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Post by tabbysmum on Apr 17, 2008 15:33:09 GMT
Hi all,
agree about the physical pain, I had a severe allergic reaction to some new prescription drugs I was put on for my Rheumatoid Arthritis. I had really painful lumps all over my head and neck, fever and chills, could barely stand - and then to top it all, I had a full body rash, was purple from head to foot (very attractive ;D)- the itching was intolerable, and this lasted for several weeks. I didn't have one moment of anxiety or depression, no scary thoughts, nothing at all, and that lasted for a good while after I recovered too. It's the same old story, replacing the PNI passion with something else I suppose.
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Post by cokey on Apr 17, 2008 16:18:46 GMT
Gosh that is nasty. I had a really mild allergy to some hair dye (I am not allergic to hair dye since just bad batch I think) and that was just a mild rash but when I got it I was told about severe reactions like yours and I didn't realise it can make you so ill. Your poor thing - my counsellor said anxiety builds with one worry on top of another until its out of control. I guess being so ill was one layer of worry even though you coped at the time. With me my husband went through something very traumatic which turned out okay but it was once it was over I started to feel really ill.
Cokey xx
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Post by cokey on Apr 19, 2008 10:57:31 GMT
Well still doing okay. Feeling very proud of myself. I am just working every second of every day beating this. I won't let the thoughts mean anything and my anxiety can't hurt me so I let it be there.
I went into town with my mum yesterday and was fine. I drove my kids to see their dad at work today and was okay.
Yesterday I saw an ad for a tv programme (don't read on if you are easily triggered) about a girl who hears voices telling her to kill herself and her psychologist. It freaked me out for a while but I managed not to dwell on it.
Positive thinking is working well for me. I am hoping I can keep it up when I get PMT.
Think the evening primrose/vitamin b tablets are working too.
Cokey xxx
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Post by tabbysmum on Apr 19, 2008 12:04:26 GMT
Hi Cokey,
You are doing so well, it's only been a couple of weeks since you were really struggling and you've come so far since, keep it up girl!
TM xxx
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Post by winegirl on Apr 19, 2008 12:11:41 GMT
Hi Cokey
Wow check out that attitude! Go girl!
Sounds like you really know what to do to kick this thing up the rear end, great that you are fighting it all the way xx
WG x
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Post by cokey on Apr 19, 2008 14:24:28 GMT
I think its easier second time around and I have to say a lot of credit for my attitude is down to Scarlet, she helped me such a lot when I was bad and gave me some useful stuff to read that has steered me onto the right path. Plus I am taking womens health tablets that include evening primrose oil and vitamin b6 etc I think that stabilises the hormones a bit.
Having said all that, as much as I am not giving in for one second, I am realistic about the suddeness that anyone can change. Its all part of it, but this diary will put me back on track again.
Come on girls, we can kick this thing up the butt.
Thoughts are not actions and the worst they can do is plunge us into a deep anxiety state which cannot hurt us.
Keep this in mind at all times.
Cokey xxx
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Post by winegirl on Apr 19, 2008 15:05:07 GMT
Thats great Cokey - so lovely to hear you so positive about it all. You could be my life coach!!
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Post by sianyc on Apr 19, 2008 15:46:33 GMT
Well done Cokey - you're fighting this which is the only way I found to make it go away x
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Post by cokey on Apr 20, 2008 20:26:44 GMT
Well today has been weird. I realised today that despite my hard work and positivity, I am still very fragile and little things can easily knock me off my perch if I let them. Today the weather stinks and it has been raining with grey skies all day.
I wanted to go to the seaside with the kids just because I find the sea relaxing but my husband was ina foul mood. I was cross with him because I am working so hard at being positive and then his bad mood knocked me back down. Tonight I don't have the thoughts particularly but I feel a bot tearful and down. I guess thats the cycle - anxiety, thoughts, depression and this is the last leg.
The weather is due to pick up tomorrow so that will be a fresh start and I won't give in to PNI, ever!
My wish for the day is that I get through each day without analysing how I have felt.
My little boy is back at pre-school on Tuesday and I am so sad. I have loved having him home and will miss him a lot. He starts school in September and I pray I am 100% my old self by then, otherwise I will be a wreck because he's my baby still too.
Sleep well ladies, here's to a sunnier brighter day tomorrow and no grumpy husbands lol
Cokey xx
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Post by tabbysmum on Apr 20, 2008 21:45:37 GMT
Hi Hun, You're doing so well, stay positive, you're a real inspiration to me  You'll be fine when your little boy goes back to nursery, I know you'll miss him desperately and he has been a big help in keep you busy, it will be hard to start with, but you'll face it and realise you can do it. You know where I am if you need anything. Take care TM x |
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Post by justme31 on Apr 21, 2008 7:51:18 GMT
no grumpy hubbies lol dont think that will ever happen they all seem like it!! hey cokey hope u doing ok hun sorry i havent been around and have been no support to u the last week or so. Am glad the positive thinkin is workin for u am tryin that too...its hard though innit. i dunno about u but u sayin about your boy going back at pre school.... mine are also back at school this week..ive figured that that makes me worse in regards to the thoughts etc... maybe its the distraction. i feel a bit lost when they aint here!
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Post by cokey on Apr 21, 2008 11:06:59 GMT
I think we all just love our kids too much, thats why we get PNI.
I am going to walk Michael to and from nursery, so the exercise will be good. Shake off some nasty lurking anxiety lol kick it up the a**e
Good to hear from you both. Keep up the fight, never surrender.
Cokey xxx
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Post by winegirl on Apr 21, 2008 19:06:47 GMT
GO COKEY!!
My god you can spend a week with me miss motivational!
How did your day go babes?
WG x
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Post by cokey on Apr 22, 2008 9:34:17 GMT
Hi WG
Didn't manage to walk my son to nursery - I chickened out but I am going to walk and pick him up in an hour with Evie. Its a first step. It will be the first time I have walked anywhere - so watch this space.
Still kicking butt lol
How are you WG???
Cokey xxx
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Post by winegirl on Apr 22, 2008 9:52:41 GMT
Hi Cokey
Go for it girly. You will prob find the walk a little tough if it is first time but will def feel better for it later.
I am not bad - at work so shouldnt really be on here, but thought i would check in on you guys xxx
WG xx
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You'll be fine when your little boy goes back to nursery, I know you'll miss him desperately and he has been a big help in keep you busy, it will be hard to start with, but you'll face it and realise you can do it. You know where I am if you need anything.