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Post by winegirl on Jul 18, 2009 7:10:00 GMT
Sending hugs your way mate (()). Really hope things pick up for you soon x
Love
WG xx
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Post by larsbars on Jul 20, 2009 21:11:42 GMT
Everything was pretty crappy up to Saturday but seem to have picked up since then. Went to the Next sale on Sat morn with NO kids which was great. I always get a buzz out of getting a bargain so had a great time. That said, I only got Jamie a t-shirt and shoes, Daisy a dress and me 2 dresses which have to go back as they are the wrong shape on me. When I got home I had some lunch and chilled for a bit. I then decided to do some nail extensions on myself which took 4 hours!! Finished about 4.30 so cooked tea for kids then went up for a bath and started to get ready for wedding reception. Reception was good and had a couple of drinks, nice food and met a few friends and new people. Came home and OH was most put out that I didn't want sex. Got all huffy and went to sleep. He was pretty pissed anyway so would have trouble getting it up properly and even then he would go on for hours. No thank you...a nice cup of tea and the telly for me!
The next OH was walking round like a bear with a sore head so I just let him get on with it. I sat down and did all of my paperwork which took me all of the day but the study is all clean and tidy now and I am up to date with everything. I had a massive list of things to and haven't stopped all day getting things signed, dropping things off, buying things and picking things up but I have got so much done and and a great weight feels like it has been lifted.
Anyway....still feeling ok but after such a busy day I have tots tomorrow so am gonna come home in the afternoon and catch up with some chores and try and chill. Don't wanna burn myself out.
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Post by nicola1712 on Jul 21, 2009 10:02:57 GMT
He was pretty pissed anyway so would have trouble getting it up properly and even then he would go on for hours. No thank you...a nice cup of tea and the telly for me!
LOL - that is so us as well!! Why is they want it so bad when they are pissed and then it takes forever!!? S'ok if you are pissed too but not much fun otherwise....am soooooo glad we are on a sex ban at the moment, given that I can't drink!
Glad things are picking up for you a bit and long may it continue.
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Post by larsbars on Jul 26, 2009 11:01:45 GMT
Not a lot to report other than I came on today. The run up to it hasn't been bad. I have been feeling agitated and shouting at the kids more and OH but then I have known why so have just accepted it. I do tend to get worse after about 3 days of being on so I will just have to wait and see. I have ben feeling a lot better since I have been eating better and cutting out the crap so I gues it just goes to show. My mood just seems to have been more balanced.
Better go now cos going out noe. Will report back later.
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Post by nicola1712 on Jul 26, 2009 18:51:09 GMT
That's good! At least you can recognise the symptoms and know it is just hormonal.
I used to find if I was eating better and/or exercising then my PMT wasn't as bad as well.
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Post by winegirl on Jul 27, 2009 11:02:16 GMT
Glad you are doing good Lara xxx
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Post by sianyc on Jul 31, 2009 9:03:29 GMT
LOL re the drunken sex - I HATE it when I'm sober (ish) and he's not. Very boring and lasts too long!!
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Post by larsbars on Jul 31, 2009 14:43:19 GMT
After coming on sunday I finally came of full flow on Tuesday. I haven't felt depressed with it of anxious in an irrational kind of way but I have had the patience of a flea. I went food shopping with OH on sunday and kids and wanted to get in and out to get the bits we needed. He is a real faffer at the best of times and is alwys moaning that I spend too much money on shopping. He stands in a daydream in the way and then the other day stopped to look at tins of irish stew. I asked him what he was looking at and he said 'irish stew' I like irish stew' I really had to walk away cos I would have lost it majorly. Bloody irish bloody stew. We've been together for 12 1/2 years and he's never had it in that time. Talk about waste time and money. Anyway...this has been the extent of my irrationality over the last few days and I have been losing it with the kids really easily...but hopefully it has passed now.
I have to admit that the Marion thing has got to me. I've had rubbish sleep the last couple of nights and I only learned about it last night. Consequently today I have been thinking that what if I do it and am inagining people saying 'I only saw her the other day and seemed fine' and then the headlines in the paper. I know that with some decent sleep and time I will get over it. It's the same with the Ian Huntley thing. I kept worrying I would become a paedophile but it doesn't bother me any more. I guess it has shaken a few of us up.
I still haven't made my app with the homoeopath yet although I did try and left a message but want to do that soon to try and get the hormones under control a bit. The better diet is definitely helping though.
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Post by winegirl on Jul 31, 2009 14:47:47 GMT
Lara - I am so sorry that Marion's story has affected you like this There was discussion amongst us about posting it on here, but as Veritee rightly pointed out to me, we are a forum based on honesty and openess, and it was something I feel we had to do. But I am so terribly sorry that it has affected you like this. I do hope it passes soon mate. One thing I do know is that Marion's story had much more to it than just PP, and is an EXTREMELY rare case, one I hope I am never involved in again. Do try and rest if you are not getting enough sleep hun. And dont worry about losing your temper over the irish stew - would have puched me over the edge if my husband did that to me to be honest!! Sending you lots of love xxx WG x
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Post by larsbars on Jul 31, 2009 17:23:45 GMT
Hi WG,
I totally understand why you put the story on the website. Unfortunately it is life and we are all going to come across things like this so it is a case of just getting on with it and I know that it was Marion's life and not mine. I have been like this over other things and it does pass. I just think that it is so sad and she must have been hurting so bad. I showed my OH and he was so gutted for her LO.
Thanks for your concern and don't be sorry hun. I can laugh about the irish stew now but I would have battered OH with the tin had I got the chance.
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Post by nicola1712 on Jul 31, 2009 18:00:23 GMT
Well I am glad I am not the only one who gets irrational like that - yes that would get to me if I was in that mood as well!!
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Post by larsbars on Aug 7, 2009 20:59:29 GMT
Well I guess it's time I posted in my diary as I haven't for a while and have been meaning to.
I have been feeling so up and down lately. Mainly I am happy and plodding along with life but then I get the 'what is life all about' thought and 'why are we all here' all that crap. Unfortunately there are the questions that no-one has answers to so great if you want to really drive yourself mad. I seem to have a few good hours then think the thoughts and I am back to square 1. I am trying to keep as busy as poss. and it works for most of the time but then I relax and the thoughts are back. I have also learned that I feel extremely guilty about life. I didn't really realise it before. I always try to green where possible. Since the weather has been good I have been hanging the washing on the line or on the airer and not using the tumble dryer (this is also an atempt to save a bit of money). My washing has really caught up on me and yesterday when it rained I decided that with about 4 loads of washing to do I would use the tumble dryer. I just feel guilty about doing it. I know all about carbon emissions and what they are doing to the ozone layer and know we must all do our bit so by using the tumble dryer I know that I am not helping. Before we had kids we had no tumble dryer and all of the washing got hung on the airer but then there was a lot less of it then. Does anyone else get this guilt?? I get it with other things like the recycling. I just get extremely guilty for not doing as much as I can. I think it's a fear that if I don't the world will end (not that it would happen in my lifetime) but it's not something that would ever have phased me before. Another thing I have realised is that there ar two types of anxiety. The one where you feel anxious, are stressed, tense, uptight etc. The second one is where you think you feel fine but you have this silent anxiety working in the background. I think this is the anxiety which gets me and my therapist has said to me that she thinks I will feel a lot better once the kids are a bit older and I get a bit of my own life back.
Anyway...getting a bit tight chested now....feel knackered from stressing and feel a bit depressed but tomorrow is a new day. Going to have a cuppa some chocolate. Not too much mind...gotta the watch the calories.
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Post by cheshire on Aug 7, 2009 23:47:08 GMT
Hi Larsbars,
Hope you don't mind me interrupting? x
I was up and down for a while (long time actually), and did find the thoughts were harder to go. They seemed to take longer for me.
Re. the undercurrent of anxiety - I found this went too, when I knew they were settled and happy in school. You can almost feel it bubbling up at times, well I did.
My 'me time' was going back to work and not fretting about babies - it did help. But I also know now that I need something else - have joined a gym and enjoy shopping in markets and making fresh food. I am the original Bridget Jones (or was), but having a son with food allergies and a husband who has had a stroke, I have had to re- think.
I hope tomorrow is better for youxx
Hopefulx
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Post by bean on Aug 8, 2009 22:17:09 GMT
Hi Lara Sorry you're feeling so anxious, i too suffer anxiety (as you know) and i understand what you're saying about the different kinds. I know your therapist says it will get better when your kids are older, but has she done any work with you around anxiety. Mine did loads with me and Ive found the more i work on these strategies, the more they work. You need coping strategies on the go to help you now. Mine have definately lessened the panic attacks. Hows your night been, looked out for you on f/b. Hope youre ok lots luv bean x
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Post by nicola1712 on Aug 9, 2009 19:36:42 GMT
I can identify with the different types of anxiety too m'dear - and with the world ending thing as well! We are currently about to try re usable nappies cos it suddeny hit my conscience abot just how many nappies we throw away and what damage they do to the world.... If we just all do a little bit it might help... xxx
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