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Post by Kirsty on Mar 5, 2017 11:14:36 GMT
Oh wow that was a late one for you! You just chilling today? I read the diary I kept when I was at my worst and it really brought me down! I convinced myself I am a peado and a danger to Sophia and other children xx
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Post by monica on Mar 6, 2017 11:43:39 GMT
Hi
Diarys do that! I read mine from time to time on here and I feel a combination of things ....sadness, anger, frustration.
You've come so so far though. That really should be celebrated x
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Post by Kirsty on Mar 6, 2017 13:21:07 GMT
Yeah it should but I'm scared this is my high now and this is me recovered. I feel really low today x
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Post by monica on Mar 6, 2017 16:07:41 GMT
Honestly you're not recovered yet but you will. PNI often lasts longer than you'd think and the ups and downs are so challenging on so many levels.
I used to feel like you - during blips it would be ,'is this as good as it will get?', 'maybe I'm the exception who will never recover?'. The pattern of your PNI is normal and you'll have more ups and downs before you recover. In time the blips will get less intense , further apart and you'll become more confident both in terms of managing the blips and believing they will go away.
Everytime you have a blip treat yourself with kid gloves and be kind to yourself x
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Post by Kirsty on Mar 6, 2017 22:26:32 GMT
Having a much needed night off x
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Post by monica on Mar 7, 2017 7:54:16 GMT
What did you get up to last night? X
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Post by Kirsty on Mar 7, 2017 14:02:07 GMT
I just went to bed. Alan sorted out Sophia for me so I could get some rest I'm not well with a bad cold x
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Post by monica on Mar 7, 2017 20:08:57 GMT
How are you today? It's that time of year - with lots of bugs/viruses going about. Hope you got some R&Rx
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Post by Kirsty on Mar 7, 2017 20:34:25 GMT
I couldn't sleep lol but it was nice just resting. I'm not too bad today just bloody googling so much again! Grrr!! How are you? Xx
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Post by monica on Mar 7, 2017 20:53:03 GMT
What are you googling?
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Post by Kirsty on Mar 7, 2017 21:07:58 GMT
Will I recover? Success stories intrusive thoughts etc etc xx
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Post by monica on Mar 8, 2017 8:44:30 GMT
Focus on the success stories - they'll give you a lift. Hope you're getting over your cold. I'm going to Drs today as my glands have been up for a month now and the insomnia - need help with thatx
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Post by Kirsty on Mar 8, 2017 9:42:44 GMT
Oh no that's not good. Hope you can get it sorted xx
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Post by Kirsty on Mar 8, 2017 17:42:50 GMT
So had a meltdown today at group, we had to be evacuated due to a bomb scare and we ended up
In another school. All the kids from the school we were in got evacuated to this other school too. Ended up in a small hall with over 100 kids and I started to panic and think they were not safe around me. It's really brought me down x
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Post by monica on Mar 8, 2017 17:48:04 GMT
That must have been unbelievably frightening. You would never do anything to any child! I think the thoughts now rear their ugly heads when you are low or stressed. This is just a reaction to stress and nothing more! I get 6 mths down the line if this were to happen you'd be stressed and panicked but without the thoughts.
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