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Post by winegirl on Dec 23, 2009 9:36:20 GMT
Hi Hun
People STILL amaze me with their ignorant attitudes to mental health - if you had a broken leg the sympathy would be there, but because they cant see what is wrong with you, or it doesnt make sense, it gets dismissed.
I am so sorry that you have had to put up with this sort of attitude. Try not to think about it over the next few days and just enjoy your own family Christmas hun..
Take Care
WG xx
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Post by sianyc on Dec 24, 2009 9:48:57 GMT
Her attitude really pisses me off and unfortunately it seems to be quite common.
It almost makes me wish mental illness on her.....just for a few days so she knows what it's like!
Try not to let her ignorance set you back. You are a far better person than she is x
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Post by sazzythom on Dec 26, 2009 23:38:47 GMT
Well Christmas went well. Was so tired after it all though. Cooking for 8 people is not that easy. Would have never made it in the hospitality indusrty. Christmas day went almost with out a hitch that was until my sister(who's not known for being the most cheerful of people) decided that she was bored sitting round watching my daughter open her presents that she suddenly became evr so ill. like she was going to die or something. So i agreed to take her home. becuase if i didn't she was going to ruin the day. Then the damn car wouldn't start then when i got it started some idiot came to quick down the road and ploughed staright into the side of me. Breaking my thumb and giving me whiplash. So i spent christmas day evening sat in the A & E. Went to bed quite late but slept like a log and my husband switched my alarm and let me sleep. My parents came around again today and they had brought my daughter omne of those motorised scooter things and she loves it!! We've been out round the block in it and i've taken lots of video on my new camera my husband brought me. I ache slightly tonight but i'm not sure whether thats due to the crash or the Wii that i brought my husband for xmas.
Today was quite a bad day for me though. Athough i been trying to keep cheerfull for my family i did break down a few times. I just wonder whether i did too much yesterday. I've been in tears a few times and feeling really paranoid and low. Not feeling so confident today. Just wondering if my brothers wife is right and maybe i can help what i'm feeling??? Is it just a matter of positive thinking? Do i ust imagine what i feel how i feel how i think?? One thing i have noticed is my OCD is getting worse. I had the hoover out yesterday for 2 hours although i'd spent 3 hours doing it the day before. Things like the presents being the right way round and symetrical both side of the tree as well. I think i may need to speak to my GP. Even my husband has noticed. Which means its been quite bad because its usually very subtle things.
I've noticed as this has got worse my obsetional thoughts have been harder to get rid off. Then on top of that the flashbacks have started up again and last night i had the most awfull night terror i spent most of the night having panic attacks which prob hasn't helped my mood or tiredness today. I just feel like its one thing after another and wonder when its going to end. Has anyone got any experiance of how long it can take to get over it??
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Post by sianyc on Dec 29, 2009 18:51:42 GMT
I honestly think that this time of year causes blips - it's one of my theories :-) The stress and pressure of getting everything organised and perfect is too much.
It takes a while to get your head round the fact that you need to take it easier and not rush round like a nutter. Even now (youngest is 4) when I do too much, I'll get a few off days afterwards. Not as intense as PNI could be but like a reminder to slow down a bit x
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Post by monica on Dec 30, 2009 9:47:46 GMT
Blimey poor you! How is your thumb and back! I'm not suprised you're feeling low - having to cater for so many, then being ploughed into and having to go to A&E - all of which are hugely stressful situations. Did the panic attacks start after the accident? If so it's probably the stress of the past few days.
How ar eyou today?
Monica
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Post by winegirl on Dec 30, 2009 14:25:16 GMT
Yes, hope having got through the festive period you are feeling less stressed now??
WG xx
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Post by sazzythom on Dec 30, 2009 21:32:05 GMT
Hi All
Yeah feeling much better tody. Spent all day yesterday in bed and either crying or laughing. Dragged myself out of bed today and went over to my parents and did some retail therapy. Talked to my mum about how i've been feeling and how paranoid i've been. She suggested seeing my GP and hope she can get me to see my psyciatrist. So i've made an appointment.
But today i started wondering wether these mood swings could be a good thing are they trying to tell me something so i brought a test and it was POSITIVE!!!!!
I'M PREGNANT!!! I can't believe it and i'm so excited. I guess give me a couple of days for it to sink in and then the fear will kick in and prob be quite worried about it all but at the moment i'm trying to just enjoy it. According to nhs online i'm due in august so could be a double birthday for my DD.
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Post by winegirl on Dec 31, 2009 8:51:18 GMT
CONGRATULATIONS Hun!!!!!!
So pleased for you.. at least those raging hormones can answer some of your mood too!
Sending you all the best for a happy healthy pregnancy xxx
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Post by sazzythom on Jan 1, 2010 2:19:43 GMT
Hi Wine Girl
Thanks . We are really pleased at the moment but i reckon the worrying won't be too far behind. I'm already worrying about miscarrige and sickness. I guess thats because they were the biggest threats last time round. Today i've had a lazy day with just sitting a lot and doing very little. I did manage to finish a cardigan i was knitting for the prem unit i donate to. After my daughter was born early i've been trying to knit as much as i can so that other parents going throughit can have the stress of finding clothes that fit put to the bottom of the list and they can concentrate on getting baby and themselves better. I guess i should think about what i'd like to make for our new addition. I know its ages away yet but time fkies and i don't wanna stop helping the unit.
Had a nice new year in this year with my husband and a takeaway. Nice and quiet after all the raging hormones i've had the last few days. My thumb and neck are still killing me aand now i can't take anything but paracetomal. Arrrrggggh.
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Post by monica on Jan 1, 2010 11:56:03 GMT
Huge congratulations onyour pregnancy! How exciting! Take iteasy or as muchas you can. So nowyou have a probably reason for how you're feeling. Glad you enjoyed NYE and whata way to start the new year.
Knittingfor the prem unit is such a lovely thing to do.
Love
Monica
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Post by sazzythom on Jan 5, 2010 19:25:43 GMT
Well i've just got home from 3 day stay at the local hospital. I was crippled with pain and bleeding. They thought i had an eptopic pregnancy but lickily i haven't. pregnancy in right place but its not growing properly so going to have to have a scan every few weeks and they will decide if and when to take it out. So another high risk pegnancy with lots of intervention from professional.
I have noticed that i feel so tired all the time. I didn't feel like this with my last time so think its the pni as well started to feel a bit low whilst in hospital and had a few panic attacks. I see my GP on fri so hoping she can get me an appointment to see my psycatrist.
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Post by winegirl on Jan 5, 2010 19:29:47 GMT
Sorry to hear that hun. Just hang in there, take everything one day at a time, and be kind to yourself. I hope you get that appt on friday.. let us know how you get on?
Here and thinking of you x
WG xx
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Post by sazzythom on Jan 8, 2010 18:24:37 GMT
Well been to the doctors today but not really feeling any better. She has said thats she's going to fax my psyhciastrist to get me an appointment to discuss my meds. I'm really not happy about being on all the drugs i'm on whilst being pregnant. But i guess i can't do anything about that i'm led by the professionals.
The GP did an unrine test because of the pain i've got and she found blood in my urine but i'm not sure what that means. I'm so worried that i'm going to loose this baby and now haveing blood in my urine i'm sure i am. I think i'll have a google to see what it all means. But not sure thats a good idea. Did anyone here have blood in their urine?? Did they do anything about it? What happened?
I hate not knowing what 's happeneing to my body. I've got a scan booked on the 14th so i really hope that shows everything is normalArrrrgggggghhhhh I feel so low. i JUST WANT TO KNOW EVERYTHING IS OK AND GOING TO BE. If one more person says don't worry i'm going to scream!!!
I feel like all i do is moan but i can't help it. I'm so worried and i'm not getting any answers from anyone.
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Post by winegirl on Jan 9, 2010 16:15:36 GMT
Its horrible when you know there is a problem but are unsure of what it is and what the outcome is. Hopefully on the 14th you can have some answers and some relief!
Let us know how you get on, and we are thinking fo you xx
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Post by monica on Jan 10, 2010 7:44:36 GMT
Hi
So sorry for what you're going through! You are under so much stress it's hardly suprising you're not feeling good yourself.
I had blood in my urine and it was causedby cystitis. Perhaps as you've been bleeding a bit of blood got into the sample? Dont' google the symptoms - it will come up with some horrific illness - if you google cold symptoms it will come out with some sort of cancer!!!
it's so frustrating being in limbo land - one second you despair the next you're full of hope. Take each day as it comes and try not to think about the future.
Lots of love and hugs
Monica
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