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Post by Scarlet on Sept 27, 2007 14:28:50 GMT
9oz in 11 days, so I'm feeling much happier about it Hiya Sarah hun, So glad he put on some weight....now I hope that's put your mind at ease and you can have a bit of a relaxing evening. Hugs Scarlet X ps. Do keep us posted about your Gran, us oldies are good at listening (not that I'm as old as your Gran, at least I don't think so)
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Post by stevensmummy on Sept 27, 2007 17:16:47 GMT
Will do, but I doubt ure as old as her. Shes 72, and a great grandmother to my boys, but you never know, lol, maybe you are too
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Post by Scarlet on Sept 28, 2007 14:57:56 GMT
lololol not quite as old,but it's great that you have such a lovely grandma. How are you doing today hun? Hope you are having a better one.
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Post by stevensmummy on Sept 28, 2007 16:01:33 GMT
Much better, but very busy so I'll catch up properly 2morow. I'm knackered and steven is on sleep over at mum and dad so I can have a break 2nite, once the little lad is off 2 bed.
Hope you guys are all well x
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Post by stevensmummy on Oct 1, 2007 7:58:21 GMT
I've had a difficult weekend. Sat was better, steven wasnt home until about 2 but mum and dad left promptly as they were having people over. Michael was late home and the boys took a little contending with but I survived. Stuart is not right again, I really hope it isnt the abcess as it seems such a lot better so far. The trials of the antibiotic were appearing to be worth the hassle.
I have since discovered that 2 of our friends suffered pni. Michael is feeling it a little just now and had mentioned it to a friend and as it turns out his wife had pni with their first. I think its benefiting michael to be a ble to discuss it wih him. Hes being really nice about it, keeps saying if you need anyone to talk to then I'm here. I have u guys, he has no-one so I am really glad he was able to discuss it. I have now pretty much admitted to everyone in the family I have this, I wasnt sure how to approach it but I have managed using our house application. We are hoping for a council house in the village as I cant drive just now, so we were getting medical points, and I was explaing how we could get more due to the house and the isolation being a contributing factor to the pni. I said that to the MIL and my gran so its pretty much common knowledge now. I hope this makes it easier.
I spent all day yest on my own with the boys. It was difficult, we went for a long walk up to the castle to see michael in the tractor. I just opened the gates and went in with the buggy. There were lots of walkers with it being such a nice day and a few of them said things like you know you shouldnt be in there etc. I just looked at them and said no, u shouldnt be in here, i can. One of them said, well u better get out of there or I'll be telling the estate guard. I just laughed and she carried on nipping away about the guard. I eventually said well, just you go and tell him, and when he sees who I am he'll tell you exactly what I did. She made a funny face and had a little huh to herself and walked off. I'm not actually sure if she said anything, I doubt it, if she did he prob realised it was me and didnt bother.
I feel kind of proud of myself that I managed all day. It was hard and few times i nearly cried. Esp when mum and dad said they had better things to do than come here. That did upset me. I doubt they meant it the way it sounded but it felt bad. I hope today is better. I'm hoping that it will get better each day I have to be alone.
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Post by winegirl on Oct 1, 2007 8:21:28 GMT
Hi Sarah
Well done on managing so well yesterday! I hope the days start to get easier for you now x
Are you taking bambino back to the dr's? Perhaps he just needs another course of antibiotics?
Well done on telling that woman where to go! Thats is another good sign that you are getting better that you feel confident enough to stand up for yourself!
Hope today is good for you x
Winegirl x
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Post by Scarlet on Oct 1, 2007 8:55:30 GMT
Hiya Sarah,
Hope Stuart is OK, I should give the doc a ring and mention your concerns.
Sorry about your weekend, but despite feeling crap you managed to look after your boys alone and take a long walk. Like Winegirl says, the confrontation you had with that woman shows you are recovering hun. Good for you.
Glad that you mentioned your PNI to the rest of your family. As for friends wives having PNI, this shows that it's extremely common, and it's such a pity there's still a stigma attached ~ I'm so glad that your hubby has someone to talk to that he can identify with, this can only be a good thing.
Wishing you pink today hun ~ you are getting there.
Hugs
Scarlet X
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Post by stevensmummy on Oct 2, 2007 18:10:46 GMT
Thanks for the replies girls. I just wrote alot about yesterday and today. It was horrile and I wrote alot. Then steven came in and thumped the keyboard. I lost it all. If I get a chnace later I will write it again. I feel better having put it down even if it was lost so I guess it worked regardless. Thanks for the suppport as always. i really appreciate it
xx
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Post by Scarlet on Oct 3, 2007 7:19:09 GMT
Hi Sarah hun,
How are you today, is your little one drinking his milk better this week?
Scarlet X
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Post by Scarlet on Oct 5, 2007 7:01:17 GMT
Hiya Sarah,
Hope alls well hun. Just checking to see if you are OK and that your little one is better and feeding well.
Hugs
Scarlet X
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Post by stevensmummy on Oct 8, 2007 17:07:25 GMT
Thanks Scarlet for the replies, things arent great to be honest. Its been so stressful and hectic that I've not had a chance to even got online. I think it has had its effects too as I feel so much worse of it.
A brief let off
Grans Golden wedding anniv on wed, the party was yest. I was doing a cross stitch for them, I didnt finnish it in time and am really disappointed with myself. I stayed up nearly all night for 2 nights but the boys have just been so ill or really bad I couldnt manage. I really wish I had done it in time. The party was awful. I tried to busy myself with everything and helpin jen get organised. I only returned to the group of people 3-4 times briefly. I couldnt handle the pressure. My grandfather upset me. I keep recalling it and its bothering me each time so I'm gettin it off my chest now. They were talking about the F1, he was describing the race and getting it all wrong. I stepped up and when he paused I interupted to correct him. He sulked like a baby and hmm he went and turned away. When my uncle asked a question I replied. Then Granda turnd to say very sarcastically, So u got the story now have you. My uncle wasnt sure where to look. He proceeded to carry on with the wrong story and I again corrected saying no, it was Alonso and not Hamilton, etc. He sulked again. My aunt laughed and smiled at me. They all know what he is like. I stood back and made a sarcastic face and she grinned. I'm not sure why it bothered me so much. Usually I would haev laughed at him and made a sarcastic comment about him spitting his dummy out and that would have been it. But I didnt have the confidence to do that and its now playing on my mind.
Stuart got his jab on monday. Reacted very badly, very high temp, dehydrated. I was concerned about landing in hospital but he came slightly better. He still isnt great. I didnt bother with the doc 2day again. Hes not bad enough to need the hospital and theres little they can do. Hes aquired this scream. By scream I mean high pitched shreeking. Its horrible and very stressful. Its almost continuous. I think he could be teething too.
I took another down fall agian 2day. This blip isnt lifting very quickly. So much so that i think theres a huge hole in the tunnel and I'm now trapped. I ended in tears in the hallway, holding my knees sobbing my eyes out. I was petrified of being left alone with my screaming babay and my extremely hyperactive toddler - he has eaten something he doesnt usually get yesterday at the party. Mum took steven along to the hospital with her and hes staying the night. Hopefully I can compose myself for the morning when he returns.
It seems to be gettin worse lately.I need to try and remember its only a blip and move up from it, but I cant from this one. Its caught me so much harder than the others have. I'll just have to paint on my false smile and pretend its ok.
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Post by winegirl on Oct 8, 2007 19:11:57 GMT
Hi Sarah
I really hope its over for you soon hun x
I know how you feel with the way you reacted to your grandad's mood. There was a time i would have laughed that off too, but these days things like that bother me. I think this illness makes us all super sensitive and low confidence at times.
Sorry Stuart didnt get on great with his jab. When my little girl had her first one she got really hot and screamed for 11 hours solid. i was on phone to emergency doctors I can tell you. Its hard I know.
I really hope tomorrow is the strta of the way out of this blip for you hun. I am about all day tomorrow if you need to talk.
Thinking of you x
Winegirl x
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Post by Scarlet on Oct 9, 2007 7:14:09 GMT
Sarah,
It's a blip ~ it's a more intense blip because you've been under stress... and it's understandable after what you've been through these last couple of days. It will go, you've just gotta ride it hun. Doesn't matter if it lasts a week or two, IT WILL subside ~ promise you.
My son racted badly to one of his vaccinations as well when he was younger, and was restless through the night. I gave him some calpol, and it was short-lived. When he was teething he woke up continually as well. As for Steven's high-pitched scream, is it through the night hun, or during the day as well?...there are so many bugs going around here. If you don't want to go to the docs but are concerned you could always just ring your doc up for peace of mind, or the NHS direct mumber. Sounds like it's subsided a bit now though.
Get out and about if you can, it doesn't matter if you are only running on 70%. Do you have any help from your mum or mil today?
Keep talking hun, we are here for you.
Hugs
Scarlet X
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Post by stevensmummy on Oct 15, 2007 20:46:50 GMT
Hi girls,
Managed a quick pop on. Things are very hectic just now. Stevebn alot better, has a UTI so sore when he pees. Also potty training. Pee and poo on the carpet!! I was nearly sick trying to scoop it up, lol. Mum keeps saying oh keep with it he'll get better but come on my stomach can only take so much! Roll on the dry days, 6 pairs of pants 2day. Mum reckons thats good but I dont know about that. Maybe I'm harsh. Tell me they do stop pissing everywhere, plz!!
Stuarts still not great. On sat the abcess had green stuff, and I had to poke at it and he screamed and screamed, he was hysterical. I left him for 2 secs to put the dirty washing away in the ktichen. He went silent suddenly and I came thro to him having some sort of fit. I was petrified. He shook his arms and rolled his eyes, blinking his eyelids. I put my hand on his chest and shook his a little and called his name and he kind of stopped a second or two later. He just looked at me. i pucked him up very quickly, he offered to cry and then fell asleep in my arms. I was so scared. I didnt know what to think. I phoned mum and she said phone that NHS 24, so i did and they said A&E. I went and they didnt seem overly concerned about it. I felt like they passed me of as an over anxious mother. I called my HV this am and she got him checked by a GP. They are refering him to paediactrics at the hosp. They think its all related to the abcess. One doc was concerned the infection might be in his system. I'm exhauseted from the stress of all this. I just wish they could sort it all out. Its driving me insane.
I'm afraid to let him cry now. I keep thinking maybe he got so worked up he got his self in a state and that was all. But I dont know. Its stressfull. I cant sleep fro all this. he still gets up every 2 hrs. Wants fed, takes only a little. Just wants the comfort. I've started lettin him sleep in our bed with me, the Hv suggested it. I get less disturbance that way. He basically has 'self service' as a means of comfort. I only have to briely wake up and he seems to be assured by me being there. Hes a real mummys boy and would sit on my knee and just cuddle up all day if I let him. I think hes really sore. I dont know what else to do. Sleeping with ure babay when u breast feed is apparently quite common. I hadn't thought of it untill the HV suggested it. Seems to be helping a little so hopefully it will get easier. I'm getting pretty knackered from this few hrs sleep a night. It can only get better.
The blip, is appearing to lift a little. I think the stress of just now is makin things all so much worse. I have a meeting with the housing officer 2 moro. One step closer to a new house. Thats helping my mood a little. I'm going off to bed. I'm exhausted. Take the opportunity to sleep while I can. I'll let you know how it goes when I get a break. Things are hard just now, I think not getting on here to let off my thoughts isn't helping. Thanks for it all girls. You are a great support
xx
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Post by winegirl on Oct 15, 2007 20:55:37 GMT
Hi Sarah
I am so sorry about Stuart sweetie. How awful, for you and for him! I remember my little one crying hystericaly one day when she was about 4 months old and i was desperately trying to cook tea with pans and everything on so i put her in her bouncy cradle chair on the kitchen floor and figured she would just have to cry for a few mins while i sorted the food out. She got in a right state then went quite and a funny colour and i panicked like mad! Haven't forgotten it to this day and still flap if she crys for more than a minute.
Let us know how the poor wee man gets on. Thinking of you hun xx
Winegirlx
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