michelle79
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mummy to Jack born 2004 and had pni since his birth
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Post by michelle79 on Jul 31, 2009 15:04:10 GMT
WG - thing sad thing is that I know how bad things can get if I dont go out. When I still had Jack I didnt go out the house for about 2 months (jack only went out if someone picked him up) and the day I finally left the house when was I was carted off in an ambulance then finally sent to psych hospital. When I was finally discharged I still wouldnt go out and had to have occupational therapy to try help me get out of the house. It was hard work but eventually worked. But at the moment I just want to feel better then I know I will be able to go out again. Right now I just cant face it. It scares me having to go out. It will pass when my mood passes I think. Hi Monica - I cant face going to a & e and tbh I have given up on them all. They just dont help. Maybe I am not getting my point across at how bad I really am but I cant face talking to someone I dont know. I am sure I will get through this. Still crying lots - I never thought it was this possible to cry so much over nothing most of the time. Im so not used to crying And the anxiety is so bad - I wish they would at least give me something for that. Maybe it will ease in time. Thinking of going out makes me worse so I know I couldnt deal with it.
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Post by winegirl on Jul 31, 2009 15:08:20 GMT
I know you have all but given up on the services, but ring the crisis team/cpn whatever and see if maybe they can temporarily help you out with diaepam or something? If they can ease the anxiety and you can function a bit better then your mood should lift a little too...
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michelle79
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mummy to Jack born 2004 and had pni since his birth
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Post by michelle79 on Jul 31, 2009 15:24:40 GMT
I might see if my friend will ring them if she does come round. I cant face talking to them anymore. They dont seem to listen to me.
I think I need to try and eat something as havent had anything since monday but just cant face food. I dont seem to have any appetite and feel so sick with this anxiety too. Be great when I weigh myself - will most likely lost something!
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Post by winegirl on Jul 31, 2009 16:09:57 GMT
Good idea mate. Def ask her to do that for you...
Yes, I used to struggle to eat with the anxiety too (you wouldnt believe it now though!) I used to find something quite dry usually went down best..
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Post by winegirl on Aug 2, 2009 11:06:09 GMT
How are you doing today Shell?? I am thinking of you x
WG xx
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Post by monica on Aug 2, 2009 12:56:18 GMT
Hi
How are you? have you seen anyone? Hope you managed to get a bit of food down you. I also completely lost my appetite with anxiety but if you can eat a little that can give you a little energy.
Love
Monica
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michelle79
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mummy to Jack born 2004 and had pni since his birth
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Post by michelle79 on Aug 2, 2009 21:47:14 GMT
Hi I am still struggling. Anxiety still bad and still cant leave the house. A friend came over today to bring me some milk and he made me have something to eat today because he knew I hadnt eaten all week. Dont feel as low as I did but I feel so unhappy and keep wondering why i am still alive Still having thoughts that jacks dead. Cant seemt o get them out of my head and I sit there thinking of the things I need to do now he has died like getting rid of his toys and stuff. Lack of sleep isnt helping either. And when I get some sleep I have major weird dreams.
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Post by bean on Aug 2, 2009 22:17:33 GMT
Hi Shell sorry tried getting back on f/b but its freaking out again. Ive send you a PM. xx
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michelle79
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mummy to Jack born 2004 and had pni since his birth
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Post by michelle79 on Aug 3, 2009 19:39:09 GMT
Hi Bean - never got a pm. Hope you are ok.
Didnt get to sleep til 7am this morning then had disturbed sleep until about 10am. So feeling very tired now!
Not getting any easier
Shell xxx
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Post by winegirl on Aug 4, 2009 7:05:11 GMT
Oh mate I am sorry. Did you friend ever ring the CPN for you??
WG x
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Post by bean on Aug 4, 2009 17:03:53 GMT
Hi Shell So sorry about the PM, i definately sent it, dont know what happened there. How are you? luv bean x
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Post by monica on Aug 4, 2009 21:22:58 GMT
Hi
How are you doing? These thoughts must b eso distressing for you but that's what they are thoughts possibly triggered by stopping those meds you were on. Your thoughts seem to be filtering through into your dreams - mine were like that with PNI which meant you don't get any let up on them. Deifinately worth seein cpn and/or dr to get soem guidance about that.
Is your friend coming over again.
Love
Monica
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michelle79
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mummy to Jack born 2004 and had pni since his birth
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Post by michelle79 on Aug 6, 2009 12:54:26 GMT
Still not good - finally left house last night but only to go to a & e because I self harmed so bad. It was most probably the worst cut I have ever done and needed so many stitches. Then made me talk to the crisis team who were pretty good with me. They said they thought I should be admitted but I said no. Starting to wonder whether should have agreed because I cant do this on my own anymore. They contacted the duty officer in my CMHT and they coming to see me Monday. Somehow got to get through to Monday. Still have such a big overwhelming urge to cut and I know it will be bad and if I go to a & e I am sure they will admit me this time. I dont know what I am doing at the moment.
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Post by bean on Aug 6, 2009 13:13:14 GMT
Hi Shell sorry was not around last night. Hows the cut today? Maybe, like we talked about the other night, you need to be admitted, just for a short stay? Just to be safe. sorry again mate x
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Post by bean on Aug 8, 2009 9:28:10 GMT
Hi everyone
Shell has contacted me this morning and asked me to post this.
Its not good news Im afraid. Shell took an overdose last night and is in hospital. She's got to see the Psych team sometime over the weekend and is on a drip with the antidote. She wanted me to tell you she's sorry, she feels like she's let everyone down. I told her she hasnt let anyone down, and there's no need to apologise, hopefully she will get some decent help now, and that we are all here for her and want her to be ok.
Shell, When you read this, Im so sorry mate, I knew you were struggling and should have been around more, I dont know how, i sort of thought this was going to happen when we spoke last week. I just want to send you my love hun and that Im thinking about you, if you need me you know where I am, and please dont feel bad about letting anyone down, just concentrate on trying to get better. Sending loving thoughts to you chic bean xxxxx
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