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Post by winegirl on May 2, 2008 13:01:07 GMT
Hi TM
Sorry you had such a tough one last night. I really hope today is better for you babes x You have done so brilliantly to calm down your reactions to the thoughts and should be really proud of yourself!
Hoping today is better for you xx
WG x
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Post by cokey on May 2, 2008 13:30:09 GMT
How you doing TM?
The thing is your 'imp' is throwing everything at you and its not getting to you as much, so its throwing more. Soon it will get bored because you aren't reacting like you would have done before.
Cokey xxx
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Post by winegirl on May 5, 2008 10:28:01 GMT
HI TM
How are things going for you? How is your Bank Holiday? Havent heard from you for a couple of days and was wondering how you were..
You know where I am hun xx
WG x
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Post by tabbysmum on May 5, 2008 13:03:35 GMT
Hi WG,
I'm doing ok, mostly up with the odd down, can't get near the computer as my oh is hogging it, will bring my diary up to date later or tomorrow. How are things with you?
TM xx
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Post by winegirl on May 5, 2008 18:58:18 GMT
Hi TM
All is good here, been lovely weather here in Notts to our mile for pni went well!
Glad you are having more ups than downs hun! You really do deserve it babes - I hope it just gets better and better for you know. x Thinking of you x
WG
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Post by tabbysmum on May 6, 2008 7:49:09 GMT
Well rather strangely and unaccountably I think I'm starting to feel better. The thoughts are still bombarding me, old ones and new, some are really horrible and frightening but I'm not getting that old familiar stomach churning reaction I was getting (apart from once over a pair of scissors), and in turn I'm not becoming a hysterical, sobbing wreck. Generally speaking I'm much calmer and I'm handling the thoughts better. I'm still quite twitchy and have to keep some things out of my sight but just don't feel the panic and fear that I did. I'm still questioning whether everybody is wrong (including my counsellor) with regard to me suffering from OCD and not a mental illness and I'm still analysing everything - including why I'm feeling better, but hopefully that will pass. My husband is on his late shift again this week and wont be home until 10:30 this evening so this will be a big test for me as the last time (3 weeks ago) I ended up in a bit of a state, fortunately I'm also starting my new job today and have the next 2 days shut in a room with my new manager who has told me there will be so much information to take in my ears will be bleeding so I'm hoping that will be a massive distraction for me. It's strange to think that only 8 or 9 days ago I was a blubbering mess who was frightened witless and felt she was a danger to her child. I'm not saying things have turned around completely - I know I'm a long way off that yet but at the minute there's such a shift in how I'm feeling I can't quite believe the change and keep waiting for the old me to come back, I'm praying that my last big blip was just that - my last!
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Post by cokey on May 6, 2008 12:24:35 GMT
Hi L
So glad you are doing well. Thought you might, I think the worst of it is over for you. Just keep remembering it alls anxiety driven and anxiety can't hurt you.
Text me tonight if you need the distraction and also to let me know how today has gone.
C xxx
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Post by winegirl on May 6, 2008 19:41:45 GMT
Hi Lydia
Just checking in to see how you are doing tonight with hubby being out late?
You are doing so well to control the thoughts hun. When I first started recovering I too would find that I would be constantly (and I mean constantly) analysing if I was feeling better, was I imagining it? how much better? etc etc... It does get better as recovery continues.
Will be around on and off all night if you need to chat xxx
WG x
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Post by tabbysmum on May 6, 2008 20:09:21 GMT
Hi WG,
Doing ok, so busy cos I've started my new job today, have been in a meeting all day and now having to try and catch up with my emails etc, also the house is like a tip and I've still got my washing to do - aargghh, so plenty to keep me occupied at the minute!
Hope things are ok with you
Love TM x
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Post by winegirl on May 6, 2008 20:16:29 GMT
Thats great TM!
Things ok here, just need to go and get Hubby some attention...
Will be back later though x
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Post by tabbysmum on May 7, 2008 7:15:42 GMT
Well last night was ok, was very busy, trying to catch up with work and housework etc, was completely fine until about 10 o'clock when I went to make the sandwiches for work and had to use a knife - I needn't elaborate, but I coped. I think I'm being a bit unrealistic in thinking that because I've spent a few hours without the thoughts bothering me then they wont ever bother me again and that I've recovered, but as we all know when you start feeling better it's hard then to accept things aren't as good as you first thought. Was quite tense by the time I went to bed as I'd managed to introduce new thoughts again but although I was quite agitated and restless I didn't have a fit of hysteria which I normally would have over new thoughts so seeing it all as a positive. With my new boss again today so expect will be very distracted again - will see what tonight brings!
Hope all you ladies have a fab day and enjoy the sunshine.
TM x
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Post by Scarlet on May 7, 2008 7:16:40 GMT
Great news about the new job hun. I'm sure it will help keep your mind occupied.
How are you feeling today?
xxx
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Post by winegirl on May 7, 2008 7:39:01 GMT
Hi TM
Hope the meting with the new boss goes well. You should give yourself loads of credit for how well you are coping with the thoughts hun, and keeping yourself distracted seems to be realy doing the trick.
Hope you manage to see some of this sunshine in between working too!!
WG x
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Post by winegirl on May 10, 2008 19:17:14 GMT
Hi TM
How are you doing hun? Hope all is well and the meeting with your boss went ok??
Thinking of you.
WG x
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Post by cokey on May 10, 2008 19:47:04 GMT
Hi L
Hope you had a good day today. How hot eh?
I think with the OCD side of this illness, as soon as you get rid of one thought pattern, a new one comes along no matter how well you feel and how good things have been. I remember last time my thoughts altered so much and just one day I realised they had gone. I suppose if they are linked to anxiety, the anxiety takes a while to shift completely.
Cokey xx
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