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Post by juppster on Feb 8, 2012 9:14:18 GMT
I get that feeling I really do but you will find as time goes on that the good days get longer and the bad days become fewer and if you do have a bad day try and pass it off as just that...a bad day and the next day could be completely different. Keep going girl, you are doing brill xx
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Post by kerryt1987 on Feb 9, 2012 8:01:13 GMT
Thank you...
I think I feel a little better today, the problem Is I don't think I know what I used to feel like anymore I that makes sense?!
I look at my little girl and I'm full of pride so I know that I must be bonding better now.
Xxx
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Post by juppster on Feb 9, 2012 9:32:56 GMT
Thats so lovely to hear....keep going, it will get easier and as i say, when you do have bad days remember to accept them for what they are and they will pass again xx
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Post by kerryt1987 on Feb 20, 2012 15:02:59 GMT
Hey guys, Sorry not been on here for a while, the good news is I am feeling a hell of a lot better!! I've bonded with my daughter now and I can honestly say I see a light at the end of the tunnel. I have had a few blips on the way and I'm sure I will have more but for the mean time I am keeping everything crossed!! ) To all of the support I've had on here thank you so much you certainly made the last 9 weeks better than what they could of been... I'll still keep in writing so you all know how I'm getting on! Xxxxx
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Post by juppster on Feb 20, 2012 15:49:45 GMT
Hey Kerry, that is so lovely to hear...well done you and remember if you do have blips and bad days...take them as just that...just a bad day....Keep in touch x
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Post by kerryt1987 on Feb 25, 2012 9:41:00 GMT
Off for a trip to Brighton today quite nervous as I haven't been there in years and not very good travelling far from home due to panic attacks. I want to do or I'll never know. Been feeling like I'm going backwards the last couple of days like where I was before. I'm still on my meds, although my period started the day I started feeling down again could thy be why? And will it fade when my period stops? Hope you guys are all ok xxx
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Post by Hopeful on Feb 25, 2012 11:18:41 GMT
Hi Kerry,
Got everything crossed for you that it goes ok xx I know what you mean about the panic attacks, but great to give it a go. Your period may have caused a blip, so hopefully you'll pick up again soon .
Hopefulxx
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Post by juppster on Feb 25, 2012 13:09:20 GMT
Hey Kerry, I used to feel exactly the same as you about travelling too far away from home and to some extent it still crosses my mind now. The best thing that i have been taught though is that if you do start to feel a panic attack coming on, tell yourself that there will always be someone there to help you and that it WILL pass...i was told that physically your body can only have a panic attack for around 20 minutes before it subsides. Hoping your trip was lovely and you managed to enjoy the sunshine x Oh, and also for me, my period and the lead up to it always makes me feel worse....blimmin hormones!!!
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Post by kerryt1987 on Feb 26, 2012 7:01:19 GMT
Managed to get to Brighton and back and enjoy it... It was a nice day, woke up feeling like I'm back at square one I close my eyes an all of these weird aggressive images come! Why can't I just be normal and enjoy life I can't believe Ive gone from feeling brilliant to feeling like this again in the space of a couple of days! My daughter doesn't deserve to have me as a mum why should she... I hate the way my life is going I don't enjoy it at all anymore I feel so lonely xxx
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Post by Weeble on Feb 26, 2012 8:19:36 GMT
Well done what a magnificent achievement, I like you have rebound bad days after good times. However, relearning that positive things can happen, stopping avoiding things and being proud of our small steps is a big chunk of recovery
How r u this morning
Kat
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Post by kerryt1987 on Feb 26, 2012 8:44:25 GMT
Still feel pretty rubbish again this morning the anxiety has really hit me hard in the mornings again! ( I just feel like crying all of the time. We are struggling with money my house is a state, my Hoover has broken, and my sofa is ruined. Went to my husbands sisters yesterday in Crawley her partner of 5 years and father if her two children has had an affair 4 months ago... She is now seeing a new guy and looks sooo happy she has a lovely home with beautiful furniture I feel so envious! We don't even own our own home.. My nan has been told she possibly has cancer of the lungs and is going for a chest X-ray Wednesday it just seems to have all got on top of me again! ( xxx
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Post by juppster on Feb 26, 2012 9:22:27 GMT
Morning hun I totally get where you're coming from with the money thing and this can really compound the way you are feeling but the way i try and look at it is to try and look at the lovely things that you do have...your beautiful daughter, a caring partner and most of all your health. I know you are struggling at the moment but it will go away and it will get easier. Its always so much harder when you've had a good run of emotions..it almost feels as though you're back at square one but you really aren't and those good times will come back again. Keep talking mate xx
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Post by kerryt1987 on Feb 27, 2012 15:41:34 GMT
Cannot wait to get to bed then I know this awful day will be done I am so fed up! I feel like I could scream I'm done with this feeling now happy for 5 minutes and then bang the depression hits me again!! I can't do it anymore... I feel so lonely it's like I hardly speak throughout the day. I'm soooo sorry to keep on being so negative xxxx
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Post by juppster on Feb 27, 2012 20:05:53 GMT
Never ever apologise for being negative lovely, you are unwell and it is the illness making you think and feel this way...not you. Any news on starting cbt? How are you feeling this evening? x
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Post by Weeble on Feb 27, 2012 22:19:06 GMT
Dont apologise, we all understand what you are talking about. I used to and still do suffer from the rebound caused by positive times.
What have you got planned this week?
Kat
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