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Post by winegirl on Jul 10, 2009 7:51:40 GMT
That sounds great Shell! End of july is only a couple of weeks away... Glad things are moving on hun x
WG xx
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Post by michelle79 on Jul 10, 2009 18:57:47 GMT
Just remembered other things that we talked about. He asked how Jack was when I last saw him and I said he loved being with me and screamed and cried when he had to go home and that when we played or were in soft play it was me that he wanted to play with him and not Phil. He also said that he asked Phil if Jack asks after me but apparently he doesnt ask about me but remembers me as Phil has been places and Jack has said 'We were here with Mammy' and Phil and Jack went past my house one day and Jack said 'Mammy lives here, thats mammys house' So he does remember me so we think there will be no problem when I finally get to see him.
He was happy that I can recognise when I get ill and can identify my triggers and was happy that I was working on the self harm with psychologist and the impending DBT.I told him I was working in the nursery and he was impressed. He is coming back out to see Phil first then me on Monday to finish his assessment then he wants to see Jack on Saturday, the hopefully a meeting with me and Phil together, then he just needs my medical records and Jacks school questionnaire with any other information that he can gather from the school on Jacks problems. Although he said Phil got his report from nursery and his picture was on the back and apparently you cant make anything out - its all scribbles and that a child of his age should be able to draw things like people and objects like houses etc but Jack cant do that. It makes me want to sit with him and teach him how to draw but Jack wont sit with anyone for long and has no concentration and gets bored easily so it wouldnt work.
Hopefully wont be long before I get to see Jack - I cant wait. If he has his report done by the end of july then we can apply for court date sometime in August so that is only a few weeks away! Am getting excited - although shouldnt yet though
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Post by winegirl on Jul 11, 2009 7:11:48 GMT
Sounds so positive hun - really pleased for you. Keep us updated with the progress??
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Post by monica on Jul 11, 2009 14:20:00 GMT
That sounds so positive ! Brilliant news! Hpe you have a good weekend - any plans?
Monica
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Post by michelle79 on Jul 11, 2009 20:28:58 GMT
thanks - will keep you updated. I have posted 2 threads in poems and stuff if you want to read what I wrote?  One is a poem I wrote about self harm and one is a letter to my self harm. |
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Post by cheshire on Jul 12, 2009 7:22:38 GMT
Hi Shell, What a good idea - hope it helped x Look how far you've come  Hopefulxx |
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Post by winegirl on Jul 12, 2009 15:11:08 GMT
Will go and check it out Shell x
How you doing this weekend?
WG xx
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Post by michelle79 on Jul 12, 2009 15:25:22 GMT
I am doing good this weekend - feeling so positive at the moment and hoping that it will last. Looking forward to the psychologist coming tomorrow night to finish the assessment and hoping we can get further with regards to contact. 5 days without self harm today so need to carry that on
Shell xxx
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Post by winegirl on Jul 12, 2009 20:48:39 GMT
You ok shell?? Lost FB chat on my laptop.. How is your wrist??
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Post by michelle79 on Jul 12, 2009 21:23:05 GMT
Hi WG
My wrist is getting more and more painful and swollen - starting to worry that I have broken it. I dont know if I am ok - I am supposed to be positive and fighting all this but right now I just feel hopeless. Why am I so uselss
Shellxx
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Post by monica on Jul 13, 2009 15:00:23 GMT
What's wrong with your wrist? Might be worth getting it checked out.
All good news re: contact with Jack - hope meet with psychologist goes well.
Five days without self harm - brilliant. try to focus on meet with Jack.
You've been in a bad blip - but you're having good spells even if they are short at the mninute, but that can make the bad moments seem so much worse. Your feelings of uselessness are part of that. You are doing brilliantly - try writing down the postive things in your life just to remnd yourself of what you have going.
Love
Monica
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Post by winegirl on Jul 13, 2009 16:43:11 GMT
Get it checked out mate just in case... sometimes you can go days without realizing you have a break!
How is it today??
WG (()) x
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Post by michelle79 on Jul 13, 2009 18:37:30 GMT
still painful but not swollen anymore and very bruised all round. Why was I so stupid. Im sure I am not right in the head. Its one thing to deliberately cut but a completely different thing to deliberty slam your wrist against the wall. What an idiot I am.
Psychologist came tonight and I dot feel hopeful anymore. My ex is such a dick and putting so many obstacles in my way and wont even agree on contact yet and said if he does I cant see him every weekend because he wants time with him. FFS he has him 24/7. Its so bloody unfair. I wish I never got ill or that I handled it better. I hate it all and cant stop crying.
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Post by winegirl on Jul 14, 2009 13:08:30 GMT
I thought he had had a change of heart and decided he was all up for contact? Why the change again??
WG x
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Post by michelle79 on Jul 14, 2009 17:43:11 GMT
Who knows with him - he changes his mind like the weather. Its getting me so stressed and worked up and its so hard to fight the self harm when I feel like this. (Done ok so far though so hoping I get through it). I just wish we could hurry and get back to court and get a decision made one way or the other
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One is a poem I wrote about self harm and one is a letter to my self harm. 
