Shells battle with self harm

[winegirl]

How nice that Keith is being so supportive! And does he get on with Jack too??

I really am very pleased for you hun, you are doing great and dont ever doubt that!

WG xx

[monica]

Hi

Great to hear from you. You sound great - I know life isn't perfect but things are really on the up with having Jack and Keith. For a long time SH has been a coping mechanism for you and it's gonna take a while for those urges to go. But you are doing brilliantly you really are, so huge well done.

It's so lovely hearing and seeing photos from FB of Jack - he's such a gorgeous little boy.

You mentioned you feel quite lonely as yo've moved away - have you thought about doing some sort of course? Even if it's only a few hours a week, you'll have something to focus on and meet knew people.

Sending you much love

Monica

[michelle79]

Hi all

I am sorry that I am back here posting. Just have noone to talk to and need to let it all out.

Only got to 5 weeks again and then I self harmed last night and had to go to get it seen to this morning.

Things are so bad between me and Keith and at present he is not even talking to me. After days/weeks of arguing we had a bad night last night, he has shut me out, ignored me and wont talk to me. I ended up sleeping in Jacks bed last night and reckon I could be there a while. Got up this morning and still wont talk to me. Had no text through day asking if I am ok like I normally get everyday when he is at work.

I am dreading him coming home tonight. He doesnt even know about the self harm and if he finds out will go mad.

I dont know how to do this. I still feel so emotional and upset and so full of guilt and blame and hurting myself feels like the only option to me right now. I have not had suicidal thoughts for such a long time and feel them now although I very much doubt I will act on them.

Sorry for all this, needed to write it down somehow

Shell xxx

[monica]

Oh petal - you are going through such a tough time. You are vulnerable and an argument with oh espcially one that's lingering, is bound to make you feel low. What triggeed it off? is it something you can resolve. I take it the silences are his response to being pissed off. My bf does this too and it's so hurtful. Any chance of sitting down and talkign to him?

How is your cut? I understand why you've done this but try to think of the positive - you've got to five weeks - that's over a month so well done. Is there anyone you can talk to whilst you'e feeling this way. perhaps meet with your close friends?

Sending you big hugs

Love

Monica