Sarahjanes diary

[sarahjane]

Hi wg,sianyc my lo is much better now,i havent been on here couple days,been going through alot,my relationship is terrible at the mo,my oh has had to stay away for couple days,on wednesday he hit me,he has done it in past but promised he would never do it again! He never keeps his promises i asked him to leave,now hes sorry again! Blah blah! Been feeling so low,my lo woke up crying 5 am and i was telling her to Stop! I had horrible thoughts i was crying trying to settle her,i feel so bad today,i love her but i felt so tired,angry hope u all ok x x

[sarahjane]

Hi wg,sianyc my lo is much better now,i havent been on here couple days,been going through alot,my relationship is terrible at the mo,my oh has had to stay away for couple days,on wednesday he hit me,he has done it in past but promised he would never do it again! He never keeps his promises i asked him to leave,now hes sorry again! Blah blah! Been feeling so low,my lo woke up crying 5 am and i was telling her to Stop! I had horrible thoughts i was crying trying to settle her,i feel so bad today,i love her but i felt so tired,angry hope u all ok x x

[winegirl]

He hit you??

Right dont want to sound like a gobby preacher, but..

That is disgraceful. No wonder you are struggling so much when you are suffering at the hands of domestic violence! Has he spoken to you about doing this to you> What were his reasons (even though there is NEVER an excuse!)?

Are you ok???

[sarahjane]

Hi wg,he has spoken to me before about why he does it,he says that he cant control his anger,his gp is getting him an appointment for some help,ive told him if he does it again he's out and i wont let him back,my mum told him if it happens again she will phone the police.My MI.L is disgusted with his behaviour.He came back with a big sorry as usual,hes staying on the sofa at the mo.Im so fed up with everything if he ever disrespects me like that again he's out the door! Despite everything im feeling stronger lately and im doing well with lo,shes all that matters to me,im going out friday with my best mate for a drink in town,i havent done this for ages and im actually really looking forward to a girly night hope all is good with u x x x

[sarahjane]

Hi wg,he has spoken to me before about why he does it,he says that he cant control his anger,his gp is getting him an appointment for some help,ive told him if he does it again he's out and i wont let him back,my mum told him if it happens again she will phone the police.My MI.L is disgusted with his behaviour.He came back with a big sorry as usual,hes staying on the sofa at the mo.Im so fed up with everything if he ever disrespects me like that again he's out the door! Despite everything im feeling stronger lately and im doing well with lo,shes all that matters to me,im going out friday with my best mate for a drink in town,i havent done this for ages and im actually really looking forward to a girly night hope all is good with u x x x

[winegirl]

Sarahjane I am so pleased to have read you reply! I was utterly expecting you to say `well he wont do it again' or `but i love him' and start making excuses, instead you know exactly what the score is and are clearly not going to stand for it! Good for you!!! With an attitude like that you will kick PNI up the butt really soon!!

Hope you have a lovely time on Fri night with your mate - have a couple of cocktails - you deserve it! xx

WG xx

[sianyc]

Hi

It's good your mum and mil know about it. It puts the pressure on him to get help and NEVER do it again.

Glad you're feeling stronger x

[beckah]

Hi mate

Just been catching up. How you feeling? Sounds like you've been having a difficult time, but you're doing so well. Glad you're showing your OH that you won't put up with it, will hopefully mean he sorts himself out.

Hope you have a good night with your mate, you deserve it xxxx

[sarahjane]

Thanks everyone,your support means so much to me x x x well went out friday,got my self very drunk,had a laugh but drinking so much wine on my meds wasnt a good idea,i ended up being really sick when i got home my lo's doing really well,it will be her 1st birthday on 17th april! So we are all looking forward to that.Still having up & down days been having some intrusive thoughts lately,but not as much as usual,sorry havent been online much ive had so much trouble with my internet lately.Hope your all doing well x x

[sarahjane]

Thanks everyone,your support means so much to me x x x well went out friday,got my self very drunk,had a laugh but drinking so much wine on my meds wasnt a good idea,i ended up being really sick when i got home my lo's doing really well,it will be her 1st birthday on 17th april! So we are all looking forward to that.Still having up & down days been having some intrusive thoughts lately,but not as much as usual,sorry havent been online much ive had so much trouble with my internet lately.Hope your all doing well x x

[beckah]

My little girl was one last week.... where does the time go? Glad you're feeling positive and looking forward xxxxxxxxx

[winegirl]

Hi SJ

Glad you had a good night out (apart from the being sick part!). Do you have any plans for LO's birthday at all?? My advice is not to spend too much money - my LO loved her balloon and the candles on the cake and that was it!

Hope today has been ok for you??

WG x

[sarahjane]

Hiya WG,beckah hope you are both ok,sorry for such a late reply,my lo's got another cold at the mo,so been really busy with her. Ive been doing so well lately ive had little blips here and there but nothing to bad also my lo's got to see the dietician tomorrow at hospital to discuse her allergy and when i can introduce her to dairy. On her birthday we are all just going to have a family get together,do her a little party,i spend money on things she needs but my auntie is terrible with buying lots of toys

[sarahjane]

Also me and my oh seem to be getting along at the mo,he knows if he does it again i will kick his arse! Lol! im still on my same dose meds im not ready to wean of them just yet,maybe one day lol! Il let you's know how tomorrow goes with lo. P.s beckah im on facebook if you would like to add me,im sarah jane richardson. X x

[winegirl]

Hey hun

How did it go with the dietican today???

WG xx