Post by chelle2467 on Jan 11, 2008 16:54:02 GMT
Hi
Ok, as i am having a good day today i decided to start my diary. I named it my corner because i just like to hide away sometimes and sod the rest of the world. I feel comfortable in my corner!!
Right now im having to type this in the semi-dark while Sophie, my 6 month old daughter, tries to get to sleep on a blanket on the floor. I would take her up but trev (my husband) and Jamie, our 3 year old son, are both up there as Jamie is ill at the moment.
Well where do i begin?
Right, our family consists of me, my husband Trev and our two adorable children, Jamie and Sophie. They love each other to bits, even though sophs is at that "eye-gouging, hair pulling, nose poking" stage. We live together in a one bedroomed flat on the 2nd and 3rd floor of an old converted building. i think our front room would have been a bedroom at one point. We have to climb 4 flights of stairs to get to our front door and there is another set of stairs inside the flat. (its better than the last place -we were in a studio flat when jamie was born!!)
I have always been a bit of a strange person!! I only had a few close friends and they dwindled off as school got further and further on. I have a huge problem trusting people, even trev, because i had such a hard time as a child / teen where i would trust someone and they would throw it back in my face. Now i use comedy as a canvas to block my real feelings. only 2 people know how i realy feel most of the time and that is trev and my best friend. She lives hundreds of miles away in scotland and we havent met properly before but we are so close that she is even going to be godmother to Sophs in may.
MY BACKGROUND
Me and trev havent really had it easy the last 5 years, i will admit. We move in together "officially" in may 2003 and then i was pregnant a couple of weeks later with Jamie. we decided to move to wales to raise the baby (we were living in wiltshire at the time in the town i grew up in) so ended up moving a month earlier than planned, as i fell ill with the pregnancy. i get really sick when pregnant so i was trapped 160 miles from home at trevs parents house which didnt help as they are 4 miles from town and i couldnt get in the car as it was summer, dont travel well as it is and was vomiting what felt like every half an hour!!!
we were homeless through Jamies pregnancy for 4 months, and finally got a place of our own when i was 6 months gone. Things seemed ok untill about 4 weeks before my due date. I mentioned to my midwife that trev and his dad had been teasing me about my "hobbit" feet, so she had a look and told me to pack a night bag and get to the hospital for about 2pm that afternoon. I wasnt too worried, pre-eclampsia was mentioned but as i had been focused on where we would be living and where our next meal would be coming from (aged 19 btw) i had just continued to do so even when we had a place of our own. I ended up staying in for 6 days, until they finally decided to induce me as the situation seemed to be getting a little worse each day. Jamie was born 3 weeks early weighing in at 4lb 14oz, after a 5 hour 35 minute labour.
i was really depressed when I had Jamie. Not the normal "baby blues" but it was so bad i would just want to lie in bed all day. thankfully trev was at work all day and as our front room and bedroom were all in one, i was technically still in the front room so didnt see a problem!! y health visitor was an arse and he didnt like young people. Bearing in mind he was a local councillor for the welsh party (plaid cymru) and wrote intot eh lcal paper that students shouldnt be allowed to vote as they couldnt even spell the county we are in (this is a main student town, the uni is massive). He made it quite clear to us he wasnt keen on young parents as he would blabber on for what seemed like hours about crap and then said that we had to follow the book on everything for Jamie. He even told trev at his work one day that he thought i was extremely childish and i needed to start bonding with Jamie (who was about 2 or 3 months at the time). That was mainly because when jamie had his injections a few days before i had started to laugh a little - maninly because of hte depression and the non bond yet. After a few months things got better between me and jamie. mainly because we stopped goingt o see teh health visitor.
2 and a half years later we finally decided to try for another baby (thinking we would get moved from this place into a new one -haha that was a good joke) it took only 4 months and 3 tries to fall pregnant!! 2007 was hell on earth for me. I was so ill over xmas 2006 that jamie had to go 160 miles down to my mums and miss the last 2 weeks of playgroup. It wasnt too much of a problem as mum was coming up for xmas anyway. I was put on 3 different anti-sickness pills before they found one that worked. I ended up in bed for 36 hours not holding anything down, not even water. In january things looked up a little. i wasnt bed-ridden and i was still vomiting every morning, afternoon and teatime, but i could go outside and walk around, go shopping. Trev had just gotten over his depression and suicidal thoughts so he was able to help me and support me again. When i had my scan at 19 weeks, it was discovered the babys kidneys were dilated. That meant 4 weekly scans for that and to keep an eye on her size as Jamie was born so small. We went to the scans and the kidneys were getting bigger, when the sex was determined as a girl i got really stroppy and nasty to trev (he wanted a girl, i was determined i was having a boy!!) and i was still vomiting badly every day and half the night. At 29 weeks, she decided to try and make an apperance so I was given steroids just in case she arrived. Thankfully she stayed put and i was released a couple of days later. i was in the maternity ward every other weekend from then onwards with pre-eclampsia problems. while still having 4 weekly scans!! At 36 weeks i was admitted offically until the baby arrived. The same deal as with Jamie. it turned out that i should have been admitted that weekend but as i had mentioned in passing to the midwife i was going out with my friend for her birthday to a tapas bar. She let me go out and as i was going back the day after to drop off a 24 hour urine sample they could get me then!!
I was told to go choose a bed and i managed to get the same one i had when i was in having Jamie. i stayed there (by myself as the ward was more or less empty most of the time) for about 8 or 9 days, having blood tests most days, scans almost daily and i was on the ctg monitor about 3 times a day!! they finally decided to induce me as things werent going down again and Jamie fell ill with chicken pox. my mum was rushed up to wales to lok after jamie and trev came into hospital with be with me. I was in labour all day, i had a drip put into my hand "just in case" and after my waters broke, they brought me from the bathroom into a side room to check me over. they told me i was 2cm dilated (after being in agony for 8 and a half hours) and gave me a shot of pethadine and a canister of gas and air. 39 minutes later i decided i needed to push. the midwife said that she would be surprised if i weas going to push this early but checked me over anyway. as she bent down to get ready, apparently trev says she yelled OH MY GOD THERES A HEAD QUICK EVERYONE GET READY!!! sophie shot out of me after 2 pushes and weighed only 5lb 12oz.
sophs came home after 2 days and her kidneys ended up all ok. unfortunately she has been ill on and off since birth and we dont know why. thankfully jamie gets on really well with her and she has now gotten used to him.
well that was alot longer than i expected. im sorry if i have bored you all to sleep!!
Ok, as i am having a good day today i decided to start my diary. I named it my corner because i just like to hide away sometimes and sod the rest of the world. I feel comfortable in my corner!!
Right now im having to type this in the semi-dark while Sophie, my 6 month old daughter, tries to get to sleep on a blanket on the floor. I would take her up but trev (my husband) and Jamie, our 3 year old son, are both up there as Jamie is ill at the moment.
Well where do i begin?
Right, our family consists of me, my husband Trev and our two adorable children, Jamie and Sophie. They love each other to bits, even though sophs is at that "eye-gouging, hair pulling, nose poking" stage. We live together in a one bedroomed flat on the 2nd and 3rd floor of an old converted building. i think our front room would have been a bedroom at one point. We have to climb 4 flights of stairs to get to our front door and there is another set of stairs inside the flat. (its better than the last place -we were in a studio flat when jamie was born!!)
I have always been a bit of a strange person!! I only had a few close friends and they dwindled off as school got further and further on. I have a huge problem trusting people, even trev, because i had such a hard time as a child / teen where i would trust someone and they would throw it back in my face. Now i use comedy as a canvas to block my real feelings. only 2 people know how i realy feel most of the time and that is trev and my best friend. She lives hundreds of miles away in scotland and we havent met properly before but we are so close that she is even going to be godmother to Sophs in may.
MY BACKGROUND
Me and trev havent really had it easy the last 5 years, i will admit. We move in together "officially" in may 2003 and then i was pregnant a couple of weeks later with Jamie. we decided to move to wales to raise the baby (we were living in wiltshire at the time in the town i grew up in) so ended up moving a month earlier than planned, as i fell ill with the pregnancy. i get really sick when pregnant so i was trapped 160 miles from home at trevs parents house which didnt help as they are 4 miles from town and i couldnt get in the car as it was summer, dont travel well as it is and was vomiting what felt like every half an hour!!!
we were homeless through Jamies pregnancy for 4 months, and finally got a place of our own when i was 6 months gone. Things seemed ok untill about 4 weeks before my due date. I mentioned to my midwife that trev and his dad had been teasing me about my "hobbit" feet, so she had a look and told me to pack a night bag and get to the hospital for about 2pm that afternoon. I wasnt too worried, pre-eclampsia was mentioned but as i had been focused on where we would be living and where our next meal would be coming from (aged 19 btw) i had just continued to do so even when we had a place of our own. I ended up staying in for 6 days, until they finally decided to induce me as the situation seemed to be getting a little worse each day. Jamie was born 3 weeks early weighing in at 4lb 14oz, after a 5 hour 35 minute labour.
i was really depressed when I had Jamie. Not the normal "baby blues" but it was so bad i would just want to lie in bed all day. thankfully trev was at work all day and as our front room and bedroom were all in one, i was technically still in the front room so didnt see a problem!! y health visitor was an arse and he didnt like young people. Bearing in mind he was a local councillor for the welsh party (plaid cymru) and wrote intot eh lcal paper that students shouldnt be allowed to vote as they couldnt even spell the county we are in (this is a main student town, the uni is massive). He made it quite clear to us he wasnt keen on young parents as he would blabber on for what seemed like hours about crap and then said that we had to follow the book on everything for Jamie. He even told trev at his work one day that he thought i was extremely childish and i needed to start bonding with Jamie (who was about 2 or 3 months at the time). That was mainly because when jamie had his injections a few days before i had started to laugh a little - maninly because of hte depression and the non bond yet. After a few months things got better between me and jamie. mainly because we stopped goingt o see teh health visitor.
2 and a half years later we finally decided to try for another baby (thinking we would get moved from this place into a new one -haha that was a good joke) it took only 4 months and 3 tries to fall pregnant!! 2007 was hell on earth for me. I was so ill over xmas 2006 that jamie had to go 160 miles down to my mums and miss the last 2 weeks of playgroup. It wasnt too much of a problem as mum was coming up for xmas anyway. I was put on 3 different anti-sickness pills before they found one that worked. I ended up in bed for 36 hours not holding anything down, not even water. In january things looked up a little. i wasnt bed-ridden and i was still vomiting every morning, afternoon and teatime, but i could go outside and walk around, go shopping. Trev had just gotten over his depression and suicidal thoughts so he was able to help me and support me again. When i had my scan at 19 weeks, it was discovered the babys kidneys were dilated. That meant 4 weekly scans for that and to keep an eye on her size as Jamie was born so small. We went to the scans and the kidneys were getting bigger, when the sex was determined as a girl i got really stroppy and nasty to trev (he wanted a girl, i was determined i was having a boy!!) and i was still vomiting badly every day and half the night. At 29 weeks, she decided to try and make an apperance so I was given steroids just in case she arrived. Thankfully she stayed put and i was released a couple of days later. i was in the maternity ward every other weekend from then onwards with pre-eclampsia problems. while still having 4 weekly scans!! At 36 weeks i was admitted offically until the baby arrived. The same deal as with Jamie. it turned out that i should have been admitted that weekend but as i had mentioned in passing to the midwife i was going out with my friend for her birthday to a tapas bar. She let me go out and as i was going back the day after to drop off a 24 hour urine sample they could get me then!!
I was told to go choose a bed and i managed to get the same one i had when i was in having Jamie. i stayed there (by myself as the ward was more or less empty most of the time) for about 8 or 9 days, having blood tests most days, scans almost daily and i was on the ctg monitor about 3 times a day!! they finally decided to induce me as things werent going down again and Jamie fell ill with chicken pox. my mum was rushed up to wales to lok after jamie and trev came into hospital with be with me. I was in labour all day, i had a drip put into my hand "just in case" and after my waters broke, they brought me from the bathroom into a side room to check me over. they told me i was 2cm dilated (after being in agony for 8 and a half hours) and gave me a shot of pethadine and a canister of gas and air. 39 minutes later i decided i needed to push. the midwife said that she would be surprised if i weas going to push this early but checked me over anyway. as she bent down to get ready, apparently trev says she yelled OH MY GOD THERES A HEAD QUICK EVERYONE GET READY!!! sophie shot out of me after 2 pushes and weighed only 5lb 12oz.
sophs came home after 2 days and her kidneys ended up all ok. unfortunately she has been ill on and off since birth and we dont know why. thankfully jamie gets on really well with her and she has now gotten used to him.
well that was alot longer than i expected. im sorry if i have bored you all to sleep!!