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Post by yoyo on Jun 12, 2006 11:32:48 GMT
Hope you get a call - that's way out of line!!!
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Post by sarajay28 on Jun 12, 2006 13:26:19 GMT
Oh no hannah, that is way out of order. You can't choose your family eh? Hope the day gets better for you
Loadsa Love
Sarah.xxx
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Post by hannah457 on Jun 13, 2006 6:36:22 GMT
feeling really anxious, my chest is tight. im going to try going on the bus into town on my own today. really worried i might end up panicking on the bus and making a real scene, cant stand it when people stare at me as if im mad. anyway got to feed peter xx
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Post by marion on Jun 13, 2006 6:49:43 GMT
Hi hannah I hate catching the bus too with Chloe - makes me really anxious but she's alwyas fine and doesnt cry or anything and it's never as bad as I think it's going to be. Take your time. Love Marion.
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Post by hannah457 on Jun 13, 2006 19:42:38 GMT
i went on the bus into town, coped really well. but when i was in the queue at the post office i felt a panic coming on but i managed to fight it. really agitated tonight and i dont know why.
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Post by hannah457 on Jun 14, 2006 16:41:47 GMT
really tired, woke up about 6 times in the night then had to get up for the kids so I'm completely exhausted. was at sure start from 1pm today as it was the second pni session. it went really well, had a new member join today so that was exciting knowing the group has started to get recognized by mums.
hoping for a early night but we will see.
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Post by hannah457 on Jun 15, 2006 14:24:30 GMT
been to the doctors today, Ive had my tablets put up to 125Mg's as she felt i needed that extra bit. I'm finding today hard. had a smear done with the nurse as i was over due for one and i ended up having a flashback of my rape and i started to panic. i felt really sick, luckily the nurse knew about my rape as the doctor had told her, it was in case i had a bad panic attack then the doctor would of helped me through it.the doctor has given me the number for the womens rape crisis centre so i can talk to some else about it and get more help. Ive phoned them and they have put me on the waiting list for someone to come out and see me. i also phoned my cpn as i felt i needed her to come out. i told her about what triggered my panic off and she said that was to be expected. my cpn is coming out to see me tomorrow cos she couldn't come out today as she is really busy.
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Post by marion on Jun 17, 2006 15:16:52 GMT
Did you have a nice birthday Hannah? How're things today? Love Marion.
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Post by hannah457 on Jun 18, 2006 14:15:17 GMT
had a brill birthday with lots of pressies and cards ;D ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- feeling ok today, been good since my doc incresed my tablets by 25mgs and took me of my diazipams. martins enjoying it cos its first fathers day with pj. pj has got a chest infection but he is ok in himself, the other to are ok they been behaving a lot better since ive been calmer.
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Post by hannah457 on Jun 20, 2006 19:58:35 GMT
had a good day. cpn was suppose to come to see me today but couldn't due to car trouble so it rescheduled for next Friday. went into town on the bus, was very anxious but i managed the bus trip without panicking. managed to do everything i needed to do then came home again. kids have been brill so no complains there.
feeling really good!!
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Post by cheshire on Jun 20, 2006 21:35:37 GMT
That's greatxx
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Post by hannah457 on Jun 22, 2006 13:27:25 GMT
feeling really low. i was up most of the night being sick so not really slept well. finally went to sleep about 3ish this morning. really tired and really tearful today. feel like crying
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Post by marion on Jun 22, 2006 19:05:00 GMT
Hope you're feeling a little beter hannah - well done for going on the bus by the way - I hate doing that! Love Marion.
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Post by hannah457 on Jun 25, 2006 11:54:19 GMT
feeling so low today. heads spinning and i feel really ill. just want to scream at the top of my lungs or break down and cry. martin not to good today, he seems really low and tearful too. i think my illness is effecting him more than i realized. i hate being like this, i hate the strain it causing in our relationship i want our relationship to be back to happy times. not the crap it is now. i love all my children to bits but sometimes i wish that i never had them so i wouldn't be feeling this low and tearful all the time. even getting up in a morning is getting harder each day. i want to hide under my blankets and let the world just fade away around me. i hate the noise the kids keep making and i fell myself get stressed out by it more when usually the noise doesn't bother me. i hate feeling so resentful to wards the kids but i cant help it at the moment. i just want to be free of this illness
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Post by marion on Jun 25, 2006 13:36:08 GMT
HI hannah I'm having a bad day too so am sending you a hug filled with sympathy. Not sure if it will help but I'm thinking of you today. I worry how much pni effects MArk too - he trys to be strong but he must be running out of resources. Take care Love Marion.
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