michelle79
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mummy to Jack born 2004 and had pni since his birth
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Post by michelle79 on Nov 9, 2008 20:07:35 GMT
Thnaks for your comments on jacks picture! thats my little man and I am so proud that he is. I miss him terribly though and it upsets me that i can only see him through photos. But I know that it wont be forever.
Feeling very lonely and sad tonight and feel like crying again. Think its bad because my friend came to stay with me from liverpool and she went back home this morning so now i am on my own again and its hit me after having company for a while.
Thansk for your comments littlelotty - that was so nice what you said. I cant believe I am an inspiration to others but then i cant take compliments either. I am trying so much to get myself well again and sometimes i get myself so worked up because I have a long way to go. Still havent self harmed though!
Off to drink more wine and that might help the night go easier.
Shell xxx
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Post by beany on Nov 9, 2008 20:21:46 GMT
Hi darl, sorry havent been around for few days, just updated, you have done brilliantly coping, yes you are inspiration, we can all see how well you are doing in the face of adversity.
Massive hugs to you hun, wish I could join you in the wine but drank too much of it last night!
Love bean x
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Post by littlelotty on Nov 9, 2008 21:56:53 GMT
Hi Shell
You are such an inspritation - you certainly are to me, when i am having hard days and finding things hard and trust me recently there has been many! I just read your diary and it picks me up to think you are doing so well. Your drive and determination to get better rubs off on me so keep going.
I know that it is hard when you have company and then on your own and it is about adjusting back but always think of how far you have come as you have and the road to getting better is not as long as the one you have come on, so you are getting there hun,
take care
littlelotty
xx
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Post by winegirl on Nov 10, 2008 8:42:03 GMT
Hay Shell
Sorry, havent been around for a couple of days... How are you doing today??
I think you do amazingly, especially having so little support around you - you prove to us all what a fighter you are and how we could all follow suit!
I cant see your pic from this pc because its a work one and it is pants - will check it out when I get home x
Take Care
WG x
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michelle79
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mummy to Jack born 2004 and had pni since his birth
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Post by michelle79 on Nov 10, 2008 9:21:58 GMT
4 weeks now!!!!!!!!
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Post by bean on Nov 10, 2008 9:39:46 GMT
Thanks fo ryour message Shell, you are kind.
And fanf**kingtastic - 4 weeks, what an amazing achievement.
Sending you loads of love and hugs darlin.xxxxxx
Tina xxxxxxxxxxx
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Post by winegirl on Nov 10, 2008 22:33:23 GMT
A month!! Oh my god mate = check you out! Time to up the target to 2 months! Go Girl xx
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michelle79
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mummy to Jack born 2004 and had pni since his birth
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Post by michelle79 on Nov 11, 2008 16:22:59 GMT
yep its a month on thursday - will definately aim for 2 months but that seems like such a huge task and bit too mich pressure so will just focus on making it 5 weeks.
I really hope that i dont go backwards on monday though as have first therapy session and its not going to be very nice.
Shell xxx
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Post by winegirl on Nov 11, 2008 16:46:03 GMT
Good idea mate - take it week by week. For every week you go without you should treat yourself to something you really like, (I know its a bit stupipid, but i remember doing that when i gave up smoking... actually bad idea as I started again, and you cant really compare smoking to s/h!)
You are doing great - you have the full support off all of us on here mate x
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Post by littlelotty on Nov 11, 2008 19:34:32 GMT
Hi Shell
You are doing so so well and four weeks is a huge achievement. You can and will achieve 5 weeks - you are fantastic.
Take care and keep up the positive thoughts.
Littlelotty
xx
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Post by winegirl on Nov 11, 2008 21:15:36 GMT
Sorry missed you earlier on fcebook mate. You ok tonight??
WG xx
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michelle79
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mummy to Jack born 2004 and had pni since his birth
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Post by michelle79 on Nov 11, 2008 22:34:35 GMT
I have gotten myself in a state amnd really need to cut. Please help me
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michelle79
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mummy to Jack born 2004 and had pni since his birth
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Post by michelle79 on Nov 11, 2008 22:52:40 GMT
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Post by littlelotty on Nov 11, 2008 23:07:26 GMT
u ok shell?? worrying about you, think of how well you have done hun,
take care, thinking of you hun
littlelotty
xx
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michelle79
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mummy to Jack born 2004 and had pni since his birth
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Post by michelle79 on Nov 11, 2008 23:18:45 GMT
i cant stop thinking of jack and i cant stop crying and i really need to hurt myself. OI cant cope with these feelings anymore - they hurting so much. I feel so much pain and need to hurt myself
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