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Post by littlelotty on Jan 7, 2009 22:25:31 GMT
How are you doing hun?
Thinking of you
Take care
Littlelotty
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michelle79
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Post by michelle79 on Jan 8, 2009 22:05:56 GMT
Hi all My CPN came out today and has pushed me into going to reflections (drop in centre) tomorrow and has even rang the support workers there and told them I will be there so that I cant get away with it. One of the support workers rang me tonight to see how I was and whether I would be there tomorrow and I said I cant face people so he said that me and him will sit in the quiet room for half hour or so and chat or read the paper or whatever just to get me out of the house and with some company. So now I have no choice but to go out.  I am so scared of going out. I dont want to go out. Feel like I have been bullied into this. And its making me feel angry and anxious and I wanna cut to make me feel better but so far have resisted. |
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Post by winegirl on Jan 8, 2009 22:10:22 GMT
hey Shell
They are just trying to get you to go out because they know that the longer you stay in the harder it gets. I have been there and know that I became agraphobic and staying in just makes it worse. Dont get me wrong, it was bloody awful getting out and about again, but i did it bit by bit and it was the best thing I ever did!
You only have to go for half an hour mate - then straight back home..
WG xx
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Post by michelle79 on Jan 8, 2009 22:16:03 GMT
Thanks WG
I am so scared of going out and people seeing me and people wanting to talk to me. Im already panicking about it just thinking of it and its making me feel awful. I know I need to do it eventually but why cant they wait til i feel ready for it and not be pushed into it.
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Post by winegirl on Jan 8, 2009 22:19:32 GMT
Know what you mean. But I do remember always feeling worse on the run up to going out and getting somewhere then not feeling so bad when actually there. Like if I was due to go out with hubby for lunch, i would panic about it 2 days before and start to feel ill because of it, tehn feel really bad on teh journey there, and then within about 10 mins of being there wasn't so bad! Bizarre.
I know it easier said than done but try nt to think about it till you have to go. I know you will be ok xx
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Post by HintOfSunshine on Jan 9, 2009 7:43:20 GMT
I don't have the words to offer you any comfort Shell  but I think you're so very strong, you can do it girl! Axxx |
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Post by bean on Jan 9, 2009 9:01:47 GMT
Hey Shell
Deep breaths mate, I know it seems like the impossible dream, to be able to get somewhere, I was exactly the same yesterday, walking there was a nightmare, I try to sing mad songs in my head to stop me thinking, then I found myself done and home, worth a try maybe?
Hope it goes ok hun, let us know.
Lots of lvoe bean x
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Post by winegirl on Jan 9, 2009 12:16:22 GMT
Hoping you make it out ok mate. Thinking of you today..
WG xx
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Post by littlelotty on Jan 9, 2009 17:21:43 GMT
How has your day been hun? did you manage to get out of the house???
Thinking of you hun
Littlelotty
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Post by winegirl on Jan 9, 2009 17:56:38 GMT
How did it go?
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michelle79
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Post by michelle79 on Jan 9, 2009 21:31:34 GMT
Yep I managed to go out - it was hard and awful and I wanted to run back home but I managed to do it. We just sat in the quiet room out of the way of other people so it wasnt too much for me. I was so scared of going and had to listen to the radio on my phone whilst walking there just to distract me from my thoughts and fears. Dont know if I can do it tomorrow although the support worker has tried talking me into going for an hour or so.
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Post by winegirl on Jan 10, 2009 8:50:40 GMT
Brilliant - knew you would! Yes, try again today - if only for an hour. An hour a day is all that is needed to build you back up from this. I had spent months not going out and had to start off with a 5min walk round the block and just make it longer and longer. You are doing well Shell, and I hope you make it out today  WG xx |
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Post by bean on Jan 11, 2009 10:34:11 GMT
Hey Shell, you were really brave to go, well done mate, hopefully it will get easier if you keep going. How have you been since?
Hope you are ok hun
love bean xx
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Post by michelle79 on Jan 11, 2009 18:31:37 GMT
I did go out again yesterday and it was ok. Tomorrow I have to go back to psychology and I really dont want to go there and keep thinking of an excuse not to go.
Feeling very emotional and tearful today for some reason. Thinking a lot about Jack and getting upset over it.
I feel like I have no life and hate being here.
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Post by winegirl on Jan 11, 2009 18:47:59 GMT
Its just about baby steps with everything Shell. You are doing great, and you will love being here again.
Well done on yesterday babes and good luck for tomorrow. Do my trick and dont think about it till you have to go and you will be ok.
Will be thinking of you xx
WG xx
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I am so scared of going out. I dont want to go out. Feel like I have been bullied into this. And its making me feel angry and anxious and I wanna cut to make me feel better but so far have resisted. 
but I think you're so very strong, you can do it girl!
