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Post by winegirl on Jun 11, 2008 21:16:16 GMT
But life does go on, and you WILL get your son back. If you get back on track opportunities will come to you and all the doors are open hun.
I am so sorry you are sat home alone crying, I would be there to hold your hand if you werent a 2 hour drive away! Do you feel you could go to bed yet. Perhaps put some chilling music on and get yourself off to sleep.
This will get better, we will help you do it. Be proud of yourself for getting through today without self harmin and being so aware of yourself. And look to everything you could have ahead of you.
Perhaps things will never get back with your husband, but that doesnt mean you both cant be happy seperately again.
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Post by winegirl on Jun 11, 2008 21:21:41 GMT
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Post by michelle79 on Jun 11, 2008 21:23:01 GMT
ive just taken my meds so give half hour or so before they take effect then i can go to bed and then i can congratulate myself on staying safe tonight. Also thansk to oyu for helping keep me distracted and for talking to me. I appreciate it. Its helped.
Shell
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Post by winegirl on Jun 11, 2008 21:24:27 GMT
No worries hunny, you have done ace babes. Get yourself off for some shut eye mate and start tomorrow fresh. Well done you!!  |
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Post by michelle79 on Jun 11, 2008 21:27:43 GMT
Yeah I have seen the crisis team quite a few times over the past two years. They were the ones who admitted me to hospital both times and they have been to my house and i have spoken to them on my phone.
When i s/h two weeks ago and ended up having to go to a & e for stitches, i was feeling very bad and was suicidal and kept wanting to hurt myself and the crisis team were supposed to come out and see me the next morning but i never heard from them. And they were contacting my cpn and i never heard from him. I see him next week though and dreading what he has to say. He was supposed to be writing report for solicitor to say i was well enough to have contact with jack but hes never done the letter and i think its because of s/h again
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Post by winegirl on Jun 11, 2008 21:31:35 GMT
Be honest with him hun, the more honest you are the more you are likely to get the help you need to beat this. Tell him you want refering to that psychiatrist specialising in self harm that Darlington PCT have employed and you want help now!! Emphasise that just because you want to self harm you are of no risk to anyone else and feel that the contact with your son would be a major player in your recovery.
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Post by michelle79 on Jun 11, 2008 21:36:06 GMT
yeah i will try to be more honext with him although i get a little scared of asking for what i want. Thats prob why i am in such a mess now. I dont know if he will change my psychiatrist as i already have one and it all depends what he says i suppose. I see him in 3 weeks so could always talk to him about it then.
I am all ready to tell my cpn that the s/h was just a blip and that i am well enough to see jack and that its important for me to see jack. I just hope he believes me.
Im going to go read my book whilst waiting for these meds to kick in. Take care
Shell
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Post by winegirl on Jun 11, 2008 21:37:10 GMT
Couple more numbers if you are ever on your own and stuck to get through the urge..
Mental Health Matters (5pm -9am)
0800 085 7027
• Mind Text Helpline
text: yp(Space)help(space) followed by your message to 60003
Sleep well hun x
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Post by michelle79 on Jun 12, 2008 20:00:31 GMT
Got through the day ok - did a sewing class this morning and then worked in the charity shop this afternoon and then went to drop in centre but now i am back home and the thoughts are here with me again. I hate the fact that i live on my own. But I am not going to give in to these thoughts!!!!!
Got horrible prickly heat today too - going to have to get some piriton tomorrow as its driving me mad.
Shell
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Post by winegirl on Jun 12, 2008 20:07:19 GMT
Hi Shell
Perhaps that might be a bit fof an answer for you with distraction. Do you have to live on your own? Could you share or something? Just a thought as having someone around might help as distraction?
Glad you are determined not to give in. Perhaps watch a film or something before bed? I am sat watching BBC News 24 (not my choice - its hubby) and quite frankly all the doom and gloom is doing me head in!
I used to take some anti-hystemines for prickly heat a while ago, is that what piriton is??
WG x
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Post by michelle79 on Jun 12, 2008 20:14:45 GMT
yeah piriton is an anti-histamine. Ive not got any money til next friday to get any but just text my mam and she got loads so going to give me some.
I dont have a spare room for anyone else to live with me as my 2nd bedroom is jacks room and noone can sleep in there - especially as his bed is a mid-sleeper. My firend lives oppoosite me but i dont want to bother her everytime i am wanting to hurt myself as she has her own life to lead without me hanging around.
Nothing really appeals to me to watch on tv and not got any films so prob stay on pc and listen to my music and stay distracted. I managed last night so hopefully will tonight. (i am trying to be positive !!!)
Shell
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Post by winegirl on Jun 12, 2008 20:19:13 GMT
Good plan hun! How u feeling tonight? Sounds live you had a dead busy day!
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Post by michelle79 on Jun 12, 2008 20:23:05 GMT
im feeeling ok apart from this prickly heat is driving me MAD
Yeah today been busy which was good becasue it kept my mind occupied. I actually enjoyed the charity work too which was good. Going back on momday as have to do food shop tomorrow morning then seeing my man as she got the anti-histamine and they go away on sunday and got my dads card for fathers day.
Bit worried about tomorrow night as no plans yet again - god i hate evenings.
Done quite a bit on my eeyore rug today!
Shell
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Post by winegirl on Jun 12, 2008 20:27:24 GMT
LOL! You must post us a copy of that rug when you have done! I wish I had some creative talent, but the extent or my creativity isdrinking a full glass of wine with no hands... oh well.
The evenings can be a pain, but getting on line, makig calls etc.. used to do it for me. (that and a chinese take away)...
You have just reminded me about fathers day! One of the other mods reminded me yesterday and i forgot again. Ooops!
Do you think you could do a study at home course or something for distraction in the evenings? I have just done a three month course from home and loved it. Really made me forget everything else at the time!
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Post by michelle79 on Jun 12, 2008 20:39:27 GMT
Im hoping to go to college in sept to do a childcare course so holding out til then. Not sure if i will get in as noticed on letter you have to already be working in childcare before starting the course but got interview on 27th june and will see what they say.
LOL at the wine with no hands - me thinks i will try that too. And I bet you are creative with something. In fact you are creative with your words as you give out some fantastic advice and replies.
ARGH Prickly Heat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Shell
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