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Post by chelle2467 on Jan 26, 2008 13:06:40 GMT
well today has been a good one last night BOTH the kids went out to their grandparents. my inlaws walked through the door and promptly told us they had decided they werent going to take sophie. i looked erally annoyed at that point and they asked what the matter with me was. I told them that we were expecting them to take her like they had told us they would as i was in desperate need of a break. i havent slept properly for 5 months. they grudgingly took her with them, thankfully. when i told them that they couldnt bring the kids back though until after 1pm, FIL made the point very clear that it would be as early and as close as possible to 1pm. Yeah thanks, that makes me feel like you really want to be with my children. I had to go and sort out the guinea pigs though, which iwhy i said that time. I havent even started on the house here yet. Trev has been out all morning and wont beback till lat tonight. he has been in Llandidnod Wells all day at a conference meeting i think. (no idea!!) Well today i am worried about whether or not my friend is going to appreciate what i have done. (as i said yesterday, my paranoia is back so i get worried over little things like this). I have been feeding the guinea pigs and fish for 3 weeks now. (not including over xmas) her MIL died a couple weeks ago, which is why i have been doing it. i know she has been through a really rough time, so i have bought her some fresh milk and bread so she can put her feet up and relax with toast and coffee!!! I have also got her a magazine to look through while relaxing and me and jamie are going to make her a small box set of fairy cakes because jamie loves to cook with me!! do you think she will appreciate it???
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Post by cheshire on Jan 26, 2008 19:23:47 GMT
Definitely think she'll appreciate that!! My comfort thing is hot buttered toast (lashings) and at least 2 cups of tea. Throw in a trashy magazine and I'm happy Glad you had a better dayx
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Post by chelle2467 on Jan 31, 2008 10:46:43 GMT
today is ok so far. i have had a lie in till 10am, but got kicked out of bed so trev could go in - he is on rota this afternoon at playgroup!! im just glad i dont have to do it. I found a lovely place yesterday that we could move into. We have to speak to our housing officer first though, and i am going to go and see another letting agency in town to get more options so i will see how things go. here is the place i was looking at - it is the one just above the bottom at £130 a week www.aberalp.co.uk/list.htmli havent posted much recently as i am really struggling to think of anything to type. most of the things going through my head recently are "im so tired" and.... well that is about it really!! we are constantly arguing about who is going to get sleep and who looks after the kids. not all the time i might add, we are finding time now to be happy and play but then we both get tired and stressed again cos real life kicks back in.
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Post by chelle2467 on Jan 31, 2008 12:14:00 GMT
i got my appointment through today from the mental health team. im not looking forawrd to it as i have just remembered about the last time ihad an appointment with them. i was severely depressed while pregnant with jamie and it took them months to get to me. they finally had an appointment for me, but i was on the maternity ward at that point, with pre-eclampsia. i dont think the guy was very impressed at having to come out to me to start with, then he fobbed me off with "it is all in your head. its just your pregnancy hormones, i will call you after you have had hte baby" i never heard from them again. I asked my health visitor a couple of months down the line if he had heard anythingf rm them and he said that written on my file was the conformation they had closed and finished my case. I was furious. 4 years later, here i am again. Trev has promised to be with me.
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Post by Scarlet on Jan 31, 2008 15:20:21 GMT
Hi Chelle,
Sorry about what happened with the mental health team before, that is appalling really. When's your appt for hun?
Scarlet xx
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Post by chelle2467 on Feb 1, 2008 14:41:53 GMT
feb 8th at 1pm. it is the day before we leave for london Sophie had me and trev both up last night. she wouldnt stop screaming, then fell asleep in my arms for about 15 mins. She woke herself up and i figured her teeth were playing up so gave her bonjela and calpol. t usually works. but she just wouldnt stop screaming and screeching. i ended up taking her downstairs to get her some more solids at about 11pm and 2 mins later she vomited everywhere. it was actually quite impressive. I was almost in tears, but still couldnt believe how much her tiny stomach could hold. It was like someone had turned a tap on. Trev says she was still going when i went up to get loo roll. he says is must have been about 10 seconds before she stopped throwing up. i know that doesnt sound like a long time, but when the entire contents of your babys stomach and mroe possibly is jumping out of her mouth, it is avery long time!! We gave her a bath quickly, i was still trying not to cry and was blaming myself. i went back to bed and trev settled her with him downstairs. she woke a few more times int eh night and i must have had no more than 4 hours kip last night. I ended up coming home from dropping jamie off at playgroup and coming back to bed for 3 hours!!! we now have the bouncy chair cover soaking in the bath (no washing machine) but thankfully she has just started eating in the highchair
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Post by winegirl on Feb 1, 2008 18:07:06 GMT
Hi Chelle
Sorry Sophie was so poorly hun. Sounds like a bit of a tummy bug babes. How is she doing this afternoon? How are you, you managed to get any rest at all?
Hope you have a lovely time in London hun, and will catch up when you get back x
WG x
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Post by chelle2467 on Feb 5, 2008 19:51:36 GMT
i had my hair cut today. i have been needing it fpr almost a year now and i finally got it done - £7 it cost me!!! i was really impressed. especially as the last one was just over £25!!!
My back is killing me again today. right at the bottom. i have no idea what i have done to it, but it has been like this, only getting worse, for the last 2 days now.
Mum has really upset me aswell. She was meant to have the kids over the easter holidays for a week. I dont know about any other place, but wales have their holiday here from 21 march till 6th april (a friday till a sunday). mum wasnt told dates, but somehow got it into her head that she could have them the week before they break up. My step dad took time off work and they both assumed we knew the dates. when i told her she couldnt have them on those dates, si would have to sort out different time off, she went ballistic at me down the phone and told me to "hit your husband for me" i had a chat with trev, yelling a little cos iwas really annoyed, under the impression he had given her the wrong dates, but he hadnt given any at all. so i apologised, as i should. He has spoken to mum and the kids are not going down now as Si cant get time off work again, he has to keep the holiday he already has. (he has 2 weeks off and one of those weeks covers while the kids are off school). Trev suggested she come up fo a week but we were told "si doesnt like me to travel alone". he then suggested si bring her up and come back for her a week later. "ooh i dont know what hewould say about that, he is really busy and has alot to do while he is off". i have ben 2nd best to other people with her since i was about 14 and i am sick of it. both me and trev are sick of the excuses now. we have said to each other that if she comes back with excuses such as "si doesnt want......... blah blah fricking blah" then i will just tell her that we obviouslt mean that much to her, we are so important that we can tell she is trying her hardest to come and see her daughter and only grand children. the thing that gets me is that no matter how much crap HIS daughter gives them and no matter how angry and annoyed they are with her, so much that they cant even be in the same room as her, they still manage to forgive her and let her carry on living with them (she has moved out now thank god - i was fed up of the whiny calls from mum) yet he wont let her come up to HER family (im assuming of course) basically what si wants, he gets. what a great role model i have for a mother!!!!!
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Post by chelle2467 on Feb 5, 2008 23:04:12 GMT
i am really tired at the moment (arent i always haha), but have been doing some pictures of the kids for facebook. i really want to share these photos with you all as iam so proud of both my children. I cant believe i actually made these people. they are real himan beings that came out of me and i am responsible for them. For turning them into decent, well-mannered, all round social adults. Man, thats scary. And no, i havent just realised that -i have these sudden random thoughts going through my head. I hope no-one minds, but i had one as i was sat here staring at my computer screen, so just decided to type! i watch sophie sometimes and still cant understand that she is here, she is alive and she looks exactly like me. i love watching trev play with her. he has always wanted a daughter. his famiy dont make girls, they only do boys as it were!! sophs is the 3rd girl born into his bloodline in over 100 years at least. the first is now 21. Jamie is my babi boy and always will be. I keep forgetting he is only 4 (well he will be 4 on valentines day!!) so sometimes i try to treat him as if he was older. but he is so well behaved in public. i really am proud as to how they have both turned out so far, even if sophs is only 7 and a half months and still cant be bothered to roll over!! (she is now 17lb 1.5oz btw, but has a fungal infection on her girly bits. we have a tube of daktarin we have to use for the next 2 weeks or so. it has come from thenappy rash she got in december from the cheap tesco nappies we used once) well here are those pics - i hope you enjoy them www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=13152&l=7c26e&id=592577843
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Post by chelle2467 on Feb 8, 2008 15:00:52 GMT
Well i have just got back from my assessment. it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be. thankfully they dont have anything to do with gorwellion at all (the mental health team that mucked both me and trev around) so that makes me feel alot happier. he will get hold ofme in a while to let me know when my next appointment is, so fingers crossed!!
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Post by gizmoracer on Feb 8, 2008 16:29:59 GMT
Glad today went well. I have been nosing at your facebook photos, they are so cute. I wish I had taken more pics of my 2 together when they were that small.
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Post by winegirl on Feb 8, 2008 20:12:45 GMT
Hi Chelle
Just chcked out your facebook photos, they are fab! What beautiful children you have x
I am glad the assesment went well and hope the next one goes ok too.
Take Care
WG x
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Post by chelle2467 on Feb 14, 2008 15:00:04 GMT
Well i havent been on for a while because i have been down in london sonce saturday morning!!! It was great fun - even if i did get paranoid most days and have quite a few panic attacks!! I wont be able to post up much about it now as i have a friend who has just arrived, but i will come on later!!!
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Post by chelle2467 on Feb 19, 2008 10:25:12 GMT
yesterday was a bad day. it got so bad i ended up with 2 naps. by the time it came to taking my tablet, i was feeling really really really low. 3 minutes after taking it i had gone the complete opposite way - and was talking complete nonsense!!! i wish i could write how london went, but i honestly cant remember!! on the upside, i have another appointment with the councillor. friday 29th feb.
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Post by chelle2467 on Feb 20, 2008 10:17:47 GMT
today is another very bad day. i am falling asleep everywhere, i am snapping at jamie (granted he keeps asking 'why why why why why why......' to everything) and it is just one in a line of bad days the last few days. My tablets still arent working, and i have my 2nd appointment with the councillor in feb 29th. We have ahousing appointment this monday coming, so im keeping my fingers crossed - not that it would do any good. the bloke keeps offering us places that are just completely ridiculous. 25 miles out, right in the mountains, when neither of us drive, seriously, which idiot thought of placing us there. my mum has decided she is allowed to come up over easter, but she just announced it by saying "when i come up...." I have just phoned her to ask the dates and she has informed me that Si hasnt decided on the dates yet. For crying out loud, easter is in 4 weeks time. She is on her way to the doctrs at the moment, walking, and told me she is really struggling. ok fair enough, but as for a bloody lift off a friend or something. She has ME and cant walk far but still insists on doing everything as she used to before she fell ill. Thats the kind of thing that gives me less sympathy for her.
Sophie is now i hte habit of waking at 4am every morning, despite us trying to feed her up before bedtime. I think she is a mixture of hungry and wanting to see me. She will be 8 months tomorrow so i was hoping she wouldnt be doing this now. But i guess all kids are different!! She is fast asleep right now, thank god. Jamie is sat here watching bob the builder, being good for once!! Trev is out leafletting. He is trying to become a county councillor for one of the wards round the corner but it involves so much work atm as he started so late. Its completely mental here!! Jamie has to have another operation aswell now. Well 2 ops. One for his ear possibly and we requested one on his belly button. He had a hernia operation in nov 2006 to remove an umbilical hernia. The doc was meant to tuck in the flap of skin aswell, but never. the consultant was not impressed. He promised us that if it had not sorted itself in 12 months then he would book us another op. We are pleased because although it means a month of pain for jamie, it saves a possible few years of bullying for his "abnormal" belly button. I would know - i was bullied from the age of 3 till i was 18. he may even need a hearing aid as he has fluid in one of his ears where air should be and he is almost deaf in the other ear. it doesnt look like it, but he has adapted so you cant tell sometimes. Poor kid has only just turned 4. He is also meant to start school on april 7th but we havent had the letter through for the induction. Oh and sophie might have an umbilical hernia too. we were fobbed off by thehealth visitor, i was told that it is normal for her belly to be like that, but we arent convinced. she is showing hte same signs jamie did at his age. we will wait a couple months and get it checked at her 9 month chcek - which was when amies was diagnosed *sigh* the life of a parent!!
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