Post by bean on Nov 4, 2009 20:46:25 GMT
Thanks Emma
Well I managed to get to college, i thought i had two weeks left but it turns out today was the last session and we had an examinator observing for the first half. Second half was practical and i sort of bolloxed it up a bit. But thats it i managed to get until the break before i had to retire to the loo for a cry. I was gutted cause i felt more relaxed in the session and understood wot was going on although i didnt do it properly. I have been told i have a calming voice that you cant put on and genuine empathy and relaxed body posture, thus enabling my client to relax with me but the skills im missing a bit. I am the only one not going onto level two but cant do anything about that at the mo so trying not to think about it im just scared that now i havent an excuse ill turn back into bean the recluse and i will be back to square one for the next course (if i can get on the uni course).
So i figure i need to look at this as a positive - ive done it - yay, didnt think i could but its finished, just need to write up my assessment for today and the evidence and hand it in in two weeks.
Had a couple of drinks to chill down and so pleased i had my diazepam to get me there today.
Didnt sleep last night, kept thinking and analysing about whats going on with me and i think ive figured it out but im going to go back to my therapy diary for that cause even though ive finished therapy im still processing things and i think its more relevant to that diary. Well i will if i can get on here for more than 10 without it crashing !!
For now xx
Well I managed to get to college, i thought i had two weeks left but it turns out today was the last session and we had an examinator observing for the first half. Second half was practical and i sort of bolloxed it up a bit. But thats it i managed to get until the break before i had to retire to the loo for a cry. I was gutted cause i felt more relaxed in the session and understood wot was going on although i didnt do it properly. I have been told i have a calming voice that you cant put on and genuine empathy and relaxed body posture, thus enabling my client to relax with me but the skills im missing a bit. I am the only one not going onto level two but cant do anything about that at the mo so trying not to think about it im just scared that now i havent an excuse ill turn back into bean the recluse and i will be back to square one for the next course (if i can get on the uni course).
So i figure i need to look at this as a positive - ive done it - yay, didnt think i could but its finished, just need to write up my assessment for today and the evidence and hand it in in two weeks.
Had a couple of drinks to chill down and so pleased i had my diazepam to get me there today.
Didnt sleep last night, kept thinking and analysing about whats going on with me and i think ive figured it out but im going to go back to my therapy diary for that cause even though ive finished therapy im still processing things and i think its more relevant to that diary. Well i will if i can get on here for more than 10 without it crashing !!
For now xx