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Post by winegirl on Jan 17, 2008 20:04:56 GMT
Hi Em
That sounds like a fab idea! And it would fit around your new life perfectly! You seem to be keeping plenty busy without your old job anyway hun, glad you have had a good few days x
Take Care
WG x
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Post by Em on Jan 19, 2008 20:35:20 GMT
Sat 19th....
Been in a mood today. Think its the onset of PMT. I know I'm being really grumpy but can't stop myself having a go at my OH. Although, to be fair, he hasn't done a lot to help matters.
He seems to have done everything possible to get out of looking after Theo. His answer to looking after Theo is to put him in the pushchair or carseat and take him out. It's really got to me today that he won't play with him or read to him without being told to.
Also in a mood cos my body hurts like mad ....... from playing on the wii last night!!!! Had to take some ibuprofen and paracetamol cos my muscles are soooooo sore. I can't believe it - must be quite a good workout. Feel like I've spent 10 hours in the gym.
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Post by winegirl on Jan 19, 2008 20:49:21 GMT
Hi Em
Think i might buy a wii instead of wasting my money on going to a gym! If it has that good an effect on your muscles then why do proper excersise!
Hope you have a better day tomorrow hun x
WG x
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Post by Em on Jan 25, 2008 20:28:33 GMT
Friday....
Had a really good week. Feeling much more like my old self this week.
On Monday I took T to the hospital to see the consultant about his tummy muscles. They haven't formed correctly. The Dr said if he was a girl they'd probably operate so she could carry a baby later, but as he's a little boy they'll leave him for now. He said it could sort its self out in the next couple of years and its very unlikely to cause him any problems. That was a big relief.
I've got Tomas a place in nursery starting after half term. Really pleased about that and so is he. Bought him some of his uniform and he is so chuffed with it. Only problem is his nursery finishes at 3.15 and J finishes school at 3.20 - but its at least a 10 min walk between the two schools. Thats going to be stressful!!!
Going to the hairdressers tomorrow for a little bit of me time. I can remember a year ago I was so ill I wouldn't go and get my hair cut cos I couldn't face going inside the salon.
Life is definitely improving...
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Post by winegirl on Jan 25, 2008 21:16:01 GMT
Hi Em
Have a lovely time at the salon tomorrow mate and you enjoy it!!! I used to freak about going to get my hair done too bu now love going!
Glad things are going so well for you hun x
WG x
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Post by Em on Jan 29, 2008 20:18:44 GMT
Am feeling a bit down today.
My in-laws came over on Sunday with some bad news. My sister-in-law had taken an overdose. Luckily she's not done any damage and is back home now. She's going through a bad time with her husband who is an absolute prick. When I was feeling really down the one thing that stopped me doing something like that was my 3 little boys. I feel so sad for her. I told my OH to ring her and ask her to come and live with us to get her away from him - but she wants to stay cos she 'loves him'. Not sure where this is going to go and what we can do if she wants to stay with HIM.
My OH really down cos of his sister. He's always really chirpy and happy so there's a really glum atmosphere around.
Things are rubbish....again.
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Post by winegirl on Jan 29, 2008 20:24:09 GMT
Hi Em
So sorry hun. I was once with a guy who was really awful to me, and it didnt matter what people said to me, I stayed with him because I thought I loved him. It went on for years and nothing anyone said could make a difference to me, even though he was really awful to me, and it was the only other time in my life that I suffered depression. But it was strange I loved him and wanted to stay the whole time, then one morning I woke up and thought `what am I doing here?'. It came out of nowhere. So I rang my dad and asked him to come over with a van and threw all my belongings onto it and left that morning.
It will take your SIL to do the same thing to leave him. All you guys can do in the meantime is be there to support her and let her know that you love her.
I am glad she is back home after her overdose and is OK, and I really am sorry that this is understandable causing you guys so much pain again right now.
We are always here to listen Em xx
WG xx
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Post by Em on Feb 3, 2008 20:53:08 GMT
Thank you WG for what you've written - its really helpful and gives a bit of hope for my sis-in-law. The dust seems 2 have settled a bit after the OD and her and husband back 2 carrying on like all is great from what I've heard. He is such a strange person - I'm sure he's gay. But, she is one of the kindest sweetest people I've ever met.
Yesterday my OH went to watch football. He took our eldest and the other two stayed with me. Theo was in one of his mischievous moods and excelled himself in getting into trouble... I was at my wits end by 5pm and had him in the bath by quarter past 5, and in bed at 6pm - on the dot!!! If I'd had him first he'd have been an only child!
Today has been great. Watched my eldest play footy this morning. Then this afternoon we walked to the park with a football and had a kickabout on one of the little pitches. We had great fun, then home for a Sunday lunch.
Looking forward to my last week of having Tomas at home all day with me. He starts nursery school after half term. Got lots of things for us to do.
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Post by Em on Feb 4, 2008 20:47:16 GMT
Monday...
Feeling ok today.
Went to Sainsburys this morning - they had 25% off all the clothes which was the perfect excuse to buy a few things. Then I took the boys to the coffee shop for a mid morning snack and drink. After lunch, we went to the park and ran around with a football for a bit. So, we've been quite busy - which is good as it keeps T out of mischief!
This evening I heard a knock at the door and all of a sudden I reverted back to the stupid woman I was this time last year. I sent my eldest to look through the window and see who it was - was too scared to do it myself. It was our next door neighbour. My heart was pounding and I didn't want to go and speak to him. Luckily OH arrived home to save me.
Its wierd. I am (most of the time) back to myself, but still panic dreadfully about answering the phone or door. I'm fine if I'm expecting someone, its the unexpected that scares me. I bought a phone with a caller display so that I can see who's phoning before I pick up which for me was a god send and has helped me a lot with my silly phone phobia. Not a lot I can do about the front door!
Tomorrow we've got to go to parent's evening for our eldest. Hope all is ok. Sure it is.
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Post by winegirl on Feb 4, 2008 20:49:15 GMT
Hi Em
Glad you had a good day lovely, and pleased things have calmed down at home for your SIL.
Enjoy your time with Thomas hun, but enjoy the lack of pressure when he starts nursery even more!!!
take care
WG x
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Post by Em on Feb 20, 2008 21:36:44 GMT
Had my first down day since I last wrote today. Been doing really well over last few weeks, coping well and enjoying life.
Today started off rubbish and so it carried on... Up too late. Nagging at the boys to get ready. Out to school late. etc etc. I came home from taking J to school, put the kettle on and made me and OH a coffee - only he went to work an hour before. Then T appeared at the kitchen door and said Mummy Theo is being very naughty in the lounge - I went to look and that was when the tears started. He'd opened his milk and tipped it out in various places - the coffee table, the fire place and best of all the sofa. Great.
OH late home from work tonight so had to get boys tea, and bathed and into bed on my own. They always know when I'm feeling a bit weak and run rings around me. I just felt so out of control.
Cried again at tea time - but out of boys sight. This time I was in the kitchen fetching something for Theo and I heard J shout. Went to look and T had knocked his lemonade all over the table, which then ran on to J and down on to the floor. I sorted that out and the boys ate their tea but Theo just kept throwing his food. Once they'd finished and I was on my hands and knees picking up pieces of sausage, and cauliflower whilst finding sticky patches from the lemonade I burst into tears. Toooo much today.
Feeling a bit better now I've had a couple of hours sit down since they went to bed. Going to try and get a good night's sleep and hope things are better tomorrow.
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Post by winegirl on Feb 20, 2008 21:42:20 GMT
Hi Em
Sorry you have had a bit of a down day babes. To be honest, I think if i had had a day of spilt milk, rushing round and picking up the remenents of a food fight i would also have tears, with or without PNI!!
Just cross it if as a tough one with the prospect of having a fab one tomorrow.
Hope you sleep well babes x
WG xxx
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Post by Em on Feb 21, 2008 20:19:45 GMT
Thursday....
Had another low day. My mood plummeted. Feeling like I just can't cope with everything. I can't see things clearly at the moment - I don't understand why, but my mind seems in a foggy whirl.
I've struggled with the boys today. I just don't seem to have my usual energy and enthusiasm. Sat on the carpet and let Theo throw stickle bricks all over his bedroom then empty his drawers. It occupied him for a while. OH came home and said "Theo's room is a tip, what's been going on". I couldn't explain.
Had to take J to swimming after school. So, picked T up from nursery at 3.15 then ran to J's school to pick him up. He finishes at 3.20 but its physically impossible to get there untill 3.25 so was late..... Got home and had to get J to his swimming lesson for 4pm. I could have crumbled into pieces when I realised I could not find his swimming kit. Had to buy him some new goggles at the swimming baths- couldn't find the old ones.
I'm rambling.....Need some sleep.... that's all I want to do at the moment.
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Post by winegirl on Feb 21, 2008 21:12:07 GMT
Hi Em
Sounds like all this panic and rushing around is whats getting to you hun. Quite frankly if I had half an hour to get me and kids out of the door for swimming i would be a damn mess!
Is there anyway you can slow things down a bit so its not quit so frantic? Perhaps go straight from school to swimming with swimming kit already in car etc..
I often let my LO empty her drawers. It winds me up coz I hate mess, but like you say it keeps them occupied when you need 5 minutes peace so hey ho!
Really hope tomorrow is much better for you mate xx
WG x
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Post by Em on Feb 24, 2008 21:06:53 GMT
Had a really bad day on Friday, Saturday a bit better, and today feeling much better.
My OH asked me to go to the doctors on Friday cos I was so low. I cried and cried on Thurs night and he just cuddled me but didn't know what to do or say. I didn't want to see anyone on Friday. Tried to arrive at J's primary school late so that all the other mum's would have gone, but his class were still outside when we got to school. Felt really panicy cos I didn't want to speak to anyone.
Later on I had the rush again from nursery to J's school. Think its the rush and the worry about being late that's been making me ill again. Tomorrow Jake is going for tea at a friend's house so won't have to rush. Thursday's are going to be OK now. One of J's friend's swims at the same time as him and his mum said she'll take J and meet me there.
It doesnt take much to knock me off the recovery track and I find that very scary. I had thought after a good few weeks that I was sorted but obviously not.
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