. Youve got so much going on a the moment its no surprise. Has your diarrhoea gone now? Its the worst illness to come down with when youre trying to look after kids and its really draining isnt it? Well done for gettting out of the house and riding out the bad blips- Im so bad for just staying in and hiding and then me and my LO drive each other mad and I just feel so out of control adn desperate and lonely. Im in the middle of settling the little madam so I have to go, will hopefully write again soon. I really hope youve had a good day thinking of you katiev x
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Post by larsbars on Apr 1, 2008 21:33:36 GMT
Hi Little Lottie,
I'm glad you are feeling a bit better and it sounds like you have had a productive day. Glad your period is going to end soon. I was alright before mine this month which isn't usual for me but byt the end this is when this blip has started. I do find that I feel low at the end. Probably linked to blood loos and being low in iron but I've also had a head ful of cold so that's just added to it. If your's are lasting a long while and you are losing a lot of blood then maybe that doesn't help you.
Sorry that you and your OH had an argument today. Just before we had kids I split up with my boyfriend. I read your first post on here the other night and remembered reading it when I first joined this site. It rung quite true with me but then I seemed to lose your thred and wondered how you had got on. Little did I know that when I started talking to you the other day that it was you I was originally reading about! I will speak to you a bit more about what happened with me if you want. It's goof that you and OH are having counselling and I hope your session goes well tonight.
I'll speak to you again tomorrow.
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Post by larsbars on Apr 1, 2008 21:35:04 GMT
Just read my post back and made a few mistakes so sorry!!!!
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